Amy' S GeT Right Get Tight Journal

[getnfit06]

Prayers your way for a job soon and good health too

You can do it Amy!

 

[mermaid]

Thanks guys... I know, I know : Like I said, not having a job has really screwed me up! It's like LOOKING for a job has become a full time job! I know thats an excuse, but it is true. As far as my medication. I'll tell ya. Tha bipolar diagnosis is for real. I've done alot of research, and not only is it biological (in the family-- pased down; luckyme ) but it's progressive with age, and that's why it's usually not diagnosed until early adult-hood. I spent a good time in the hospital last summer because of it. And tried to go off the med's for three months recently trying to prove to myself I could "do it MYSELF!" Well, I found a drawer full of knives one night in one of my episodes, and it wasn't pretty. So, needless to say, I'm much better off, stable, and happier ON them. The side effects are worth the sanity! HA! But, I really do need to sit down and figure out my diet exactly. I've been procrastinating! I admit! Thanks for all the encouragement U's GUy's =) Your great!

You're obviously on meds for a reason, bipolar disorder is much different to depression and like you've said, trying to "do it yourself" is life threatening. However, clean diet/exercise as well as the meds can control the mood swings you experience. *deep breath* Having suffered from major depressive disorder for as long as I can remember and taking SSRIs on and off all my life, I can attest to the clean living treatment as improving my overall well being and I am now working hard to eliminate drugs from my life altogether. There are similarities between MDD and Bipolar (especially if you are predominantly depressed, not manic) and I would suggest trying some of these things (if you haven't already):

Don't try to fix your diet and training all at once by writing a full blown plan and trying to stick to it - take baby steps, set small attainable goals because failure only makes you feel worse. This is new to you, be kind to yourself

QUIT DRINKING NOW!! You KNOW it's bad for you and only exacerbates mood swings

EAT!! And:

Increase Omega 3 intake right now - Salmon, other fatty fish, flax, walnuts etc - it is proven to limit bipolar symptoms

Increase B Complex - wholegrains, brown rice, legumes - a low carb/Atkins is the worst possible diet for any depressive disorder - Get a good multivitamin and zinc supplement also

Whatever you do, avoid thermogenics - you don't need them to lose weight and they just send you crazy

And this sounds silly but make sure you get some fresh air everyday



PM me at any time - I've been using a lot of other tricks to help myself so if you need some advice or just a shoulder to lean on....

 

[gemini269]

Thank You very much for the well wishes and even more important the prayers gettin fit they are much needed AND appreciated!

Mermaid: You almost made me cry!!! LOL =) I know that may sound silly but having a mental disorder can be a lonely thing b/c even though people are sweet loving and compassionate, it's still so comforting when someone actually has BEEN where you are. Your advice is spot on!Alot i knew about, alot i didn't!! I'm vegetarian and don't eat fish but I'm very good about getting all my good essential fatty acid's in, get lots of exercise, and fresh air in I must admit i NEVER eat starchy carbs, I've fought an on going battle with bulimia/anorexia for atleast ten years (it's almost comical at this point--- i just deal with it) so im afriad of food. I have the all or nothing mentality. When i eat i slice of bread i'll end up finishing the loaf! I did quit taking thermogenics all together! Do still drink caffeine, but early in the day. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply and give me some tips! Know you can drop me a line any time as well!! =)

 

[gemini269]

scale weight: 119.2

My food continued through the night last night to include two small detour bars at 160 calories a piece
Two scoops EAS protein
and an apple with 1 large T peanut butter

Today was not so good either. I've been arguing with my father alot over not having a job, bills, feeling really down, like a failure, and instead of turning to food, i decided (reaaallly smart) to have a glass of wine and four smokes) Atleast earlier in the day I did 40 minutes on the treadmill ( empty tummy, 20 minutes run/20 minutes walk incline) and chest 1st meal, salad with a veggie patty, a little over 1/4 cup peanuts, baco's, light done right italian dressing, diet mountain dew. Had two liters of water. Way too much sf gum and an americano with soy milk BEFORE the self destruction mode turned on. Now im having another salad like the first one. ANd will prob have 2 scoops of whey protein before bed. WOW. I hate t log this CRAPOLA I"m eating. But actually SEEING it on "paper" puts it in to perspective!!! This is pathetic!!

