I recently passed my driving test and got my first set of wheels. And this morning I drove it for the first time but nearly got into a car accident (yeah it was my bad) and the other driver just lost it, she got out of the car, and so did I.
However once I saw it was some girl (pretty hot) I put on a mean expression on my face, and asked her what the fuck her problem was.
She told me I nearly got her into an accident, at which point I stepped forwards, still with my 'angry face' and she responded by taking steps back. And I literally told her to 'shut the fuck up and sit back in her car' pointing at her car, and she just looked at the floor and hurried back into her drivers seat without saying another word.
Although I try not to, sometimes I can't help be be aggressive towards women. esp good looking women. And for some reason my attitude and her subsequent reaction made me feel really good; really dominant and in control.
And it made me realise that at 6'1 and 95kg, no woman is ever going to talk back much, esp if I seem 'angry' (ha my hard work at the gym has paid off).
I'm generally not very good with girls. I have had only one gf in the past in my miserable life and I realise I used to talk to her with this attitude too and deliberately tried to make her feel bad about herself to control her.. Even though I wasn't consciously aware of the way I was behaving at the time.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
My mum was only 15 when she had me she used to beat me when I was a kid. If I ever protested the discipline would come swiftly, and I would feel it the next day. Sometimes they would have been particularly harsh. Due to this, I was never able to express my negative emotions they would just remain pent up inside me.
life now.