Huggggs, Makedah. I know where you're coming from big time.
Knowledge is power though and with all of the help here on the boards, you're gonna do what you need to do to get to where you wanna be. Just don't give up...you'll get it workin and you know everyone here wants to help in any way they can.
Me...I keep my diet simple. I eat similarly to the way Newgirl posted. I've found that having less choices in foods in the house make it much easier to keep on track. Cook in large quantities, this way you will have the food already prepared, which becomes convience food! Read the labels of everything you buy...you will be surprised at how they sneak carbs and fats into things. I don't mix fats and carbs in the same meals. Like...if I have a craving for peanutbutter, I will have a small spoon and eat it just off the spoon, but mixing it with bread and jelly would be wrong because the p.b. is so high in fat. Eat every 2-3 hours...I often fail at this myself, but I do try. Mornings are the worst for me, I will have my coffee with skim milk and then I often find myself not eating until noon, but I'm a late night person, so I make up for it later in the day. I use nonstick pots and pans and the only fat I add to my food is olive oil, sparingly. I grill most of my meats...usually covering them in spices or marinades...A1 steaksauce is my recent favorite...they have like 5 different flavors now. I keep my carbs to under 120 a day...cal's are usually low compared to what I see everyone else eating here...around 1200 to 1400 with about 70% of it coming from proteins (eggbeaters, chicken, tuna, salmon, beef, mrp shakes). I will eat canned salmon (boneless) right out of the can. Tuna now comes in little pouches and I keep them at work so I always have protein on hand, I'll empty it into a paper bowl and top it with yellow mustard and a rice cake on the side. Breakfast when I can get it down, is either a protein shake made with water or eggbeaters veggie scramble. I hate healthy oatmeal, but I've found a great multigrain bread that I have instead. But...it's either protein or carbs for breakfast for me, not both.
I don't actually enjoy most meals anymore, but for me, good tasting food is a big issue for me so I just consume my daily foods as a necessity instead of a pleasure, just eating to survive kinda mentality, then on Friday nights we have our cheat night where I allow myself to enjoy food for a night...it's at our favorite Italian resterant and I enjoy every bite, every sip of my drinks and I even have desert sometimes! I've only recently been getting creative in the kitchen again...tonight I made Chinese fried rice...used brown rice (I keep a huge pot of cooked brown rice in the fridge at all times), onions browned in olive oil, eggbeaters scrambled in there, and a little soy sauce...after it was all done, I diced up my already cooked chicken breast and added in the oriental mixture of veggies which had broccoli, water chestnuts, carrots, and some kind of funky peas. I'm a very good cook which is partly how I put so much weight on in the past. Sauces with butter and wine went on almost all of my dishes, good Italian foods...I married into a traditional Italian family and my cooking skills were appreciated. Strangely, I don't really miss the foods on a daily basis...maybe it's because I allow myself the cheat night once a week.
One last thing...are you drinking your water? I never did because it gave me stomach aches. I found that drinking room temp. water stopped that. The tap water here in Florida is awful, so I buy the Zephyrhills 24 oz. sports bottles by the case (3 cases at a time actually...that lasts us about 2 weeks here) and now I'm like an infant...I can't go anywhere without my water. I will carry it up and down inside the house with me, and I never get into the car without a bottle. Water is very important for fat loss and it helps your skin...drink up!