should i stop my run, going through a break up

[alltraps]

what he said. If you decide to stop and dp PCT, DO NOT RUN CLOMID.
I did around a breakup and I was a crying fool which is very unlike me.

someone mentioned whey protein for keeping some gains. its also great for incresing serotonin levels so it acts as sort of a natural mood stabalizer which is good for you during this time.

when will u be over it? I hurt like hell for 3 or 4 months. every day you think about it and replay it in your head and it feels like it happened yesterday. people told me that I would be over it when I started having sex with other women. bullshit, I would just imagine they were her. it just takes time. with no contact, in 6 months or so you'll be you again. now, if I saw her in the street, I wouldnt even look twice.

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good luck bro.

fuck, i had insane dreams about her last night, so fucking vivid, it was so real. then i wake up and cant sleep.
i have to see her in july at a friends wedding. i know its long time from now, but obviously shes gonna bring a date, and thats gonna kill me.

i got up this morning again, feeling like my heart is gonna explode, i dont think this is normal. i might have to go see a doctor. i keep having conversations in my head with her, things i feel i have to tell her. but its nothing i havent told her before, same shit. i cant stop it. i have to go to work right now, and its not good cuz im alone all day. this is when i go crazy. another day i guess. i said last night that im fianly realizing thats its over and she wants nothing from me, but this morning, that realization is not so clear. i still feel hope, and i shouldnt, cuz hope just leads you down roads you dont want to go, they lear to more pain and suffering.

by all means, if you guys are sick of my whinning, please dont read this, right now, im doing this for my healing. it helps me to write what i feel. if mods want to move this to some other forum, like the outdoors forum, please do so,. just not the chat forum.

 

[Steve The Bluesman]

I just want to chime in with the "life goes on" replies..This goes without saying, everyone knows that in time you will get over it, and get on with your life, and in most cases you will be happier down the road because of it.

I only say this becuase you don't want to be one of those fucking morons that lets one bad time destroy their lives...bailing out of college or work, drinking too much, bailing on your friends and family, you know - things you REALLY can't recover from.

I am an old married guy too - I have lost big and have won big when it comes to this stuff. You will be alright in the end.

Stop the cycle, but don't stop your work. Focus on your workouts, slog through them no matter how weak and lousy you feel - you will feel better when you leave the gym. (A lot better than sitting in front of the tube zoning out and reliving nonsense). Make your short term goals and concentrate on them - in time you will be alright.

Later,


Bluesman

 

[needsize]

thanks man, you have no idea how much i appreciate what youve done for me. out of all my friends, you;ve been the most solid and helpfull. i hope one day I DONT HAVE TO help you with anything close to this, but if need be, im there

not a problem, I'm glad that in some small way I can help. I've been there a few times, and I remember how much it hurts, a little too vividly!
As for your cycle, you are losing size too fast right now, DONT come off or you will lose it all, stay on, your head gets a little more into it every day, so you will be able to salvage a lot from this. But if you go clean, you'll make an extra from Baywatch look huge by the time its over

 

[patsfan1379]

I've been through it man... Stay AWAY from the anti-d's... I thought I needed them, and didnt take them, I got my shit worked out and now I feel stronger than ever... Mentally and physically. You will respect yourself much more knowing that you did it on your own. It may take 3 months or 2 years. But the point is you WILL get through it.

P.S. Please, no offense to anyone taking anti-d's... I mean NO disrespect. Just my personal opinions.

 

[Sassy69]

Well sounds like you are dealing relatively well & have a great support system around (e.g. needsize, etc.) Make you set & stick to the boundaries of where / how / if you communicate with her, and make sure those are clear between the two of you so don't continue to get mixed messages from her or continue to self-fuck your emotions.

Good luck. One day at a time. Hey by July you may be squatting 600 for 5 deep!

 

[alltraps]

just got home from work. she called me a few times, 4 i think. she also called me last night at 2am. i didnt pick up any of the calls. she left one message saying she really needs to talk to me, and its killing me so much not to call her back. but i know shes just lonely and needs me right now, and as soon as i call her, she;ll be fine for a few days. i, on the other hand will go back to being fucked like on the first day. i feel fucking sad right now, that she needs me and i wont be there for her. but i gotta remind myself, that she is the one that doesnt want me in her life, not the other way around. she left me alone and hurt, when i needed her more then ever.

 

[patsfan1379]

when you find "the one", then and only then can you put her before you. until then, f-it dude. be a man.

 

[alltraps]

when you find "the one", then and only then can you put her before you. until then, f-it dude. be a man.

i DID think she was the one, still do, thats why i did put her before me. i wanted to do everything in the best interest for OUR future. but she didnt. she wanted to do things for her, run away from me and the problems. i know i sound like a chick, but i feel like one and this is taking over my whole life.

 

[theoak01]

to make a long story short, i just broke up, not my choice, with the girl i thought i was going to marry. the reason for the breakup doesnt matter cuz she doesnt think we can work it out. im fucked, i cant sleep, eat or train. its been a week, and i feel worse today then i did the first night. i miss her like mad, and keep thinking there is hope. but she doesnt think so. we had problems that she doesnt think we can overcome, and its easier to run from them then face them. i would do anything to make it work, but im affraid its not up to me at all. so ive lost 12 lbs in a week from not eating. i missed some shots and havent been taking my arals like i should, im a mess. and probably need proffesional help. im in week 6 of 16. should i stop alltogether?
im not sure when i;ll feel better and focused to eat and train. i dont think it will be anytime soon. i never loved anyone before, so i dont know how long this healing process takes. some tell me months, some years. what do yuo guys think? i dont want to take shit and not use it. i just lost all motivation to train and eat. its like bodybuilding doesnt matter anymore. all that matters is her.

Im kinda in a similar spot,only I was on the breaking up end,now thinking it was a fuck up, and I tell you man stay on,I dont know how pct effects you but if I got on pct right now id be crying into my pillow all fucking day and couldnt function period.

hopefully things work out for you ,your a good man

also bro if you want to train sometime drop me a pm,Im weak as fuck as I havent been in a month,but Ive always been weak anyway.

 

[patsfan1379]

i DID think she was the one, still do, thats why i did put her before me. i wanted to do everything in the best interest for OUR future. but she didnt. she wanted to do things for her, run away from me and the problems. i know i sound like a chick, but i feel like one and this is taking over my whole life.

if she is "the one" to you and you are not "the one" to her then she is not the one. if you let yourself get walked all over she will have no respect for you. And you will have no respect for yourself... If she really and truly wants you she will find you.