Yes! An "A-ha!" moment there. You are SO RIGHT, and I am just an idiot for trying to keep pushing it. I understand that I need to rest it; I think I just keep thinking I'm healed earlier than I actually am. Here's what I've done so far about it:
It started hurting 2 weeks ago; I pinpointed my cardio as the cause, so I stopped doing that and only lifted upper body. So... went a week without cardio... then hopped on an elliptical to 'test the waters'... had pain within 2 minutes. Tried just walking on a treadmill uphill -- that was somewhat better because I had leverage on which way to bend my knee. But again... that was on a Sunday and I gave myself a week off.
LAST Sunday I managed 30 minutes of cardio and was fine. I felt fine prior to the exercise and a little tender afterward. The next morning I woke up to try and do my 5am cardio (my "normal") and my knee was swollen. Put the brace on and wore it for a few days off and on. Felt normal again... managed 15 min. of walking at the gym last Thursday. I was FINE. It felt good, nothing crazy. SO I didn't do anything -- rested Fri. and Sat... and then Sunday I ran because I thought I was ok (jogged... not ran; went easy, barely got my heartrate up) and sure enough... today I hurt.
As of this morning, I woke up and now I can'd determine what hurts more -- the shin splints I've gained or the muscle soreness from running outside for the first time in eons. Yes, I pushed hard. I know it was a mistake.
I'm just getting really impatient.
Here is my epiphany of the moment: Why am I in such a rush to get back to cardio?
1) I'm afraid my losses will stop if I don't (although Ulter assures me my diet and supps won't allow that to happen at this point... did I mention I'm also on T3 and just started a "cycle" last week? Yeah... forgot to mention that...)
2) I haven't had a cheat day since Easter Sunday, aside from a little chocolate mousse and a chocolate covered strawberry yesterday on Mother's Day and last Saturday chaperoning senior prom. As healthy as I am... as healthy as I eat -- I'm starting to think like a deprived fat girl again.
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I miss a day of ice cream as my treat for working hard.
3) I don't get my cheat day back until my training is up and running... I go to the grocery story feeling sorry for myself more often now because I don't have those splurges to look forward to. It's just habitual bad-thinking... I don't "deserve" to treat my body like a garbage can for junk food. I'm smarter than that... but part of me is missing something (probably missing Ulter most...) and is wanting food to fill that void. Without the exercise to kill my appetite, I am REALLY struggling.
That is my honest truth of the day. Any words of kindness are appreciated.
Gymgurl -- The supps have made a HUGE difference with the weight loss. I STALLED OUT at 185 for 10 months... and now I'm rollin' fierce again. I'm not supps-dependent -- I use them the right way with my lifestyle, but my dad, too, has lost 35 lbs since Feb. as well by taking them. It's a lifesaver. He can't say enough about how it's helped his insulin release and losses.
Que -- Heck yeah, RF is killer.
Time to go yell at some kids... *flexes* Watch out, kiddies... T-Cake's on the loose...