You might be right about the first part, I don't know you so I don't really know, but you definitely are acting like a bitch and you haven't dealt with it.
dont be sorry. sorrow is just another bullshit emotion. you arent really sorry, youre just saying you are. what the fuck am i supposed to so with your sorrow? i dont fucking care. but if it makes you feel better to say it, go for it. just dont hassle me with this shit.