GOOD EVENING ALL!!! Today was hectic as, well, i dunno? Just was!
Aries, I hear ya! I've been there.Still am! I've done things the right way, the wrong way, gone back and forth, and up-side down!!!
Honestly though, and I hate to say it, but Mermie is right. Alot of what I struggle with is really complicated because this eating disorder is deeply intertwined with the bipolar CRAP!
Thats what I call it. I saw my psychiatrist this a.m. in fact. Since I've been back on med's my mood's have been more stable. What I've realized is NOW, when I hurt myself with, alcohol, food, an overwhelming urge to get a new piercing or tattoo, (lol!) or anything else.... it's not a REAL feeling but just a "habit". Something I've "always done". I don't have those desire's now, but without that desire for destruction, im void or theres an emptiness. So now, I have to filll it with GOOD and Positive things. And its a really strange thing to say.... BUT IT'S F'ING HARD!!! But I want to!!!
Which is still more than I could say 1 month ago! Thank you for your story and openness with me, and making me feel comfortable. It means alot!
GetnFit... I will definetly look into that!!!
HI ICE PRINCESS!!!
I've been following your log for a while! I think you and your hubby rock! I admire your discipline, and your abs are Hawt
And Mermie....
Once again, You steal my heart, because U know like no other! I don't know if "thank you" is the right thing to say, because having a mental disorder is far from a blessing... but it's SO NICE to have someone to truely understand
OH!!! BY THA WAY ! How DID I 4-GET?! AMY GOT A JOB-E-JOB!!!! I'M GOING TO BE A RECEPTIONIST AT THIS POSH SKIN SPA!!! WOOOOO HOOO!!!
THANK YOU ALL FOR THE PRAYERS AND WISHES
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