Mermaid's Log

[mermaid]

Monday October 10

Felt better today - typical seeing as it's a work day. Though overslept a little so had a ready made shake on the commute.

7.15pm
Vinegar drink, multivit, flax, olive leaf

7.45pm
Lo Carb Protein Shake - Iced Coffee Flavour

10.00am
2/3 cup cottage cheese
2/3 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter

12.30pm
Plan on gym hour but find out I left car lights on (why did I even turn them on, it's daylight?) and battery flat. Cuss like a trouper. Guys from workshop can only help after their shift (4pm). No gym for me.

12.45pm
4oz broiled salmon
1/2 cup brown rice (I really don't like this)
1/2 cup cukes

3.00pm
Caramel Protein Bar

Boss on site for whole week. Fantastic. Still, I have no problem eating in front of him now and at any time.

6.30pm
30 mins Cardio (walk/jog) - found it tough with the breathing

7.30pm
4oz pork tenderloin
1/2 cup no fat refried beans
1 tbsp jalapenos
1 tbsp salsa
1/2 avocado

AND I drank a gallon of water. Yay!!

1548 cals P:43 C:19 F:37 Fiber: 24g

Took photos of P. He was amazed at how terrible he looked. I have a committed buddy now

 

[vachelle72]

Monday October 10

Felt better today - typical seeing as it's a work day. Though overslept a little so had a ready made shake on the commute.

7.15pm
Vinegar drink, multivit, flax, olive leaf

7.45pm
Lo Carb Protein Shake - Iced Coffee Flavour

10.00am
2/3 cup cottage cheese
2/3 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter

12.30pm
Plan on gym hour but find out I left car lights on (why did I even turn them on, it's daylight?) and battery flat. Cuss like a trouper. Guys from workshop can only help after their shift (4pm). No gym for me.

12.45pm
4oz broiled salmon
1/2 cup brown rice (I really don't like this)
1/2 cup cukes

3.00pm
Caramel Protein Bar

Boss on site for whole week. Fantastic. Still, I have no problem eating in front of him now and at any time.

6.30pm
30 mins Cardio (walk/jog) - found it tough with the breathing

7.30pm
4oz pork tenderloin
1/2 cup no fat refried beans
1 tbsp jalapenos
1 tbsp salsa
1/2 avocado

AND I drank a gallon of water. Yay!!

1548 cals P:43 C:19 F:37 Fiber: 24g

Took photos of P. He was amazed at how terrible he looked. I have a committed buddy now

Hi Mermaid-

I was looking at your log and noticed you said you didn't like the brown rice I don't care for it either.

I recently discovered a great sub for this , and the calories are less. If near a Trader Joe's , pick up their "Whole Grain Bulgar Wheat" , 1/4 cup dry yields about 2/3 cup cooked and is only 140 cals

Follow the cooking directions on the box , and then to jazz it up add chicken bouillion to the water. I think you will really like this , I tried it out on the family and they loved it , and they can be hard crowd

 

[mermaid]

Thanks Vachelle I will definitely try it, never thought of it as a substitute.

October 11

Very rough night, finally fell asleep about 2am. Just exhausted.

7.00am
Vinegar drink, flax, multi, olive leaf

8.00am
Ready made lo carb protein drink - Iced Coffee

10.30am
2/3 cup cottage cheese
2/3 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter

1.00pm
4 oz grilled chicken
1/2 cup no fat refried beans
1/2 avocado
1 jalapeno
1 tbsp salsa

3.00pm
I was so tired I succumbed to the large caffeine fix
Very large mug of coffee w/ splash milk and 1 1/2 tsp raw sugar

3.30pm In meeting
Ready made lo carb protein shake - Chocolate

7.00pm Business dinner - fortunately Japanese
6 pieces tuna sashimi
1/3 cup edamame
1 cup miso soup

1523 cals P:48 C:17 F:35 Fiber: 30g (supposed to be a lot in the shakes)

Not enough water - only half what I should have had. And having the coffee makes it worse, I am SO bloated tonight.

I resisted the alcohol - though I was craving an ice cold vodka tonic w/ lime. Thankfully refusing alcohol is getting a bit easier.

Come to the end of the day and I am just wasted. Need to sleep tonight - hope I can manage it. Work is not the most enjoyable place at the moment as my crazy boss is now threatening to fire people because the business is not performing.

Missed the workout today but planning on the gym tomorrow night with P. Need it to de-stress more than anything else.

 

[mermaid]

October 12

I am not happy with myself. If I did Shadow's "how serious are you" calc, I'd probably come out at 5%. I can not get my ass in the gym and I don't drink enough water. Had a better night's sleep but still coughing like I smoke 40 a day.

7.00am
Vinegar drink, multi, olive leaf, flax
6 egg whites, 1 yolk

8.15am
6 prunes
6 almonds

11.00am In meeting
Protein shake - chocolate

1.00pm In another meeting
2 slices Performax bread
3oz sardines w/tomato

4.00pm In another meeting
1 cappucino w/ sugar
1 white bread, cheese salad sandwich w/ mayonnaise
1 piece chocolate cake

Oh dear

However, realise that I really don't like white bread anymore, it's gross, sticks to the roof of your mouth and the mayo was so greasy. Can't say the same about the chocolate cake though.

Was asked (told) to stay late to finish ANOTHER forecast for ANOTHER meeting. My boss left at 5.30pm to have dinner w/ his family. I left the office at 8.15pm, got home at 9.00pm, amazed I didn't get stopped for speeding.

9.15pm
6 egg whites, 1 yolk
Flax caps

1833 cals P:33 C:33 F:33 Fiber 17g Water: don't know

Have to be in office at 6.30am tomorrow. For another meeting.

