Either way you need to re-evaluate your entire life. This forum has no room for people like you. We are an informative, supportive, knowledgeable group of individuals who want to give advice, and support to people who want to safely, and properly use performance enhancing drugs to substantially improve their physique, strength, and well being for the correct reasons or the love of the sport. We do not need mindless threads from people willing to abuse a substance to the point of a life or death situation. Find a new place to do so if you choose, but let the people who actually want to learn and listen take up the space here.
Thanks for showing everybody how not to use his drug, that is about all you have contributed here.