I am not judging dear lady.
I used to be JUST LIKE YOU... then I got tired of getting the short end of the stick.
The first time you get treated like you are the only woman on the planet after being taken for granted and being treated like shit your whole life, you get hooked.
Then it's a matter of finding a guy who is a good guy (a lot of men use the "worship game" to pull the wool over a woman's eyes just so they can tag that, then do whatever they want and keep coming back for more free ass as long as that woman will allow).
IMHO THE ONLY REASONS ONE SHOULD CHOOSE A LIFE PARTNER:
1. LIKE
2. RESPECT
3. COMMON LIFE GOALS
If any one of these components is missing, it will not work longterm period.... I don't care how good *the sex* is. LOL ... or how much one *thinks* they love that other person.