 

[gemini269]

Hey Lovely's! Good evening It's been a few days... I've been really embarassed about my "behavior in my dieting" so I haven'r posted. I guess now is a good time to fess up to some things. I don't know what I expect you to say? Or how I can magically make myself think differently after ten years of over/under eating, but at my current time, I am deathly afraid of food by day and a machine at night. Almost like at night, no one can "see"? I still don't eat un healthy foods at night, but probably more than i need. Luckily I'm still pretty darn lean with a pretty good bit of muscle despite my bad habits Like today... I did 45 minutes cardio.. 20min. run/ 25 min. walk incline ( treadmill) on an empty stomach, ate 1/4 of an apple, green tea, Americano with soy milk. Later had 1 glass wine (riesling), then had dinner at a Hibachi grill with the fam. Had a very small salad, just ate the lettuce, and some ginger dressing. later, 3 sugar free caramels. Now my salad with bacos veg. patty, light done right italian + 1/4 cup peanuts. I'll continue tonight... with what? who knowws? I can't seem to break the cycle?! I'm ALWAYS constipated (gross... I know!) But it constantly makes me feel like im "bigger" than I am, which only makes behave WORSE! When it comes to my bad dieting! Like i said, i don't know what i think it is your supposed to say? I already see a therapist at the atlanta center for eating disorders and a psychiatrist.... WOW! I sound like a mess! eh? But any help? Thoughts would be appreciative! Thanks guys....

 

[ck2006]

You should go see a dietian or a nutritional specialist. They will list foods you should eat, how much and when. Thats how I started, before I wouldn't eat anything until supper and then eat all night. After seeing both a dietian and nutritional specialist I have a list of foods to choose from and times to eat them. Journal, journal journal, if you don't, you find your self not accountable. Writing things down makes things more concrete and less likely to diviate from the plan you have created for yourself and it becomes a habit! Also preplan the day before so you don't find your self stressing the next day and eating whatever because you didn't plan
Hope that helps a little

 

[getnfit06]

As far as the constipation, I don't usually have problems like that but...it seems like after i eat my morning oats... i go perty darn quickly afterwards. SO i think they may get things mooooving..if u catch my drift !!
Are you going to start logging every meal each day? Also are you using fitday? It will really help to show you how you're doing REALLY and what you may be lacking or getting too much of. I think it's pretty helpful.
It looks like you are on your way Just come visit us everyday and we will help you as much as possible. I've learned a lot from the really focused and determine ladies (and gents) on this board!
Oh, back to the pottying subject...maybe get some pysillium and try drinking that.

 

[ck2006]

I find flaxseed or bran flakes (not the cereal) really works well I sprinkle that on my oatmeal or cereal

 

[gemini269]

Thanx for such Quick replies chica's! =) ck2006... Yeah, I used to be in a good habit of eating breakfast pretty quickly after a.m. cardio, but ever since we moved 30 minutes from my gym,,, by the time i get home, and get cleaned up, it's already like 1 p.m. 'cause I'm still trying to get used to this new medication that leaves me so groggy in the a.m.'s I'm pretty frusterated with it! I can't wait to find a BALANCE again and a schedule!! I used to make my protein shake and add flax seeds, and your right, I do remeber it halping.. but I also remeber them being slightly expensive? I'm so poor right now I put a detour bar and water on a credit card at the grocery store tonight!!! =(

Getnfit.... This will sound ultimatly sad but true, fitday makes me feel like a 2nd grader being taught philosophy!!! LOL! I dunno why?! I'm still working on that ut your right....it will help! For a whole year I logged every thing I ate and it did help tremendously! Also, when I got into the habit of eating the same things every day at the same times it got so easy! The weight was easily maintained, I ooked great , felt great, and even lost any desire at all for a cheat meal, because it wasn't worth my hard work. Plus, once you take something out of your diet for so long, your body detox's from it, and you don't crave it as much. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is good for SOME tihngs i guess?! Thanks again guys! Im off to drink me some prune juice ! LOL!!!

 

[Aries13]

I used to have really bad problems with food...in high school I had an eating disorder and nearly killed my self b.c of it. I dont really know how all that crap happened....I had a serious relationship with food(could be b.c I was very overweight since a young age). I didnt seek professional help but instead I wanted to battle these deamons MY SELF. People can take all the pills in the world but the mind is stronger than anything. At least I think so. Now, I want to say that people can only help so much....in the end it all comes down to the individual and if they want to see a change in their life. It depends on what you want your life to be, if you want to be happy, if you will work HARD to get what you want in life. I dont think ANY PILL in this world will do that. In the end, its all just shortcuts that in the end arent really shortcuts but rather deceiving ones. Am I making sense??? I guess all Im trying to say is that you as an individual have the power to be the change you want to see in your world....no therapy or pill will give you that.

Again, this is my opinion. I've shut out the hell I once put my self through.....I think you can do the same if you really want to