T-Cake's 2006 Log

[T-Cake]

Hey all.

I'm not dead... just feelin' a little strange the last couple of days, thus no posts other than what I threw up in here Saturday. *sigh*

I think something I was taking was messing with my head and I was overcaffeinated... so I'm switching some dosages and coming down from that. However, I think I have a head cold of some sort... and that's the real reason I just feel foggy and not right.

Just the last couple days I've had a really dry throat regardless of how much I drink or eat... and I've been keeping up with my workouts and getting plenty of sleep... but I just feel so damn lethargic. *sigh*

Food has been fine all in all. Had my cheat dinner Saturday night again at Cheesecake Factory. Damn, it was good! Sunday went great 50/25/25... I RAWKED it.

And then today... I ate a SANDWICH at Panera. I was shaky and thought I needed the carbs -- well it was huge freakin' dosage. The sandwich alone was around 800 calories and 100 grams of carbs! I about DIED when I got home and read that online.

And of course, I read it AFTER I had my mid-afternoon snack of almonds (another 200 cals) and some cherries. Grrrrrrrrrr.

So basically today I ate. I had minestrone soup for dinner -- again, huge mistake because it turns out it was LOADED with calories... and I ended up eating around 2,000 calories today. I suppose that's a normal "maintenance" day calorically... but it still pisses me off because now I have 5 fat burning days this week instead of the normal 6. Why do I care so much about ONE DAY?!

Not happy about it. But I was genuinely hungry... and I've been over-heating the last few days so Ulter thinks I'm genuinely sick with something and my body is needing the food/fuel to fix me. I think he's right -- it would explain how I can nap midday on the couch 2 days in a row even when I'm getting 8 hours of sleep a night AND while on stims. *sigh*

Goodnight all. Tomorrow is a new day; I hope to feel better then.

 

[Gymgurl]

Feel better T.....all the food won't kill ya once..pick up amd move on. How have you adjusted to that humidity and heat down there? Maybe that might be part of the no energy feeling!

 

[florencia]

Hello GG...
I hope you're feeling good! I am trying...

 

[Gymgurl]

Iam...just a little sluggish LOL

 

[Roonytunes]

I hope you're feeling better, T! And please cut yourself a break if you're feeling run-down and not be hard on yourself.

Yesterday, I had to eat dinner out and what did I do, but ask myself what T-Cake would do in this situation. I played with my macro numbers, looked for the menu online and pre-decided that I was going to get the grilled chicken salad. Sure when I got there and looked at the actual menu, I started salivating at all the descriptions for the other yummy entrees. But I went ahead and asked for my salad with balsamic vinegar on the side, and voila, I was able to eat out and still have a good day. So thank you....I'm slowly learning from you!

 

[T-Cake]

I hope you're feeling better, T! And please cut yourself a break if you're feeling run-down and not be hard on yourself.

Yesterday, I had to eat dinner out and what did I do, but ask myself what T-Cake would do in this situation. I played with my macro numbers, looked for the menu online and pre-decided that I was going to get the grilled chicken salad. Sure when I got there and looked at the actual menu, I started salivating at all the descriptions for the other yummy entrees. But I went ahead and asked for my salad with balsamic vinegar on the side, and voila, I was able to eat out and still have a good day. So thank you....I'm slowly learning from you!

Aww, hooray! Yay, Roons, I'm glad that helped you out! I love you girlie-poo.

And again -- where the F*%$ have I been?

I actually posted last night... then clicked "submit" when EF was shut down for maintenance. Lovely. Anyway... I saved what I wrote... it's pretty down-trodden and horrible of me... but I thought I'd be honest and post it anyway... here it is:

From Tuesday, July 11, 2006 ~11pm
Ok so amongst other things... today I've called myself the following:
Fat
As*hole
Dumbas*
Idiot
Pig
Hog

I am so frustrated with myself. I should be cutting down to 1500 cals now... and today I landed at 1779. Why?

I had it all planned out... but then midafternoon before my lift I was starving so I ate a pint of blueberries. Had a decent dinner, took away my ANPB snack and landed at 1609.

I get home and Ulter has the cashews out... I have some. He's like "Have some, have some". 'Course he was trusting my better judgment to step in and say, "NO, it doesn't go in my Fitday."

But I didn't. And I ate them. And I was happy. And I landed at 1779... third day this week I am over calories... and I am disappointed in myself.

I'm stressed and repressed in general. I just want to focus on getting my stuff to school, getting stuff into my new apartment, shopping, decorating... but now that it's all on delay... I'm losing motivation to do much of anything.

Sure, I get my walks done... sure, I lift hard and when I'm done I'm still forcing myself to do another 30 minutes on the rowing machine.

But this week I just hate cutting -- hate it. I don't want to. I eat the same things all the time and I enjoy what I eat... it's not like I'm tempted to eat JUNK.

I don't even have a good excuse... it gets to be 9pm and I'm using all my calories too early in the day, have bad planning, and keep screwing up. So now in addition to the disappointment in myself... I feel like I'm letting Ulter down too... and I feel like I'm letting YOU all down.

