Apoligize for my absense guys. Finals and school have been crazy, but I also had to address some issues going on in my life and take control of everything.
First of all, the letro is finally out of my system. Guys, I feel like a completely different person. There is no doubt that the lack of estrogen was magnifying my depression to a level most people probably couldn't handle. I realized that I needed to clear my head and take control because I didn't like where my life was headed. Going out and getting completely hammered at bars and crashing at people's houses who I didn't know, that's just not me.
I won't get into too much detail.
But anyway, I've taken my mental toughness to the next level and I've been pushing myself like never before. I'm actually making gains now that my body has the estrogen it needs to grow.
Like sick fucking gains. I look like I did when I cycled 6 months ago and I'm not on anything.
My shirts and jackets are getting really tight in my shoulder and back area, and it's about time to get new jeans before my quads and hams outgrow them.
Here's what I did today.
5 min stairstepper warmup
Few minutes of bodyweight lunges
10 mins of mobility stretching
Back Squats: 165 x 20 / 170 x 20 / 170 x 20 / 160 x 20 / 150 x 20
Front Squats: 95 x 20 / 95 x 20 / 85 x 20 / 85 x 20 / 85 x 20
Stiff Leg Deadlift: 175 x 20 / 165 x 20 / 160 x 20 / 155 x 20 / 155 x 20
Barbell Lunge 10 steps each direction: 65 lbs / 80 lbs / 80 lbs
Leg Press: 320 x 20 / 320 x 20 / 340 x 15 / 340 x 15 / 360 x 12 / 360 x 12
Seated Leg Curl: 115 x 20 / 120 x 20 / 115 x 20
Leg Curl: 80 x 15 / 65 x 20 / 60 x 20
Hack Squat: 160 x 15 / 160 x 12 / 160 x 12 / 140 x 15
Seated calf raise: 140 x 20 / 160 x 15 / 140 x 15
Standing calf raise: 150 x 15 / 130 x 20 / 130 x 15
20 mins stair stepper
170 lbs on back squat was a pr. That was really heavy weight for me. On the third set I thought I was going to faint, started getting tunnel vision. I decided I either rack it or fuckin try to push through it fast as I could before the fainting occurred.
All in all about a 3 hour workout, nonstop. I've started taking protein shakes 1.5 hours into all my workouts to increase my protein.
I walked out of the gym feeling like a champion. Not because I'm the biggest guy in the gym; not because I'm the strongest. It was because I had no doubt in my mind that I pushed myself
beyond anything I thought I was capable of, and fought harder than anyone else who stepped foot in that gym.
I don't care what anyone tells you. Your mentality willl determine whether or not you're in that 1% or the 99%. You see someone who is truly a beast, has an amazing body, they got there through willpower. I'll get there one day. My body will ultimately become a manifestation of my drive to push myself to the brink and beyond. It's already beginning to show.... now that that fuckin letro is leavin the system.
That letro is a nasty motherfucker boys avoid at all costs
Also, sorry for the essay. Surgery is next Monday by the way. So, naturally, that means this is going to be Hell Week