IMHO you need a diet plan! Food it's the most anabolic thing you can ever get to put in your body, that's bodybuilding common sense, there's no bodybuilder in this world who will deny this so deal with it.
About your cat and your mother... i've been there, my mother died when i was 15 we also had a cat who belonged to her which also got hit by a car so the rest of it it's pretty much the same, that's life the way you handle things after misfortune it's what will define you as a person in the future, toughen yourself up, find your way, make your mom proud, move on.
You have came to the perfect place, elitefitness it's a big family, stick around you will learn alot from all us.
About your cat and your mother... i've been there, my mother died when i was 15 we also had a cat who belonged to her which also got hit by a car so the rest of it it's pretty much the same, that's life the way you handle things after misfortune it's what will define you as a person in the future, toughen yourself up, find your way, make your mom proud, move on.
You have came to the perfect place, elitefitness it's a big family, stick around you will learn alot from all us.