ugh, right when i think my life is fine, it falls in the shitter again

[Lee]

well today my friends mom (whos house ive been living at for around 3 weeks) told me i need to move out soon. 3 days ago my car died again, the tranny that was rebuilt 6 months ago, then never even driven til 2 weeks ago, went out. and the warranty expired july 4th. he might be nice and do the work since there isnt even 1000 miles on the transmission, but i dunno. i still dont have a job due to my car either being low on gas or not working. sometimes it would be easier to just not be alive.

 

[Deleted member 33117]

Bro, I know how you feel. A few months ago, I was just looking into going back to school full time, when my pyscho girlfriend just became too much for me to handle, so I dumped her for the 4th time, but this time was so shitty to her that she didn't try to get me back. I felt really bad about doing, but had to do it even though I was totally in love with her. Explaining why would take about 3 pages. A week later I got fired from my job for something I didn't do. Then my ex-employer fought my unemployment benefits. In the city I live in, it is virtually impossible to find a job in the summer that pays more than minimum wage unless you have a degree. Fortunely the job paid pretty well so I had money saved up (I was going to save for another year, then stop working and go to school full time until I graduate). Now, in the mean time I've been trying to diet down on tren and a keto diet, which plays havoc on your mood. Well, anyway things are beginning to work out. I'm getting $300 a week (for now at least) in unemployment, after about 6 weeks of fighting them. I'm about to sue for sexual harassment. I'm back in school, and just retook a speech class I dropped some time back because I couldn't stand to give speeches. I finished the class last week, and got an A. I'm using my unemployment, and lack of visable income to apply for alot of government aid, so that I can finish school. I've come to terms with some things from my past that have totally screwed up my life (the details I don't feel comfortable talking about on this board). The only thing that doesn't seem to be working out is my love life. Getting laid is easy enough, but finding someone for a relationship isn't working. Still, things are looking better now. Just hang in there bro and don't give up.

 

[Serea]

Sorry to hear your bad luck, guys. Hope it turns around for you both soon.

 

[The Red Dragon]

Sorry to hear about that guys. Good luck with everything.

 

[Deleted member 33117]

Serea, and Red Dragon, thanks for the sympathy. I'll be ok, things are looking up now. Really, I just wanted to show Lee that he is not alone, and that if you just keep giving it everything you have, eventually things start to work out. We all go through hard times, and feel like giving up. Some of us atually start feeling like eating a bullet would be alot easier than trying to keep going when it looks like life is hopeless. Bro, I've been there. But eventually it gets better. Tough times don't last, but tough people do. I'm sure you've heard that expression before. It's true though. You just have to hang in there, and keep fighting.

 

[Lee]

the thing is, ive been "haning in there" for the past 5 years of my life. It starts too seem pointless. My life has been so fucked because of my parents and now that I got kicked out, and I seriously have 21 dollars to my name right now. My dad didnt give me any help when he kicked me out, and now hes moving to a different state. My mom is useless, i havent even seen her in a year and she makes as much money as most high school students. Now that I have no car i cant get a job, and if i dont have a job i cant get a place to live. life doesnt even seem worth the trouble anymore.

 

[Deleted member 33117]

Lee, I know how you feel, believe me. 9 weeks ago, I had a round chambered and was looking down the barrel of a gun. I had a choice to make. Not only because of the recent events, but because of something that happened to me years ago, my life had seemed like a fucking nightmare, that I couldn't seem to wake up from. I had to make a choice. Was I going to pull the trigger, or live, and try to make something of my seemingly hopeless life. I choose to live, and to try and make something of my life. That's because I realized, that you, I, and everyone else in this world has a destiny. A purpose. But it is up to each of us to fulfill that destiny. Even when it seems like there is no hope, when it seems like our lives are totally worthless, that destiny is right there in front of us. All we have to do is open our eyes and see it. Lee, I don't know if you believe god, or a higher power, but I can tell you that he believes in you. You are loved, and you have a purpose. Your life is worth it.

 

[Deleted member 33117]

Anyway, if you haven't been able to get a job apply for unemployment. You can usually do it online, depending on where you live. However, the longer you wait, the longer it will take to get a check. There are government agencies designed to help people who are broke, and can't find work, if they take the time to ask.

 

[sinjinsmythe33]

eating a bullet accomplishes nothing

im not going to tell you to 'hang in there', its trite and gets old very quickly. my situation is not as bad as yours, but i have learned that most of the adversity in life is self created (not sure if that is sound in terms of syntax or grammar?). i have pissed away a good job, good friends and stable lifestyle. i have wasted my life savings with gambling and other types of frivolity (sp?). every one of my friends is at least moderately successful, married, a homeowner with children. i have none of these things and dont anticipate that these will be available anytime soon. envy, resent and self pity can easily prevail. fortunately, i realize that midset is a waste of time. blaming others for problems or deficiencies my lifestyle created wont work either. dude, i will keep you in my prayers.

 

[The Red Dragon]

Well some things can go beyond our control. A parent essentially makes your or breaks you. I would suggest you get all the help at your disposal. Without that mailing address, acquiring job will be next to impossible. I don't know what to say because I'm unfamiliar with your situation nor do I have any business knowing. Just know that you can't give up, your whole life is at stake. I know this seems out of place for me to say but in your position you can't really mope, you have to be extremely resilient and you need to take action fast. You need every resource you can muster. I really hope things go well for you, I'm not going to tell you to hang in there because that's your choice but you must take action. You have my sincerest condolences. Can a parent 'legally' kick out a child who is less than 18?

Fin, good move with the education. It'll open up new windows of opportunity. Just remember that a women should be a tertiary goal after your education and finances. Be selfish, look out for yourself. Based on personal experiences, women are a hinderance to personal success, academic or otherwise. I almost had my university acceptance rescinded because of girls, pathetc and extreme I know. My grades dropped from straight A's, to D/F's, I had to drug up and study for hours on end to get my marks back up to a passing grade. If I had given up, I would have lost my acceptance and I would more than likely regret my actions. But I'm happy where I am now.

Sin it's great that you moved beyond a counter-productive mentality. My mood drastically changed for the better when I just burried my past mistakes and stopped comparing myself to others. As long as you learn from your mistakes... Having a wife and children is not important, I wouldn't sweat it. Think of marrying of fucking 1 pussy for the rest of your life, and kids being an overall burden and a drain of resources .

I guess what I'm trying to say is that wherever you come from in life, there will always be problems. But being strong is the ability to endure and survive through the problems. "Tough times don't last, but tough people do". Granted that some problems may have less hope than others, we really don't have a choice but to clash head on with the problems because its your only chance of recovering. That's my two cents...I really shouldn't be posting this due to my lack of experience...but I was hoping I'd be able to help.

Good Luck Everyone.