Everyone gets knocked down bro, it's how fast you get up and continue to kill shit, that will define you! I know it's hard at times bro when I lost my Dad to cancer recently I had no desire.....BUT with that said I stopped feeling sorry for myself and when I walked into the gym it was all behind me. Cleared my mind, killed shit, got on with my life and what I could control! Hope it all works out for ya bro!