I gotta second what CK said... your log was the first one that I read through (your comp one) and its what hooked me on EF and I can't express how glad I am that I came here!!! I look up to you alot too (along with others on here) and I know that you;ll get through it hun!!!
Heavy bummage Sorry to hear that, and a hangover to boot....
If you want to explore it -- I've occassionally fallen into the depression thing and every time I get to the point where i actually go talk to someone about it, they start to recommend all the script crap that makes you gain weight - which of course would only serve to make me more depressed..... Anyway I usually end up throwing in some inositol - its just a B vitamin (forget which one) in powder form -- for somethign that is not a script, fairly cheap and quicky it seems to help while I work on getting the rest of my shit in order.
Here's some of the discussion on it from the search function: