I know - it sounds like I'm whining, huh?

lol I don't mean it to be that way. If I'm looking at the big picture, I'm very happy with myself and how I look. No complaints - in fact, I feel blessed at this time in my life.
this is the first time I've gone through this - so when I make comments on things like my ass or whatever, it's because it's all new to me:
First time my bf has been this low
First time I've been in ths good of shape
First time I've had to pose
etc, etc, etc
I'm probably also getting nervous. I don't walk around all day wringing my hands or anything, but I still feel it. So - if it seems I need to be bitch slapped to bring me back to normal - please do so.