Kelly's (aka Sweet_Bitch) Log

[Sweet_Bitch]

OMG!! What a coincidence!!! I was your exact age/weight/size when I started my fitness journey...... Thus I know it can be done & that you can do it!! Good luck and if you have any questions - please ask!!

FYI -- avoiding the alcohol is hard at first - but it does get easier - hang in there!!

Really?? My size? And you've got a show coming up? I've seen the pics of you in your suits...OMG!!! How long as it been since you started?

 

[jenscats5]

Really?? My size? And you've got a show coming up? I've seen the pics of you in your suits...OMG!!! How long as it been since you started?

Yep!! I was 170lbs in 1996 when I got divorced.....it was then I decided it was time to make a change. I started slowly - my exercise constantly evolved (started with walking, then kickboxing, then joined a gym,etc). It's been a constant evolution and upping of the challenges.

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

So far, so good today. I missed cardio this morning...again...could NOT wake up but have eaten GREAT Carrots for breakfast, salad for lunch. Time for a snack but I'm not all that hungry....

 

[jenscats5]

So far, so good today. I missed cardio this morning...again...could NOT wake up but have eaten GREAT Carrots for breakfast, salad for lunch. Time for a snack but I'm not all that hungry....

Just a suggestion - you should have a protein first thing in the morning.....like eggs or protein powder stirred into your oatmeal....and top that salad with some chicken....

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

Yesterday was a miserable failure.


And the crappy/cool thing is-I actually feel really bad about that.

I need to find someplace that sells will power


Today....no cardio....HUNGOVER.

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

I'm back...personal life issues. Yes, they get in the way of everything else but things have calmed down now. I ordered Levorex, Sesamax, and Cardio Breeze-received them last night. Used the Cardio Breeze this morning-didn't notice much of a difference. Started the others after cardio, not feeling tweeked or anything so that's a plus. Went back to the gym last week-couldn't lift my arms for 4 days...ha ha ha. Eating has been good but not perfect, haven't lost a pound. Oh, and my home scale is about 10 pounds off so I'm starting out at 180, not 170. Therefore I now have 40 pounds to lose and according to my husbands time table, 3 months to do it in. Hell of a goal and with little to no faith in myself, hard to imagine actually making it. I actually can't see myself losing any weight, as I haven't done anything but gain it for the last 3 1/2 years. That's not entirely true-I did lose some weight but I haven't been able to lose more then 10 pounds. I have no will power, no drive, and no ability to stick to anything weight-loss wise. If I am unable to lose the weight I will be getting divorced, which although I don't want to happen, I resent the threat. I resent it enough to basically self-defeat anything I start. It's the same arguement that fat women all over the world make-if he really loved me the weight wouldn't matter. I'm not obese but I'm fat and he doesn't like that. And if you factor in all of the other things that have been going on between him and I (which I can't get into as he will read this) I am the EXACT opposite of motivated by certain actions. I want to lose the weight for myself as I'm not happy with myself physically but the more he pushes and threatens the less I want to do it. Fucked up I know and no doubt in my own head but a serious challenge just the same. I've considered just leaving him to avoid the entire situation, if I cut him and his demands out maybe I'd actually be able to lose the weight. not to mention that I may not have such a low/negative self-esteem if I didn't have to see the way that he looks at me or other such things. It's hard to get motivated when you already start out feeling like a worthless failure.

 

[Miss24k]

No friggin kidding, if your damn husband (yes I said it!) threats you or pushes you away you aren't going to want to do it! I f*cking hate men like that (yup I said it again, and I honestly hope he does f*cking read this). I'm sorry but your husband is a damn idiot, and hope to god he has a killer body, and looks like Vin Diesel.

You are not going to lose weight because your man wants you to, it just isn't going to happen. Huney you'll lose the weight if you truly want to, it's got to come from you. I'm sure you are a beauitful woman and your husband should love you for the beauitful person you are, and if you're happy at your weight then that should be good enough for him. You need to be happy with yourself.

Yes it's great to have a beauitful body, but beauty is only skin deep, which fades over time. Inner beauty is what truly makes someone beauitful.

You are not a failure or worthless, you can accomplish anything you put your heart and mind to, and we are here to support you

 

[vachelle72]

Kelly-

Do not let the actions of your silly husband determine how YOU feel about yourself. As 24K said the weight will not come off until YOU are REALLY ready to make a change.

My mate had NO ISSUES at all with me being heavy , he felt there was more of me to love , and in a weird way this enabled me to not be concerned with my size. I would tell myself my man loved me no matter what , so let's eat

And it wasn't until I got tired of looking at myself , that I started the road to good health , and even though there is less of me he still likes what he see's.

Your husband has his own issues that he is projecting on to you , don't let him win by getting down on yourself. As I always say , you have to take care of yourself FIRST , if you don't , you can't be of help to anyone else.

Hang in there , and be your BIGGEST SUPPORTER

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

He's not a bad guy and in his defense he did warn me years ago that he would not be with a fat girl. Not that he's right, he's just carrying out what he told me before. And he does love other things about me, this just happens to be the most important and while I may not agree, I married him. And yes, he made the choice to marry me (I looked the same when we got married) but I did tell him I would lose the weight. He had put on quite a bit himself and he lost it-with NO pressure from me mind you. He made up his mind and did it, which I'm proud of him for. I can respect the fact that he isn't happy with the way that I look, after all, it's hard to be married to someone that physically repulses you. (No, he hasn't said that.) I just wish I didn't let his attitude affect mine so much. I suppose that my self image isn't truly his fault. I'm sure that if I sat down with a shrink they would tell me that I'm projecting my unhappiness on to him. Maybe that's true, like I said, I just wish I could stop letting his attitude affect me.

And no, he doesn't look VinDiesel. He's far from ugly, but he's no Vin

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

So far, so good. Only lifted twice this week, no other time. Worked 3 11+ hour days, but I did start the Levorex, Sesamax, Cardio Breeze, and T-Rex. Cardio Breeze seems to be pretty cool-one didn't do shit but two work nicely. No sides from the Levorex or Sesamax that I can tell. My appetite has been out of control in the afternoons, but that may not have anything to do w/ either of those. Calorie intake has been good-less then 1500 all week. Up to 30 minutes of cardio-got in 3 days. Not great, but far more then I was doing Tomorrow is cheat day which means a glass of wine....YIPPIE!!!!