anavar cycle update, week 9

[Phemomena]

okay, let me start by saying I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!???!!

explaination... - as you may know, my gym/diet motivation has been dramatically decreased due to some personal issues... week 8 was basically a total write off... week 9 was a step up, workouts were pretty instense (though strength was down slightly, pumps were insane).. cardio was lacking and diet was WAY WAY off (ex. yesterday i ate nothing but junk... nothing!!!)

i made a pact with myself to get my ass together this upcoming week... and just as a reality check, i decided (against my better judegement) to test my bf...

14.5%!!!!!!! (tantia, after cardio and eca thus while dehydrated, which would most likely make it lower than that... )... it's never read this low!??!! i can tell i'm holding extra fat and water... i can still see my abs, but they've been better... i'm very very confused by this... i know that tantia's are notoriously inaccurate, generally erroring on the over than the under, especially under dehydrated conditions... but i thought it would be an okay tool to track the changes... according to this, my bf has dropped 2% in the past week and a half... ???

okay... other stuff... dropped down to 10mg ed b/c shipment is delayed and i'm running low... hopefully will be in next week, if not then i may have to put cycle on hold for a few days... i'm not too concerned... going to either increase eca or throw clen in the mix for a couple weeks just to lean out a bit... i think i'll keep it at 10mg when the ox comes in... 7 more weeks...

sides... nosebleeds occasionally, slight swelling 'down there' nothing more than previously mentioned... not much else...

pumps are more intense than ever (getting really sore this week... this tends to happen when my diet isn't bang on, which its far from right now..)... still feeling pretty hard.. but i swear i'm retaining fat and/or water more than in recent weeks...

other than this annoying DOMS that i'm not overly accustomed to all other nagging muscle pains have subsided... glad for this... hopefully once the diet gets back on i can get my strenght back and keep up with the intensity that i've had over the past week...

well, stats... too lazy to get the past ones, check an older post..

weight 117.5 lbs (this is up, i was assuming fat???)
bf 14.5% (dehydrated... this is down... still not buying it though)

as a side, i feel smaller, i guess its all just a mental thing, but i'm feeling like i'm loosing size... been really hard to keep my mind, concentration and energy in this game with all else that's going on...

Going to post a few pics in a bit... charging camera now... Lets see if ya'll see the differences (fat) that i'm seeing, maybe i'm just imagining things??? maybe the numbers aren't lying to me... but i'm skeptical...

but i'm going to make sure i channel this negative energy to bring myself up to that next level...

oh, and i've made the decision to compete... just have to set a date now... hopefully this is the right move to make...

eeeek...

pics to come...

phem

 

[Phemomena]

shit my ass is pale

going to the tanning salon this afternoon....

 

[ann]

I dont see any fat--more muscle. Honestly--- your arms look bigger and your abbs look more defined.


I am with Spatterson--think you shocked your body and got some good results.

Set that compettition date and get rockin girl--- might have to make a trip to see ya compete

 

[Phemomena]

another pic

sigh....

 

[tripleV]

well Phem Im glad you are going to refocus that negative energy. And im glad you decided to compete. Once you set a date, you will have something to look forward to. THis will help keep you motivated im sure.

Consistency is thre real key here. You have been conistent with a clean diet and this little spin off is not going to hinder much , I predict. So you binged, don't let it get you down. On the whole, you've been a good girl, right? hehehe

Anyways, I don't see a drop in muscle at all. You still look very frickin hard and built. Can I used diesel here!

The only diff I see is that your abs are looking more defined, but you may be holding a bit more water on top of them. Don't understand it, that's the only thing i see and it is very slight.

Have a great workout week girl!!!

 

[tripleV]

wow look at that vein in your arm girl!!! yummers

 

[rez]

phem..u r my inspiration!!! u look awsome...and even if the 14% is wrong (which it doesnt look like it is!)..its definitely a nice ego-boost. keep going
have u kept the same diet how is it looking at the moment?

 

[Phemomena]

trying to give myself a cyber tan

hehe... i'm grossed out by how washed out my pics are coming out... i'm going to take some more later this afternoon when the suns shining in... the cuts i do have aren't coming out in these...

or maybe i'm just imagining those cuts?

 

[tripleV]

wow ncie pec line too!

 

[Phemomena]

thanks!

i believe that the reading is more accurate than the past ones, i guess its the past ones i don't understand...

my diet has SUCKED the past week... i've been stressed and busy and giving into emotional cheesecake binges... (yesterday i had 3 slices of cheesecake, a big cookie, ummm... hot chocolate, bugles, crepes... basically way tooo much sugar and empty calories.. i had such a wicked headache after all of that that i didn't even make it to the gym...)

i'm now back on my diet... no more binging... i'll probably drop the soy a bit (make my shakes with half soy, half water), but other than that i'm going to stick with what i've got for a couple weeks or so and then cut back portion sizes gradually... probably giving myself 8-10 weeks or so to lean out for whatever comp i decide to do...) strict strict diet for 4-6 weeks..