I just feel like a poser all over again... and it's only Tuesday and I just imagine seeing the scale go up on Saturday... I will blow my 100 lbs lost and be back at 162 or something... cry and be upset and call myself more names... and have to fight it off again... and I'll just lose my bragging rights.

I just feel rotten. Why do I do this to myself? It's like I want to sabotage myself all over again...

So that's the truth behind me, ladies... I was being soooo hard on myself (Roons, you totally had me caught on that one...). I went to bed last night just feeling awful... and after talking with Ulter some more, I came up with my game plan to get my ass back in gear. It's not even that I was OUT of gear... I was just getting sloppy.

Here are my goals for now:
1. Stick to 1550 calories and below ONLY. This must start NOW. I can't dick around with this anymore... it's time.

2. Every day, I MUST journal on fitday FIRST my ISO shakes for the day... AND my evening snack (read: ANPB). THESE MAY NOT BE CHANGED AT ANY TIME DURING THE DAY OR SWAPPED OUT. They are my life-saving foods. I need them -- it's necessary.

3. I will be more cautious about going out to eat and I will JOURNAL MY MEALS OUT AT RESTAURANTS BEFORE I LEAVE THIS APARTMENT. I haven't been able to keep myself in the right with this lately -- I will do just as Roons did! Decide first, journal first, count first -- EAT LAST.

With that being said... today I am focussed on cleaning up my act. Sure, it was "only" 200 calories over 2 days in a row... but you know -- that's NOT what T-Cake does... I am BETTER than that!!! I am NOT sloppy!

Food & Exercise Log for Wednesday, July 12, 2006​

Cardio & Lifting:
* 60 minutes outdoor walk first thing a.m., empty stomach (I have not missed this in... well... a month? Longer?)
* No lifting today -- day off. Will post my last 3 days of SuperSet lifting in my next thread I do tonight...

B @ 10:30am PWO
3 scoops ISO-AGB in 1 L Crystal Light (Ruby Red Grapefruit)

L @ Noon @ Panera Bread
Asian Sesame Chicken Salad
1/2 sourdough roll

S @ 2:30pm
1/2 of an ISO shake (see breakfast ingredients)
1 c. sliced strawberries with Splenda

D @ 6:30pm I was HUNGRY!!!
1/6 of White Lasagna
Made this at home... it came out too soupy for my liking, so I'll refrain from posting the recipe... it was okay.
1 c. sliced strawberries with Splenda

S @ 9:30pm & 10:30pm
2 T ANPB as I planned for and stuck to
2nd 1/2 of ISO shake from afternoon snack

TOTALS
1542 calories
43% p / 25% c / 31% f
Felt really good about my choices today and I really stuck to my guns about the 1500. I was sitting at the dinner table with my food staring at me as I plugged in my fitday BEFORE eating dinner. Hey -- I promised myself I would be a stickler about it... and so I was.

ON A FUN NOTE... I bought new bedding from Pottery Barn today... and I found the bed I'm going to buy at Bombay!!! I'm so indecisive... so that's a big deal for me!

 

[jenscats5]

But this week I just hate cutting -- hate it. I don't want to. I eat the same things all the time and I enjoy what I eat... it's not like I'm tempted to eat JUNK.

Well I know how you feel here - I'm just sick of it at this point too....bleh!!

Hang in there girlie!! We'll get thru it!!

 

[T-Cake]

Hi girls.

I miss you all terribly. But I'm back!

I managed to turn things around since my last post and landed at 1575 or lower Wed., Thurs. and Fri. of last week.

With my hard work at the gym and the continuation of my SuperSets... I managed to weigh in at Saturday at...

158.8 lbs!!! I MADE THE 150s!!!

I seriously can't stress enough just how freeing it is to be able to be at this weight, in this size (nearly an 8 now... the 10s are starting to get too big after I wear them once out the dryer...). I never imagined I would be free of the mental aches and stresses I went through, worrying about what everyone thinks of me.

It's nice to finally blend in with society.

Anyway, with that said, I had a great day yesterday. Did my 4 miles in the morning and lifted back and chest in the afternoon. Managed to get abs and 30 more minutes of rowing in as well. Last night was my cheat meal at Cheesecake Factory so bets are that a lot of us from the Women's Board were chowin' down in happiness at the same time!

I did 8.5 miles on the pavement this morning!!! It was a last-minute push from Ulter -- well... a challenge because he said it'd be tough for a girl. That managed to push me through it. And it wasn't bad at all! Made it in 2 hours time, so I will have zero problems finishing the 1/2 Marathon come January.

