i have fooled myself my whole life. i thought it is possible for people to be true friends. to always be there, thick or thin. same as i believed people could fall in love. to have and to hold, until death do us part.
biggest lie in the world.
people are out for number one. even the ones you think love you. even the ones who you think are your friends. everyone is a fair weather friend, or a fair weather love, to some degree.
guess im just bitter right now. person i love most in the world told me how much she loved me while she walked away, towards greener pastures. i suppose i should thank her for enlightening me.
to all the random people i have helped in life and/or over the internet, i apologise for helping propagate the myth that to do good unto others will mean that good is done unto you. forgive me for leading you to believe that there are truly good people in the world. karma is just a bunch of little green dots.
i would appreciate, if anyone sees me say something helpful on this board or others, to tell me to stop bullshitting myself and others, and get with it. get off the net, get off your arse, and help yourself, because thats all you have.