Sorry guys

[Thaibox]

I'm sorry about my last thread. I didn't mean to put crap on the board. I just wanted to thank the people here that have been friends over time. I also wanted to acknowledge the people that shared their concern on my last thread. It meant a lot. I wish there was someway I could keep in touch with many of you over time. You're good people.

The reason I was so negative, is because my list of life failures is longer than that of anyone I know. I hold myself to much higher standards than most, and can't handle being less than one of the best. So being one of the worst, or not even part of something(spec-ops) is unacceptable. I can no longer do any of the things that drive me.

The night after I wrote that thread, I took a bottle of Ambien, 120mg of valium, and half a bottle of Bombay. Well, I failed at that too. So, even though I'm still pretty sick from doing that...I'm still around unfortunately.

I'm not going to post on the boards anymore because I just don't feel like I have anything to add.

This certainly doesn't add anything positive, but I had to write it. Thank you again to the people that have been such good friends. Good luck to everyone in their training and life. There are many bros, and certainly sis's) that have the potential to shake the world with the skill and heart they possess. Never stop. I look forward to seeing many of you at the top of your game.

 

[from zero]

I'm not going to post on the boards anymore because I just don't feel like I have anything to add.

Your knowledge of training is highly respected bro.

Please seek out some help man.

 

[Screwball]

Keep your head up and look for new challenges. Your best days are ahead of you.

 

[louden_swain]

Thai,

All of that stuff is in the past. . .now it is time. . time to start new things.

You are never a failure. . there are plenty of chances to make things work.

I have faith in you.

Stay strong

 

[kingc_79]

man, we all have our ups and downs in life. you never know what's gonna get thrown your way, but quitting is no way to handle it. you just have to find a way to adapt and overcome. your a warrior so there's no reason you can't. and yes you have plenty to contribute to this board so theres no reason for you to go anywhere.

 

[BigBadBootyDaddy29]

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The night after I wrote that thread, I took a bottle of Ambien, 120mg of valium, and half a bottle of Bombay. Well, I failed at that too. So, even though I'm still pretty sick from doing that...I'm still around unfortunately.

I wouldn't look at that as a failure, I would look at it as a message from a higher power that it isn't your time and you have a lot to offer the world, and there are plenty of good reasons for you to be here.

I refrained from posting on the original thread because I don't know you that well, but we always seemed to have a mutual respect for one another on the boards.

The fact that you are sharing this part of your life with the boards, people you feel close to, leads me to believe that you don't really want to do anything rash. I've been through some crazy shit in my life, and I have my share of skeletons in my closet, shit has happened to me, and I have done a lot of shit I am not too proud of, but I have put the past in the past. Even though we don't really know each other personally, sometimes it helps to talk to someone with similar interests who you have things in common with and can relate to. If I didn't have people I could vent to and get a reality check on things and put life in perspective, I probably wouldn't be here right now. I will PM you my phone number if you want to give me a buzz.

Life is a roller coaster ride, don't get too down. Good luck with everything.

 

[PolishHammer1977]

You can always call the Hammer if you need an ear.

 

[pwr_machine]

Re: Re: Sorry guys

I wouldn't look at that as a failure, I would look at it as a message from a higher power that it isn't your time and you have a lot to offer the world, and there are plenty of good reasons for you to be here.

That's a good point. There have been many times where it seemed like my dreams were unattainable. And I took a new path that I didn't think was the right path. But in the end, it was the right path and I'm glad those down times led me to good times.

 

[t3c]

DO NOT GIVE UP!

 

[Mike_Rojas]

I hope you change your mind and continue posting here. I've always enjoyed your posts.