Florencia Begins THE SHADOW PROJECT

[florencia]

Had good tricep workout yesterday, a bit sore today. Thankfully Diet has beeen oh so good, that i have not had the mental need to do cardio...Yay!
I still have not recovered from those box jumps at park...AY! Sore...even though a had a deep deep muscle massage...
M1: 3 egg whites 1 whole egg
1/2 c oats with sweet & low, and 7 small almonds.
Mood...restless

 

[sbt2082]

Good job on sticking with the diet hun!!!

 

[Roonytunes]

Sounds like you have your groove back on! Nice job on the diet and you make me want to try box jumps now.

Enjoy your weekend

 

[mermaid]

You have a beautiful way with words and I thank you from the bottom of my heart

Beautiful inside and out, by the way. Stay strong

 

[LuluDeren]

Diet has been good, so has training! I have not done HITT,and am afraid to do it.....
I am having strange mood swings...I may blame it on the carb being lower...still inside my macros, yet I am sort of depressed.
Catharsis time....
I do not like winter clothes, it's chilly, not cold, 50F...But I freeze.
I do not like to cover myself up so much, I need to see my skin.
I know how vain it is but that is just me...
I feel soft in bottie, and have a bit of BF% clinging on to my abs, tris, and @ss...
yes of course estrogenic fat.
I am at the point (where I have been oh so many times) where I just need to lose the last 4 lbs. of that miserable fat layer.
I get frustrated and then just want to give in and say what the hell...eat bread...or whatever you crave...
It is like a turning point, if I stick to diet IT WILL show in two weeks, really show and skin fat will be minimal on abs,
Hips and @ass is another matter...LOL
I can see my shoulders a bit more cut, (whatever they are called but I see slices on shoulders) (idiot)...
I know I may be in better shape than many others, but my ideals are so damn high that I do not know if they I will acomplish them.
It has gotten to the point where I can be ashamed of my body...
I am being honest about this so I can help myself and maybe help others who are suffering like me, striving for physical perfection.
I get mad at myself because I do so much and do not have the results I want, I am tired of comparing myself and grading others....
Last night I saw a magazine with Eva Longoria on the cover, and ok...I flipped to the pages where her pictures were...
I told BF...She is pretty, her body is ok, no big deal...They hide her waist, don't show her bottie...He said that is the photographers job to meake her look HOT, and she is.
I think he thought I was crazy, when I just made a gesture...like HOT? (HOT is someone whom I would trade bodies in a flash) Not Eva Longoria...
(If you are lost in my description sorry!)

My point is that my standard of beauty, and grace are so high...that i ca hardly see it in anyone else.
I admire any woman who has a tight tight ass, by plain hard work and diet...
Am I wrong is it impossible to achive at 40?
I think I just answered myself...
Not without a plastic surgeon...
Damn!!!!
I want to cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...and I can'T

OH LORDY!!! Listen Flor, 20 year olds would kill to have your body. You don't need a plastic surgeon, unless your Tupperware needs some new fitted lids .

You are living proof that it IS possible to achieve exactly the perfection you admire.

 

[*Bunny*]

What do you mean IF?????

LOL Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Flor, do I have your permission to some variation on this in my sig ? More people need to take this to heart:

"Accepting who I am, and what I do have, will set me free, will make me smile from inside, and be proud of how prescious I am....
there are millions who IN MY EYES are far better than me in their beauty, in their level of fitness, or even in their financial wealth....
Yet I was made for a reason and I must find that reason and not stall or get hooked on a body that will someday be really wrinkled and stiff by aches and pains...I should enjoy it now that it is healthy, and still working...and stop suffering because it is not long and lean, and on the cover of Vanity Fair...
It is the front cover of my life that I may be putting to waste by not being happy with what I DO have...
I hope it makes sense, and really gets us going to daily acceptance and happiness..."

 

[florencia]

LOL Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Flor, do I have your permission to some variation on this in my sig ? More people need to take this to heart:

"Accepting who I am, and what I do have, will set me free, will make me smile from inside, and be proud of how prescious I am....
there are millions who IN MY EYES are far better than me in their beauty, in their level of fitness, or even in their financial wealth....
Yet I was made for a reason and I must find that reason and not stall or get hooked on a body that will someday be really wrinkled and stiff by aches and pains...I should enjoy it now that it is healthy, and still working...and stop suffering because it is not long and lean, and on the cover of Vanity Fair...
It is the front cover of my life that I may be putting to waste by not being happy with what I DO have...
I hope it makes sense, and really gets us going to daily acceptance and happiness..."

Darling you can do anything you want with me, or my words...!!!LOL
Thanks for correcting spelling!!! This Mexican makes mistakes...LOL

I am flattered!

 

[florencia]

Good Morning!
Still sleepy...well maybe l just lazy.
I did not miss a workout this past week all were intense...I can feel arms heavyyyyyy...
Diet has been good, real good! Trying to understand why my self esteem seems to be in others peoples hands...Not a good thing...It is mine and I should be the one in charge don't you agree?
I have been doing abs twice a week, (Shadow, if he ever reads this) LOL...Should I do more?why not?

 

[florencia]

Off to the loved so much needed box jumps! waist measured just now 25 inches or 63.5 cms!!! Getting there!!!

 

[LuluDeren]

Good Morning, Florencia!!! I'm going to try some box jumps after reading your posts. I agree, YOU are the one who determines your self-worth...although I must add my two cents and say you are a priceless diamond.

Have fun, today!!!