pre-contest and can't sleep!

[silverbackn]

silver what did you end up taking to catch some zz's bro

Klonopin, it's working very well! I slept for like 12-13 hours the other day, it was beautiful.

 

[Bruce]

yeah i take it as well, 1.5mg at night with my remeron. the klons help me stay asleep. glad to hear your sleeping bro. good luck i am looking forward to seeing your pics 225 5% right? should be putting many people to shame

 

[silverbackn]

yeah i take it as well, 1.5mg at night with my remeron. the klons help me stay asleep. glad to hear your sleeping bro. good luck i am looking forward to seeing your pics 225 5% right? should be putting many people to shame

I'm having a higher carb day right now and I'm thinking I'm blowing up, I stepped on the scale and I was 222. Tears. I think I might need to up the carbs for a few more days. When I deplete I will disappear, gotta stay full until then!

 

[Bruce]

your a maniac bro. mad props for that kind of discipline. what weight are you aiming for

 

[silverbackn]

your a maniac bro. mad props for that kind of discipline. what weight are you aiming for

Thanks dog, I appreciate it! I think I will up my carbs even more tomorrow. I would like to be around 215 on-stage after my carb up and water depletion. That last few days is tricky though.

 

[Bruce]

woop some ass silver. you'll hit 215 with your work ethic

 

[tical]

hang in there bro, you've definitely got some awesome determination to be able to pull through this with all of the stuff you've been dealing with... good luck out there!

 

[silverbackn]

You guys are awesome! Your words of encouragement really help! This has definitely been a tough week. I am staying positive as much as possible and trying to keep my head up. It will get better. I have found a deeper belief in myself and a deeper resolve. I have found a spiritual strength that seems to take the edges off of the unbearable. Part of the empowerment of it is doing what you can with what you have, but at the same time not worrying about the things you can't control. Just keep grinding and keep smiling!

 

[Bruce]

i can't wait till i can live those words i let too much shit that i can't control bother me,

 

[silverbackn]

It is the best feeling in the world! If you do all that you can do you have no remorse and you won't second guess yourself. If it is out of your hands you just have to let it go and believe that it will work out as it's meant to. It's tough at first, because you always want to fix everything, but you eventually realize that you become self-destructive from beating your head against a wall. It doesn't mean that you won't hurt over things, you just have to have faith.