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[Phaded]

i agree.. if i was on a solid diet like that for a month i'd be straight up ridiculouso

 

[BlondBomber]

How bout an stats update..........youve been pretty on point for awhile now.....time to jack up the cals? Pics?

Stats? I guess the same. I have changed my focus in the last couple days. I got a job working at the Armani Exchange at the Fashion Valley Mall in San Diego, which means I will be coming into a new wardrobe, so I am trying to lose mas fat to fit comfortable into size 34 pants. I am at a point wher 34's are tight and 36's are loose.
Also, being endomorphic, I am hesitant to eat more because I gain fat easily.
I have been thinking of posting some pics, so on Tuesday I will figure out how to do so.
Oh, I am going to finally have a training partner once again, so my numbers, especially on upper body movements are going to go up!

 

[BlondBomber]

i agree.. if i was on a solid diet like that for a month i'd be straight up ridiculouso

I have to. I can't function if I am not on point. For me its either all or nothing, and after being on nothing before, I am have to give it all.
I am like a reverse anorexic, I feel actual guilt if I miss a meal. I don't miss workouts, no matter what. Obviously, I do not have children, so I don't have to contest with that challenge. I have decided to continue living at my Mom's house to further my bodybuilding goals. Where else could I open a fridge with 10+ pounds of chicken breast?
I don't go out. I used to drink heavily (12-24 beers a night, depending) and smoke 5-12 cigarettes a day, so going out is no fun for me all sober and food-lusting, plus I love to sleep. I don't waste time on woman my age, God damn if I could meet a fitness chick!
Fuck, this has turned into a rant, fuck it!
Sometimes I think, why not take The Step and get jacked up? I have the connection, not hard when living next to TJ, and the money. Fuck creatine, pro-hormones, maybe I should just get really jacked.
Then I think of my future health (both physical and mental) and I calm down.
It's like I ride a wave of tension.
Do cardio. Eat egg whites and oatmeal. Make 4 other meals for the day. Go to class. Write papers. Workout. Eat more. Go to bed early. Have no life.
And then I think of how I am able to do what I want with my life and that I have all the resources I need. But, that tension creeps up.
Like the fat bitch that cut in the order line at the butcher today.
I had to develop an inner dialogue:
"Okay, self, calm down. All though that fat, ugly bitch with an equally unattractive child just cut infront of you, and who might get the last of the chicken breast on special, its okay. Stay calm. Anger will solve nothing and you can always find chicken breast."
Same when I was eating Mother's Day dinner out with my Mom. I live in area that is being Yuppized, but has rememnants of construction money, and there was this fat, bitch-ass couple yelling and cussing into their phone when my Mom and I sat down. We ended up moving to the back, but fuck, did I want to beat some motherfuckers ass.
See, I like being leaner now because I don't look as strong as when I was fat. I just wanted punk that motherfucker so bad. Not like one or two punches, but his fat ass through the window. I think about that shit. I deadlift 500+ for a single, how would that transfer to me throwing someone into something or throught a window?
Fuck, now I have a headache, at least it will be gone tomorrow.

 

[BlondBomber]

AM: treadmill/30min./4mph/3%

PM:Back/Calves

1. chin-ups w/straps
bwx8
bwx8
bwx6+2partials

2. Ronnie T-bar rows
90x8
135x8
160x8

3. BB rows
135x8
185x8

4. wider-grip pulldowns
9px8
11px8

5. behind-neck BB shrugs
95x8
135x8
New to these. Shorta a weird position.

6. raw snatch-grip deadlifts w/straps
225x6
315x6
365x6

7. Smith-press calf raises w/block
90x12
180x12
180x12/140x12/90x12

8. seated calf raises
90x12
135x12
160x12/135x12/90x12

9. vertical leg press calf raises
10px15
14px15
14px15/12px5+10partials/10px5+10 partials

Coffee.

Cardio.

1:
10 egg whites
1/2 c oatmeal
multi
2 fish oils

can Pepsi One

2:
2 rolls yellowtail tuna sushi

diet Rockstar

Trained.

3: (PWO meal #1)
1.5 scp pp
8 oz oj

4: (PWO meal #2)
chicken breast
2 potatoes
2 Tbsp olive oil
can Pepsi One

5: (PWO meal #3)
sirloin steak
dry potato
small salad w/lite Italian dressing

6:
chicken breast
heart of Romaine salad
2 Tbsp dressing
can Pepsi One

7:
chicken breast
celery w/ANPB

 

[BlondBomber]

1:
10 egg whites
1/2 c oatmeal
multi
2 fish oils
coffee

2:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice

3:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice
venti coffee

4:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice

5:
chicken breast
heart of Romaine salad
2 Tbsp dressing

6:
chicken breast
celery w/2 Tbsp ANPB

 

[Phaded]

