I go through the same internal debate on almost a daily basis, there is only so much grilled chicken and brown rice that a person can eat. I dont need nearly as many calories as you but still have a tough time forcing down what I do need. I also get really sick of cooking, seems like I'm either preparing food or eating it or cleaning up from both. For me personally, If I'm trying to add weight, especially if I'm using AAS, I go ahead and do what I gotta do to prevent a calorie defficet. All the hard work you do in the kitchen and the gym, and all the money spent on AAS will be wasted if you remain calorie defficent while on cycle, if your trying to bulk. Take the fat now in order to get the muscle, we already suffer enough while cutting, enjoy yourself while you can.