Fu<k.

 

[mermaid]

October 13

OK. I'm hoping one day this week I'll be able to lift a weight and I don't mean off my shoulders.

Got up 5am, went to work for 6.30am meeting. Talked and talked and talked all friggin day. I'm actually to the point where I want to scream out mid meeting, "listen, just STFU and do it, don't talk about it". Oh the parallels of life.

5.15am
Vinegar drink, flax, multi

6.30am Made it to take into meeting
Protein shake made w/
1 cup milk
1/2 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter

The funniest thing is that people ask about my food, what it is, how it tastes etc. seeing as I tend to be eating with an audience all the time.

10.30am
2 slices Performax bread
3oz sardines w/tomato

2.00pm
1 cup cottage cheese
6 prunes
12 almonds

6.00pm Still at work
1 ready made protein shake - iced coffee

9.00pm Finally make it home
6 egg whites, 1 yolk

I am so physically/mentally tired that I can barely get the eggs down or type this.

I am amazed that I haven't fallen into the full-on junk food trap or had an alcoholic drink now for 10 days.

1530 cals P:46 C:27 F:26 Fiber:17g Water: 2ltr

 

[mermaid]

TFI Friday October 14

Had morning Dr. appointment so took advantage of not being at work so early and went to the gym. Yay!

7.00am
1 small banana

7.30am Gym
DB Overhead Press
One arm Lat Raises
Shrugs
Machine Assisted Crunches
Leg raises on bench
Scissors
15 mins walk 15% 3mph

1 liter water

9.00am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup milk
1 tbsp LSA
3oz canned salmon
Vinegar drink, multi, flax, olive leaf

12.00pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1/2 avocado

 

[mermaid]

TFI Friday October 14

Had morning Dr. appointment so took advantage of not being at work so early and went to the gym. Yay!

7.00am
1 small banana

7.30am Gym
DB Overhead Press
One arm Lat Raises
Shrugs
Machine Assisted Crunches
Leg raises on bench
Scissors
15 mins walk 15% 3mph

1 liter water

9.00am
1 cup bran cereal
1/2 cup milk
1 tbsp LSA
3oz canned salmon
Vinegar drink, multi, flax, olive leaf

12.00pm
1 cup cottage cheese
1/2 avocado

3.30pm
1 ready made protein shake - chocolate

7.00pm
3 slices thin crust half cheese pizza supreme
1 vodka, soda water, lemon squeeze (a stiff one)

1560 cals P:31 C:32 F:33 A:5 Fiber: 23g Water:3 ltr

So glad this work week is over. Here's to the weekend.

 

[mermaid]

Let's just say that I took the weekend off from, well, almost everything



Looking forward to tomorrow.

 

[mermaid]

I feel brave enough to recap the weekend now.

Saturday

Woke up a bit hungover from the stiff drink the night before.
Blew off the gym.
Went to local cafe and ordered pancakes.
Ate half because (and I couldn't make this up if I tried) my blueberries had a maggot on them and I just couldn't finish them.
4oz pork and 1 cup asparagus (trying to get back on)
Massage
Protein shake
Caramel ice cream in waffle cone
1 piece rum raisin fudge
Very large bag potato chips
Poached eggs on toast

Sunday

30 mins HIIT cardio
I HAVE to throw out my shoes - I felt like I was running barefoot - shins and lower back hurt like hell
Protein shake w/ strawberries
Lunch w/ friends - they haven't seen me for a while and said that I had lost weight - shame I felt like a heiffer so didn't appreciate the compliment
Gin and Tonic
2 oyster shots w/ sake
Grilled beef, potato rosti, mushrooms in cream
Garlic bread
Later - a few rice crackers
Egg whites
Then watching TV and ordered pizza. Why? Ate it all anyway. It was 10pm - I hate eating that late.

Monday

Up at 4am to take flight to HO

6.00am
2/3 cup cottage cheese
1/2 cup blueberries

I was sat in the middle of three seats, both people next to me couldn't
even look my way while I was eating it. Now I know, many people hate cottage cheese (aand and Jens come to mind!) but when it's turned purple from the fruit I guess it looks kinda gross. The woman got me back though, she opened her UHT milk and sprayed it all over me. I smelled all day.

8.30am
Protein bar
Green tea

10.30am
1 cup bran cereal
11 almonds
1/3 cup milk

1.00pm
1 cup tuna
1/2 avocado
Green tea

4.00pm
Protein shake
11 almonds
Green tea

8.00pm Finally got home
Protein shake was all I could stomach

1517 cals P:48 C:20 F:33 Fiber:24g Water: 1 gallon!!!!! Yay

This is such a day by day thing for me. I'm struggling if I'm honest. I think about food all the time and just wonder if it will ever become an automatic thing where I make good choices without thinking. I work long hours and use that as a reason not to work out. I try to make "appointments" to go but it's not working so far.

However, I look at people around, in airports, at the checkout and I hate the fact that I'm one of those unhealthy lumps. Those people who obviously take care of their bodies, muscular and energetic, I admire so much because I know absolutely realise what it takes to look and feel like that.

I just have to keep going, keep trying.

I'm a bit hormonal, can you tell?

 

[mermaid]

Tuesday October 18

6.30am
1 cup bran cereal
2/3 cup skim milk
5 egg whites, 1 yolk
vinegar drink, multivit, zinc, flax

10.00am
22 almonds
7 prunes
Green tea

1.00pm
1 medium grilled chicken breast
1 cup grilled zucchini

4.00pm
2/3 cup cottage cheese
1/2 cup blueberries
1 tbsp almond butter
Green tea