should i stop my run, going through a break up

[alltraps]

to make a long story short, i just broke up, not my choice, with the girl i thought i was going to marry. the reason for the breakup doesnt matter cuz she doesnt think we can work it out. im fucked, i cant sleep, eat or train. its been a week, and i feel worse today then i did the first night. i miss her like mad, and keep thinking there is hope. but she doesnt think so. we had problems that she doesnt think we can overcome, and its easier to run from them then face them. i would do anything to make it work, but im affraid its not up to me at all. so ive lost 12 lbs in a week from not eating. i missed some shots and havent been taking my arals like i should, im a mess. and probably need proffesional help. im in week 6 of 16. should i stop alltogether?
im not sure when i;ll feel better and focused to eat and train. i dont think it will be anytime soon. i never loved anyone before, so i dont know how long this healing process takes. some tell me months, some years. what do yuo guys think? i dont want to take shit and not use it. i just lost all motivation to train and eat. its like bodybuilding doesnt matter anymore. all that matters is her.

 

[cobra1414]

I would stop and run pct.

Get your life back on track and when you're ready to juice again, the gear will always be waiting for you.

Sounds like you've definitely got more important matters to tend to right now.

Good luck!

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

12 lbs in a fucking week!!?!
All that hard work down the shitter!?!
All the money for the gear wasted...

 

[alltraps]

you;re right but the matters to tend to, i have no control over. so there is nothing i can do. i just wonder how long before im ok and myself again. thats what scares me. what if it takes months? what then? i dont train all that time and shrink to nothing? what if i never want to train again period? all these paranoid thoughts are in my head. i just cant imagine life without this girl. she really was the one for me. i feel so lost. i know i sound pothetic, but love did some shit to me that i thought was not possible

 

[DiamondCutCows]

What he said! PM if you need anything or just wanna chat,Take care of YOURSELF or have your friends make you feel better

I would stop and run pct.

Get your life back on track and when you're ready to juice again, the gear will always be waiting for you.

Sounds like you've definitely got more important matters to tend to right now.

Good luck!

 

[INNOCENT]

just be strong bro..id hang in there..im going through the same crap now, been dating this girl for 4 years and we are going through a break up..we have been on and off for months now and i dont think its ever going to workout.. working out training, eating right and keeping my mind of my job is what makes me stronger, especially when u are use to someone living with you. but just keep focused on your goals in life and dont let a woman ruin it for you. even though im sure u love her. sorry to hear that bro, i know how u must feel

 

[wls8687]

I know how it feels bro, ive been "there".. i really hope it works out for you.. put AAS and bodybuilding aside for a time, that would be my choice.. as long,all i can do is to give you some karma, here you go

 

[alltraps]

thanks for the replies. i still dont know what to do. i just want to be better NOW. i try to workout, but i have no strenght or anything. i just sit there looking in the mirror. everyone at the gym knows there is something wrong with me. i dont tell them, but they know. i guess i just look pothetic.

 

[alltraps]

12 lbs in a fucking week!!?!
All that hard work down the shitter!?!
All the money for the gear wasted...

i know, i shrank. i was 266,and dropped to 254 so fast, i could feel it, i was scared to step on a scale. this was, up to this point, one of my best and most focused runs ever. iwas gonna hit 275. not anymore

 

[canadianhitman]

Hard to say what you should do. On one hand, you're certainly not going to make much in the way of gains with the suppressed appetite...but on the other hand, maybe the AAS are saving you from losing some lean mass (negative nitrogen balance from not eating plus the elevated cortisol levels that come from extreme stress). If you can force yourself to at least drink a lot of whey (buy a couple of cases cans and bottles...I know right now you probably have a hard time motivating yourself to even use the blender to mix up powders) and can force yourself to go to the gym, I think it might be worth it to stay on til' the natrual end of your cycle. After all, you're already depressed....adding Clomid to that mix might be a disaster.