I went to jail over my roid rage, i'm so sorry and now my life is over!

[chrismartin1978]

Im on 100mg of Finaplix daily. It's been 3 weeks and i'm really feeling the finaplix. My acne is bad and my anger is over the top. I can't sleep and i'm always thinking of hurting people or people hurting me which turns into me getting mad and wanting to kill someone.

Last weekend I was at Walmart looking at some gym clothes. Their was an old man in the same area as me. When i wanted to pass the old man in a tight small isle I asked him in a nice way to move so i can pass him with my cart. He looked at me and just looked away. I then again told him to move please and moved closer with my cart. He looked at me again and then looked at my cart which was pretty close to him. He then asked me if i was going to run him over if he does not move. I laughed and said no sir, i just want to pass you. He again just looked away ignoring me standing half way in the isle trying to make himself look wide so i wouldn't pass. I then waited a minute looking at him tapping my finger on the cart. I then lost my patience and ran the side of the cart full force into him. He flew against the side of the isle and onto the ground. I then ran over his fingers with the cart and as I passed him i said "Excuse me". I then continued on to the check out, bought my item and left the store. On the way home I kept thinking how mean that was of me, and I should of just went the long way around him to get to where I wanted to go. This guy was about 60 - 70 years old. The guy could not even stand up straight. I have NEVER done this before. I mean i have had roid rage, but NEVER this bad !!! I could of went to jail!!! Like i said, i take 100mg of Finaplix DAILY and I have been on it a little over 2 weeks. My cycle is going to bring me to a month and a half before i get off. Is their anything I can do to calm myself before I kill someone? I was REALLY close to kicking him in the face as i passed by, but instead i said "excuse me". It was a really close call...


The other day i was driving home from work. I was going the regular 120 km down the high way. I was on the far left side "where the fast traffic goes". I ended up behind someone that was going around 100km. I flashed my lights and tried to pass him, but traffic was too heavy so i was stuck behind him. After honking for a while he started to slow down. I then started to tail him. When I did that he HIT HIS BREAKS!!! I almost hit the back of his car. I then found a gap so i could go into the lane to the right. I finally got beside him and he started to laugh. I rolled down my window and started to yell. He rolled down his window and started to laugh at me, so i grabbed shit from my car "cup of coke from McDonalds which was half full" and garbadge, batteries and shit that i had laying in my arm rest container. I got so much shit in his car and on him that he was freaking out. The Mcdonalds cup of diet coke that i threw at him hit him in the side of the shoulder and exploded all in his car. I then started to laugh and left the high way taking the long way home. Once I got home "not even 10 minutes later" a cop came to my door and asked me what happened and that their was reports of me throwing items out of my car onto other cars. I told the cop that it was just some tissues and soft small items. The cop knew I was lying because a few people called the police while this was happening and told them i was throwing everything in my car at him.

Anyways I ended up going to jail for an hour till they decided to let me go as long as i signed something that i would pay a fine and damages made to the other vehicle. I also had to plead guilty. I agreed and they let me go home.

I want to know if i can get anyone elses opinion on my dose. Is 100mg every day way too much. I want to be on it for a month and a half. Should i lower my dose? I want this to be my last time on steroids. This is why i'm going so high of a dose and on it for that long.

My stats are i'm 216 pounds in my early 30's. I am 6'2 feet tall. I don't have a lot of fat, just a bit of a belly, not much though.

 

[shrimp poboy]

This is a joke right?If its not grow the fuck up bro

 

[SouthernLord]

You should probably stop your cycle. A heavy dose of 9mm aspirin should work great for PCT.

 

[whitewidow]

JESUS MAN.i cant say i can trelate in my mind,but havent acted through that way.bottom line its unnacceptable.not only is it wrong,illegal and just a shitty way to live.im not trying to beat you up cuz im hoping you did that already to yourself.. but you also make our community look bad.think about that.meatheads are meatheads to most people so if one acts out they judge us all.go do something really nice for 3 old people today!get on some calming agents and if you cant handle the sauce get off!

