Just to basically open up a little so you know where I am.
I made a lot of money and was a really good looking guy, I thought I was untouchable and I was egotistical.
What happened was I made a mistake, the anxiety of which are me up, and it came out in various ways.
My face became almost completely paralyzed and even today I cant smile properly.
I got MRSA which really scarred my back.. so I lost a lot of confidence.
I went through a divorce and gave my ex the house, to be honest I'm so ashamed I would of done that anyway.
There is a lot more, but basically after dealing with being disowned by my family I decided to go back to the thing I used as a focus which is the gym .
I used to be such a nice person, and i lost all that, i lost my kindness and i want that back.
I wont be able to put things right but I can change my future and be a good example for my kids.
I dont drink or take drugs, which I guess is one positive.
I am sure I will have lost some respect through being open but I want everyone to know who I am.
Thank you all guys.
Saying all this means I can focus on why I'm here.