Just wanted to say hi. I'm so far behind on all my boards and threads and posts, it's been ridiculous. I'm getting email after email saying "WHERE ARE YOU?" :

 

[T-Cake]

T-Cake's MEGA Food Log UPDATE​

As I was sayin' a longggg time ago... I still want to post my food logs so people can see a) what I cook and b) what I order when I go out. Plus, I need to prove that I've stuck to my goals as stated on Wednesday of last week.​

Thursday, July 13, 2006

B @ 10:30am PWO
2 scoops ISO-AGB in 1 L Crystal Light

L @ TGI Friday's @ 12:30pm
Bruchetta Tilapia
1.5 fillets tilapia
1 c. cooked, steamed broccoli
1/3 c. rice pilaf
1/2 c. chopped tomato topping

Pre-Gym Snack @ 3pm
20 Bing Cherries

PWO @ 5:30pm
3 scoops ISO-AGB in 1 L Crystal Light

D @ 6pm @ Amigo's Tex-Mex
Chicken Fajita w/o Tortillas
5 oz grilled chicken breast
3/4 c. peppers and onions, fat added in cooking
3 T guacamole
1/2 c. cooked broccoli
1/2 c. lard-free "refried" beans
1 T shredded cheese
1 serving tortilla chips
1/2 c. fresh salsa

NO EVENING SNACK
And let me just say... this is where I started to die. I tried and tried to get onto fitday in the restaurant and plug my food in BEFORE eating to assure I'd get a night snack... but I couldn't. So I ate... then plugged at home... and then realized I had ZERO room for a snack.

I literally laid on the floor and whined because I was STARVING. Hahahaha.

TOTALS
1579 calories
49% p / 23% c / 28% f

Friday, July 14, 2006

B @ 9-10am... throughout morning
5 scoops ISO-AGB in 1.5 L Crystal Light Hungry girl on the go...

L @ California Pizza Kitchen @ 12:30pm
Original BBQ Chicken Chopped Salad
3 cups salad greens
2 T yellow corn
2 T black beans
1/4 c. tortilla strips
1 c. diced grilled chicken
1/2 c. barbecue sauce (used as dressing)
1/2 avocado, diced
1/4 c. shredded mozzarella
1/2 c. diced tomatoes
1 regular slice white bread

Snack @ 4pm
30 Bing Cherries

D @ Bennigan's
Rosemary Grilled Chicken
Only ate 1/2 the entree...
5 oz grilled chicken breast
1/4 c. mashed potatoes made with whole milk
1/3 c. pearl onions, cooked
1/4 c. red peppers cooked
2 T sliced zuchini

"S" @ Night
1/2 glass red wine
1 slice Muenster cheese

TOTALS
1647 calories
45% p / 25% c / 27% f
Let me say it was NOT my fault that I was over today!!! I was told the cheese was 12 calories per slice *coughUlter* but when I looked again it was really 100!!! So I only drank HALF my glass of wine. Oh well...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

B @ 9am til Noontime or so...
2 scoops ISO-AGB in 1 L Crystal Light
1 T ANPB
1.5 slice Muenster cheese
1 egg + 2 egg whites scrambled

L @ California Pizza Kitchen
Lettuce Wraps, chicken & shrimp
3 slices iceburg lettuce
1 c. ground chicken
2 oz shrimp
6 water chestnuts, chopped
1/3 c. rice noodles
Tomato-chili sauce, 3 T

S @ 4pm
1/2 leftover turkey/cheddar/onion BBQ calzone I made last week
20 Bing Cherries

Cheat Meal @ Cheesecake Factory
1 glass red wine
2/3 entree: Stuffed Chicken Tortillas
Dessert, 3/4 of it: Chocolate Layer Cake a la' mode

TOTALS
1493 calories before dinner... I don't really care what I had after that.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

B @ Noon
1 scoop ISO-AGB in 1 c. Crystal Light

L @ 1pm @ Smokey Bones
BBQ Chicken and Shrimp
8 oz chicken breast
5 large shrimp
1/4 c. BBQ sauce
1 c. broccoli, cooked
1/3 c. "fastfood" coleslaw
1/4 small toasted pita bread

D @ 6pm @ Sweet Tomatoes (salad bar buffet place)
3 c. salad greens
1 c. red cabbage
4 oz grilled chicken
1/3 c. diced beets
2 T diced cucumbers
3 T fat free honey mustard dressing
1/2 c. penne with tomato sauce (meatless)

S/Dessert @ Night
30 Bing Cherries
2 T ANPB
2 oz red wine

TOTALS
1538 calories
42% p / 30% c / 26% f
Great day!

 

[florencia]

NO EVENING SNACK
And let me just say... this is where I started to die. I tried and tried to get onto fitday in the restaurant and plug my food in BEFORE eating to assure I'd get a night snack... but I couldn't. So I ate... then plugged at home... and then realized I had ZERO room for a snack.

I literally laid on the floor and whined because I was STARVING. Hahahaha.

I know what you mean! That happeend to me with a Met-Rx bar...came home pwo...post workout...not prioner of war...LOL...whatever...and ate a bar...and had no room for snack...too many carbs...
So.....what I have doone is type three meals from fiday...so whenever I am away or with no internet access...I know what to order...Not that the ingredients change much...
Hope you're good!