Roxy, I know exactly how you feel chica.
There's some fierce competition.. but the one thing I keep going back to is that I'm doing this for me. When I talked to Nate about sponsoring, I told him with or without him I'm doing this for myself, I had a plan to really change my body this year, and having my name along with NTBM would only motivate me more.. to represent him when I feel like I can't do it myself.
It's tough.. cause I'm actually up in weight too, and it kind of gets me.. but at the same time, the misses and myself are noticing a lot of muscle gain, which will help lose the fat in the future, like Zed said. I expected to gain more weight than lose it at first just because it's been a while since I've seriously lifted weights to put on muscle.
2 more months seems quick, but for the body to shed fat it doesn't take long! I think its either 2 or 4 pounds of muscle burns another 200 calories a day, which would be like walking for 30 mins! HOLY COW! So keep lifting those weights aggressively and watch the recomp happen! Screw weight, it's measurements and the mirror that count.