Amy' S GeT Right Get Tight Journal

[gemini269]

thanks IP!! Your a sugar cocoA POP! i NEED TO GO TO BED! lol! i'M BECOMING DELIRIOUS! No bueno! =) sweet dreams =))))))

 

[iceprincess]

Night Gemini!

 

[scorpiogirl]

I can really get crazy with CAKE.....MMMMMMMM CAKE!!!!!

I don't touch it or have it in the house unless it's a CHEAT DAY. Lately, I haven't even done that.....hmmmmm note to self.....buy CAKE!

You know, you ARE in control, Amy. Write everything that goes into your mouth (and everything that comes back out, for that matter). SEE IT ON PAPER THAT YOU DO HAVE CONTROL!!!!

Do you say any daily afformations? That may help you also. I don't know the depth of your illness, but it sounds pretty deep. These are just a couple of things that could REALLY help you.

Write down the GOOD things about YOU. Say them OUT LOUD to yourself and look at yourself in the mirror when you say them. ....and BELIEVE them!!!!!!

 

[gemini269]

SG: DAMN!!!! I just wrote this reallllly long reply and it got erased =( so long story short, your right, i do need to start daily affirmations! I did keep a food diary for over a year and it helped, but after a year it became monotonous, and routine, and stoped being effective =( I'm so tired of everytime i turn around being injured in some way shape or form preventing me from going full force into my goals!!! I'm so ready to just GO FOR IT!!! I feel like by the time my body physically catches up with my mind and my will it will be ON!!! But it seeems to never be on at the same time! ya know? Oh well =( Hope your doing well girly =) YOur a peaches n cream croissant =) WHAT IS WRONG WITH me! lol... i must be a bout to start or something b/c i keepp dreaming about sugar Night chica!

 

[Gymgurl]

Hi Gemini....I was bulimic and anorexic for a few years....It is a lot of work ...BUT you can get better! Keep going to couseling and working on the inside...it all stems from there...I always described it as....fucked up on the inside looks great on the outside...that way no one knew what I was really like becasue the could not judge me if I looked great to them.......oh it is a horrible problem but it can be overcome..I have three wonderful daughters that I thought I would never want in fear of gaining weight...well I have had them all and lost 40 pounds and then 60 to get back to normal with all of them and it was really never an issue....SO we are hear for you if you need anything!!

GG

 

[gemini269]

Hey gym gurl Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....

 

[scorpiogirl]

Hey gym gurl Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....

AMY, AMY, AMY ...... you GOTTA' pull out of this crap! (no, I don't think it's crap....just a figure of speech) You are SELF DESTRUCTING, Girl! DON'T DO IT! I know, easier said than done.

....I'm worried about you..............

 

[*Bunny*]

AMY, AMY, AMY ...... you GOTTA' pull out of this crap! (no, I don't think it's crap....just a figure of speech) You are SELF DESTRUCTING, Girl! DON'T DO IT! I know, easier said than done.

....I'm worried about you..............

^^^^

AMY honey, do you have ANY friends like us here to help you out?! In person? That can help you, be by your side... seriously HOLD your hand... anyone wiling to help out that much?

 

[Gymgurl]

Hey gym gurl Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....

Hey girl....can you up your sessions with your therapist until they can get you a little more stable with the meds and with the depression? Yes you need support! Do you have anyone close to you that will listen....I know how you feel..you can always PM me any time and I am on here everyday...I really just want to hug you right now!!! HUGSS

 

[que_66]

You are a beautiful creation.

You are worth the effort.

You are worthy of being loved.

You are NOT alone.