I have to. I can't function if I am not on point. For me its either all or nothing, and after being on nothing before, I am have to give it all.
I am like a reverse anorexic, I feel actual guilt if I miss a meal. I don't miss workouts, no matter what. Obviously, I do not have children, so I don't have to contest with that challenge. I have decided to continue living at my Mom's house to further my bodybuilding goals. Where else could I open a fridge with 10+ pounds of chicken breast?
I don't go out. I used to drink heavily (12-24 beers a night, depending) and smoke 5-12 cigarettes a day, so going out is no fun for me all sober and food-lusting, plus I love to sleep. I don't waste time on woman my age, God damn if I could meet a fitness chick!
Fuck, this has turned into a rant, fuck it!
Sometimes I think, why not take The Step and get jacked up? I have the connection, not hard when living next to TJ, and the money. Fuck creatine, pro-hormones, maybe I should just get really jacked.
Then I think of my future health (both physical and mental) and I calm down.
It's like I ride a wave of tension.
Do cardio. Eat egg whites and oatmeal. Make 4 other meals for the day. Go to class. Write papers. Workout. Eat more. Go to bed early. Have no life.
And then I think of how I am able to do what I want with my life and that I have all the resources I need. But, that tension creeps up.
Like the fat bitch that cut in the order line at the butcher today.
I had to develop an inner dialogue:
"Okay, self, calm down. All though that fat, ugly bitch with an equally unattractive child just cut infront of you, and who might get the last of the chicken breast on special, its okay. Stay calm. Anger will solve nothing and you can always find chicken breast."
Same when I was eating Mother's Day dinner out with my Mom. I live in area that is being Yuppized, but has rememnants of construction money, and there was this fat, bitch-ass couple yelling and cussing into their phone when my Mom and I sat down. We ended up moving to the back, but fuck, did I want to beat some motherfuckers ass.
See, I like being leaner now because I don't look as strong as when I was fat. I just wanted punk that motherfucker so bad. Not like one or two punches, but his fat ass through the window. I think about that shit. I deadlift 500+ for a single, how would that transfer to me throwing someone into something or throught a window?
Fuck, now I have a headache, at least it will be gone tomorrow.

classic.. keep up the good work bro.. and as for saying you have no life just because you dont go out and party is a ridiculous statement.. i didn't know you were all natty though i'd like to see some pics to see how far along you are .. lastly.. hook me up with some clothes.. ax has some dope shit..

 

[BlondBomber]

classic.. keep up the good work bro.. and as for saying you have no life just because you dont go out and party is a ridiculous statement.. i didn't know you were all natty though i'd like to see some pics to see how far along you are .. lastly.. hook me up with some clothes.. ax has some dope shit..

Yeah, all natty. That's why I stopped competing in PLing. No way was I going to bust my ass, pay money to travel to a local, and then get my ass blown out of the water by a juicer. Nothing against them, I just couldn't win, so I stopped playing the game. Also, one of my bros can't create his own T after 20+ years of juicing, and that shit just scared the fuck out of me, oh, plus I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate needles.
And yeah, I will definately have a new wardrobe, ala the fatty employee discount I get!

 

[BlondBomber]

AM: treadmill/30min./4mph/3%

PM: Chest/Biceps

1. incline bench press
45x10
95x10
135x6
185x6
205x6

2. bench press
225x6
245x4+2 hard forced reps

3. decline DB press
60x8
80x8

4. incline cable flyes
4px10
4px10

5. olympic BB wide-grip curls
45x8
65x8
95x8

6. alternate DB curls
35x8
40x8

7. EZ-bar curls
75x8
95x6+1 forced rep

8. reverse olympic BB curls
45x12
55x12

Great workout! Having a spotter definately makes my confidence go up, with makes me able to train heavier than normal. Inclines were awesome. Though, I need to lessen the weight for the flyes and feel more of a burn. Biceps went well also.

3 scp coffee

Cardio.

1:
10 egg whites
1/2 c oatmeal
multi
vitamin C
potassium
calcium
2 fish oils

2:
chicken breast
1/2 c white rice

3:
1.5 scp pp
heart of Romaine salad
1 Tbsp dressing
venti coffee (which when mixed w/pp tastes okay)

4:
chicken breast
1/2 c white rice
can Pepsi One

Trained.

5:
1.5 scp pp
8 oz oj

6:
salmon
2 dry potatoes (yeah, bitch!)
can Pepsi One

7:
chicken breast
heart of Romaine salad
1 Tbsp dressing
2 Tbsp ANPB

 

[BlondBomber]

1: 1 scp pp mixed w/3 scp coffee

AM: cardio

2:
10 egg whites
1/2 c oatmeal
vitamins
fish oils
can Pepsi One

3:
1.5 scp pp

4:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice

5:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice
venti coffee

6:
1.5 scp pp

7:
12 pieces assorted sashimi
diet Rockstar

8:
chicken breast
heart of Romaine salad
2 Tbsp dressing
2 Tbsp ANPB

It's been a week since I last had a cheat meal, and I am going to try and see how long I can go. Still not drinking or chewing, being so pure it almost makes me sick. Not actually, just I feel weird. I bought some 34 size pants today, which for my frame is great. Pics are coming after finals, I'm not gonna lie. I am busy now that I have started to work, but my diet/training will not fail, because if it does, I am a failure.

 

[BlondBomber]

Yesterday.

1:
10 egg whites
1/2 c oatmeal
vitamins
fish oils

venti coffee

2:
1.5 scp pp

3:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice
venti iced tea

4:
1.5 scp pp

5:
chicken breast
1/2 c brown rice

6:
2 rolls spicy tuna sushi
diet Rockstar

7:
chicken breast
heart of Romaine salad
2 Tbsp dressing
2 Tbsp ANPB

I thought I was going to workout, so I ate the 2 rolls of sushi for some faster acting carbs, but my local gym closed too early. Maybe that was a good thing, I worked a 8 hour day, which is a lot for since I haven't worked for about a year.