Its official... I think gear killed my dick. Its dead...

[Snarling Force]

I'm gonna let it all hang out here because I'm pretty depressed but basically my sex drive is dead. With each passing cycle when I started gear back in early 2003, my sex drive would recover less and less each time, despite doing proper PCT. Part of me wonders if I fucked myself up priort to 2003 when I got involved in doing a bunch of bullshit prohormones because I didn't know WTF I was doing and was a noob starting out. I did them for a year with no PCT and I still think about if that has anything to do with where I'm at now.

My last cycle ended about 4 months ago and I did PCT like normal. The past 2 nights I've tried to have sex with my wife and I just would sit there, limp dick, concentrating as hard as I could and it was like sad really. All I could do as I sat there was think man, you fucked it up dude, you ruined yourself and this is what you get. My wife is beautiful and I'm so in love and attracted to her so its nothing to do with that, its just woman, sex, all that stuff seems so alien to me now. I went from a sex driven beast while on the gear, to a dead sex driven guy who couldn't get it up if every miss universe contestant was bent over naked in front of me. The thought of a piece of flesh than hangs out between a man's legs that get sucked on seems alien and actaully foreign to me at this point. Like my brian has been rewired. WTF.

Have I just fucked myself up beyond all hope? I wrote a similar thread about this issue a few months back and everyone said it would get better but last night sitting there like a dumbass in front of my wife really sent me over the edge. I know I could always just go back on test because I was a stallion on that stuff but that is not what I want to do. Anyways, thanks for any advice or encouragement.

 

[b_light]

Hrt is an option bro, a good looking one. I'd go see a doc first tho.

 

[SpyWizard]

Dermacrine
HCG

does the willie good..

 

[H_T_]

get a cialis script.

 

[DJ_UFO]

bro have you had blood work top check your hormone levels? that's the first you shoud do.
Second what did you do for PCT? By your words and depression could be hormone related.

Third, PLEASE SRAY AWAY FROM STEROIDS!!! be healthy, train properly, eat well and let you body rest for a good period. Stay natty. Don't try drugs to keep it up, that will give just a temporary solution; don't try an HRT by yourself, not even from a doctor; give a chance to your own body first; it will take a while but eventually can make it.

How old are you?

 

[KD1]

Cialis will get you through the rough times till your junk starts working again.

 

[Colonel Ingus]

Have you tried any of the ED medications out there now? Sounds like you have the desire part, but the equipment just isn't responding. Viagra, Levitra, or Cialis might be able to help you through until you get back to where you were.

 

[BIGBUCK$]

ag guys cialis
top notch

 

[Snarling Force]

I got some sample cialis and viagra I might try. As to my age, I'm 31 years old. I will wait this thing out don't worry no more cycles for a year at least. I only usually do 1 per year anyways. The thing is though, and I'd like to get some feedback from you all, is do any ED meds actually increase desire or sex drive? In my limited experience with viagra and from what I've heard, ED meds give you a hard-on but the desire remains the same. Basically what I'm asking is, is there an ED med that gives you the animal desires you get while on test? That is what I'm after. Not a rock hard cock, but rather increased desire. Does cialis work in this matter?

 

[H_T_]

Ed meds do not increase libido. i am a heavy A-A-S user. and this is prolly the longest i've been off in 10 years, which is about 5 months right now. things are getting back to normal, meaning i don't need the pick me ups of ED meds anymore, or as much. if you have patience and give it time, i think things will regulate themselves. it can take up to 6 or more months to get your natural levels back up.