empirebuilder
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Im on 100mg of Finaplix daily. It's been 3 weeks and i'm really feeling the finaplix. My acne is bad and my anger is over the top. I can't sleep and i'm always thinking of hurting people or people hurting me which turns into me getting mad and wanting to kill someone.
Last weekend I was at Walmart looking at some gym clothes. Their was an old man in the same area as me. When i wanted to pass the old man in a tight small isle I asked him in a nice way to move so i can pass him with my cart. He looked at me and just looked away. I then again told him to move please and moved closer with my cart. He looked at me again and then looked at my cart which was pretty close to him. He then asked me if i was going to run him over if he does not move. I laughed and said no sir, i just want to pass you. He again just looked away ignoring me standing half way in the isle trying to make himself look wide so i wouldn't pass. I then waited a minute looking at him tapping my finger on the cart. I then lost my patience and ran the side of the cart full force into him. He flew against the side of the isle and onto the ground. I then ran over his fingers with the cart and as I passed him i said "Excuse me". I then continued on to the check out, bought my item and left the store. On the way home I kept thinking how mean that was of me, and I should of just went the long way around him to get to where I wanted to go. This guy was about 60 - 70 years old. The guy could not even stand up straight. I have NEVER done this before. I mean i have had roid rage, but NEVER this bad !!! I could of went to jail!!! Like i said, i take 100mg of Finaplix DAILY and I have been on it a little over 2 weeks. My cycle is going to bring me to a month and a half before i get off. Is their anything I can do to calm myself before I kill someone? I was REALLY close to kicking him in the face as i passed by, but instead i said "excuse me". It was a really close call...
The other day i was driving home from work. I was going the regular 120 km down the high way. I was on the far left side "where the fast traffic goes". I ended up behind someone that was going around 100km. I flashed my lights and tried to pass him, but traffic was too heavy so i was stuck behind him. After honking for a while he started to slow down. I then started to tail him. When I did that he HIT HIS BREAKS!!! I almost hit the back of his car. I then found a gap so i could go into the lane to the right. I finally got beside him and he started to laugh. I rolled down my window and started to yell. He rolled down his window and started to laugh at me, so i grabbed shit from my car "cup of coke from McDonalds which was half full" and garbadge, batteries and shit that i had laying in my arm rest container. I got so much shit in his car and on him that he was freaking out. The Mcdonalds cup of diet coke that i threw at him hit him in the side of the shoulder and exploded all in his car. I then started to laugh and left the high way taking the long way home. Once I got home "not even 10 minutes later" a cop came to my door and asked me what happened and that their was reports of me throwing items out of my car onto other cars. I told the cop that it was just some tissues and soft small items. The cop knew I was lying because a few people called the police while this was happening and told them i was throwing everything in my car at him.
Anyways I ended up going to jail for an hour till they decided to let me go as long as i signed something that i would pay a fine and damages made to the other vehicle. I also had to plead guilty. I agreed and they let me go home.
I want to know if i can get anyone elses opinion on my dose. Is 100mg every day way too much. I want to be on it for a month and a half. Should i lower my dose? I want this to be my last time on steroids. This is why i'm going so high of a dose and on it for that long.
My stats are i'm 216 pounds in my early 30's. I am 6'2 feet tall. I don't have a lot of fat, just a bit of a belly, not much though.
I remember my first beer......