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I remember reading that this morning using my cell phone and remaining completely fixated on what you had to say, treils. You have my mom diagnosed to a T, really. I spent 3 hours at lunch with my aunt today hearing stories of how my mom just lies to everyone in her own family to make herself look better... and the reality is that she has zero control over herself -- so she feels she needs to control -- or try to -- everyone else around her. I heard about that on Oprah once -- people who tend to be pack rats and have messy homes (e.g Mom) have full control over everything else around them but not themselves. Very eye-opening. Thanks for the advice; it really means a lot that you took the time to tell me all that.treilin said:Hmmm Girlie
I'm just now catching up on your log after the weekend...
Mom's are funny creatures. One minute they are supportive the next they are cutting you down. I think some of it has to do with the baby boomer age group.... I mean it wasn't until really the next generation before women really started standing on their own two feet and were not quite as submissive. It's almost a jealousy that they see what we are capable of and doing and they wish they were as strong as we are and not relying on someone else to take care of them. They have some self harboring feelings that they didn't get to live their lives like we are to the fullest. You need to love her enough but love yourself even more to know what is right and what is wrong. You have to cut some ties with her and do what you have to do. I did. I moved out of state, joined the military, got divorced, much more... all against what my parent's thought was 'best' for me. If I lived a life they wanted me to lead I would have been barefoot, with kids cooking meals, and having no education. AGAIN, you have to do what your heart is leading you to do. No matter what anyone tells you you have to live your life with the pro's and cons, possible discouragements, but endless rewards of maturing, wisdom, that help create you and distinguish you from every other follower in society. This helps you to take that next leap of faith and with every obstacle you take on and surpass that makes you so much stronger and helps you to feel liberated and knowing that you make your life, you lead your life, and noone will keep you down. If she wants to scream and throw a tantrum like a child understand what her mentality is, and then calmly tell her that you can see her side but this is a decision you are making and she can either support you, or she can make it hard and just lose her daughter. Throw it back onto her shoulders that she is the one throwing the wrench into works and if she doesn't remove it then she will have to live with her selfishness and misery that you will be hurt that she she won't be able to share in the happiness in your life but you will remember her.
You have to be strong follow your heart and your mind!!!
Hi Buns! Thanks for the view -- can't wait til that thing is REAL to me!!!
See, Roons, and it's stories like that that really give me more hope. Although, I have to say that telling my mom was the worst and most difficult part of this entire move -- but everyone else in my life (family, friends, co-workers, WWers), support me in this EXCEPT mom. It just further verifies that she's illogicl and crazy... and usually the chances of her coming to her senses is much greater if she is the ONLY one who doesn't get it at first. She doesn't like to be odd woman out.Roonytunes said:mermaid said:Wow, T-Cake
Sometimes it's easier to love someone from a distance. Like Curgeo said, it's not your job to fix your mother.
I wish you nothing but luck on the next journey in your life
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Listen to Mermie! She is a wise woman...and I totally concur with her.
I'm late in your log, but just wanted to let you know that I went through a very similar phase with my family. I didn't think we would ever recover, but we now have a semi-decent relationship 8 years later. Ultimately, it's about taking care of YOU and YOUR needs. As long as it feels right in your heart, do what YOU need to do.
WELL -- I'm still hangin' in there. I spent last night in my apartment on my couch with a pillow and a quilt... I slept in my clothes, and I woke up at 6:30am to walk for an hour.
It was pouring. P O U R I N G for, like, 4 hours, straight til noon. Soooo yeah -- lunchtime came around and I had people to meet up with and things to pack and furniture to give away... so no walk today. REALLY not happy with that and I'm SUPER NOT HAPPY that I missed both my upper body session on Monday night AND my lower body session tonight.
I won't make the 4 lbs this week *sigh* Not with another 2 days of packing, including my going away BBQ Friday night. At least we're ordering Middle Eastern food (read CHICKEN KABOB and HUMMUS -- YUM! ) and not potato salad and burgers like before... but what more can I do, ya' know?
I just have to hope now that I at least have a loss this week if at all -- missing 2 lift sessions and a day of cardio... not happy. But I am busy on my feet packing all day long, so hopefully that's worth something!
I'm too lazy to post my food, but I've been sticking to 1600 or 1650 roughly daily and my macros are hitting 40/30/30. Not my best -- but good for what's goin' on right now.
I'm caught up for a little while!!! Love you ladies.