I still believe in you.
(even though you did disagree with the age difference between me and daised. I did/do love her, and I would never do to her what was done to you... I couldn't hurt her. Hell, the pedestal I kept her on was so high I could hardly reach her.)
Your travails bind you to humanity.
I have had a nervous breakdown, an eating disorder, I've been in jail. Others gawk in wonder at my mistakes, too, while the stories are told. People sit back and tell themselves "I wouldn't have done that."
They will be in that darkest spot in turn. I honestly think that is what life is -- a big round-robin where everyone takes a turn fucking up.
anyway, just keep believing in yourself. ok?