 

[BigDuke99]

and old man......not fucking cool

 

[theemperor]

In my opinion, there is always a way out of letting your anger get to you, even with "roid" rage. I have been really pissy or aggresive at a time or two BUT I never let it get to that point of hurting someone. I also believe you have to be responsible for your own actions. You have to stop and think of what you are doing or could do. There are repercussions to pay for your actions and also verbal abuse is as powerful. I am 37 years old now and have learned alot since I had an eruption that nearly cost my freedom many years ago. Everyone does a bad choice at some point in time and alot of the times its when you are young cause young people think they got it all together but they really don't. At a young age, life is fast and easy to the point of "you can't touch me" kind of thinking. I am not saying that at you directly, I am just making a example. I just believe that you have to get a hold of yourself, examine your outlook on life, and how you can destroy your life by making bad choices. Don't let "roid" rage be the culprit when God gave us a will to make decisions. Take this advice like it was a father or brother speaking to you. Sometimes life does not seem fair and we can be doing everything perfect and STILL, its never enough. Its frustrating, in your case, I know. You have to be the better man and do what you should of done - Go around the old man. Be a leader, have a kind heart towrds others even though they do not want to comply. Thats when you are a real man. Society is a life learning experience but I stress on thinking twice on your motives. Take care and try not to worry about what happenned, its done. What you can do is be a better person everyday.

 

[anabolic12]

Wow, that's just crazy... I'm not trying to beat you up either, but you need to control your temper. It's all in your head.. If you cant control your emotions then you need to get off your cycle. All of these people say "I couldnt control myself" its total bullshit, you just couldnt control your own mind and that just being weak minded. If I would have seen you do that to the old man... I would have came over there and kick the shit out of you, so I guess my hypocricy (sp?) can only go so far!!!
Now that I have said that... Theres really nothing you can do, but stop the cycle or my cut your dose in half and see if that helps, but if your pulling stunts like this you might want to reconsider your gear usage.
I'm sorry for the rant and coming down on you, but there is just NO excuse for your action....NONE!

The old man has live 60 to 70 years.. If he wants to be in the middle of the isle, let him.

With your road rage... Thats a good way to get killed or shot at... thats all I have to say

 

[joe d]

wow. steroids arent for you. get off. run pct. go to a store and buy st johns wart its in the vitamin isles and take the highest reccomended dose and keep your cool. you fucked up pretty bad you still may be in trouble for the old man thing. get rid of the gear. all you can do now is prevent it from happening again. do what you have to do.

 

[nydj66]

I had very bad aggression my first time on tren (although I never flattened a 70-year-old man.) There are plenty of assholes out there and maybe they deserve a smack in the head now and then...but we all know that getting physical is only going to lead to big troubles so you have to find a way to control yourself.

You are ALWAYS responsible for your actions. If you cannot control your temper on tren then stop taking it now before you end up in prison for really hurting somone. Many on this board feel that "roid rage" is not real. However, common sense tells me that even if you can keep your cool normally, if you go on a cycle and make a step change in how your body responds to stress, you may very well find that you have never developed the tools to cope with this higher level of anger.

Just as an observation, I have noticed that I got into situations where people fucked with me a lot more when I was on cycle. This can only mean that I was doing something differently that invited such challenges.

 

[chrismartin1978]

I really do feel bad. I scared myself SO BAD. After I hit that old man and wathing him fly a few feet back into the isle, i felt a warm, fuzzy happy feeling, like "I showed YOU who's boss". In the car on the way home thinking what i did, i wanted to drive my car into a wall and kill myself. I was SO mad at myself! I don't know if i broke his fingers "probably did because i heard some cracking when the cart went over his fingers", but that man did NOT deserve that!!! I have called in sick to work for this week and I'm staying in doors. I'm working out here at my house, and i'm going to relax, watch very happy and funny video's online and try to be a happier person. I'm also going to THINK before I act. I will try that before i get off my cycle. I will try the ST JOHN WART that Joe D suggested. Starting next week when I am better I'll go to the old folks home and start to help out a bit. I have no excuse for what i did to him. I wish i could go back in time.

For the situation with that guy in the car. I should not of thrown all my junk in my car into his car and at him. I COULD of killed him. I guess when I saw him laughing at me "TAUNTING ME". I just lost it. At that time I was thinking that someone that slow should NOT be in that lane. I thought if i honked, he would be like "oh shit i'm in the wrong lane if i'm going to go slow like this". If he would of went to the other lane and said OH SORRY MAN, sorry for going so slow in a fast lane and blocking you, I would of been like "NO PROBLEM, have a nice day". I guess at that time i was hoping he would realize he was in the wrong and fix it by going faster, or moving. I guess i should of stayed behind him at that slow speed or try to pass him later on when i could. FOR SURE i should not of thrown everything in my vehicle at him. I was so mad i wanted something to really hit him in the face and get him to stop laughing at me. I could of killed him and that scares me to death... I don't want to take someone elses life, and i don't want to go up for murder charges.

I have been on the juice a few times before and on different mixtures. This is my first time on Finaplix. I am ONLY on finaplix and nothing else. Man it has some nasty side effects!!! Your right, it's all in my mind, but this never happened before on my other cycles with a lot of other powerful juice combos.