Mermaid 2006

[FlyBrownChick]

Heya, Mermaid! Looks like you've been doing really well! NICE! I should take a cue from you! Socializing and still doing the diet right...awesome.

I hope you're having a good one!

 

[sbt2082]

Get your @$$ back in bed

 

[Roonytunes]

I had your V for you yesterday. Strawberry's soaked in it. Took them to my friends cookout. They went over VERY well! lol

Maybe we can have some of those in July!

Ooooh, this sounds like a plan!

Merm, you're doing really well and sometimes it just takes a long time for the body to adapt to these changes and drop the weight accordingly. Hang in there....if you do everything right, body fat and scale weight will drop as should! And drink that water, girlfriend

ps - sorry to hear about your workday. hope you have a better one tomorrow

 

[mermaid]

Thanks ladies. I'll just keep going.....

And SG, don't you DARE mention vodka soaked strawberries while this log is alcohol free!!!!!

Day 44 Wednesday 31 May 2006
Meal 1 - 1 cup whites, 1 yolk
Meal 2 - 1 banana, 1oz almonds
Meal 3 - 5oz chicken, 4oz sweet potato
Meal 4 - 5oz chicken, 3oz sweet potato
Meal 5 - 1 oatmeal blueberry pancake, 1 tbsp almond butter

PM Cardio – 60 mins treadmill 4.0kph @ 15% incline


No weights

Calories - 1631
Protein - 161g 41%
Carbs - 139g 33%
Fat - 49g 26%
Fibre - 24g

A better day, not because things went well but because I had an attitude adjustment. Slept for shit and turned off alarm for AM cardio so an hour in the PM was required (three hours after fourth meal). AF Store shipment arrived - more Sesapure and Glucorell - very happy. Hump day over with, downhill slope for the weekend. Where does the time go?

 

[sbt2082]

Hey Hun!!! I'm glad to hear that you had a better day today!!! Keep your head up, you are doing great and seriously you should take some of your own advice Your diet looks amazing, and so do your workouts, so keep that chin up!!! But just wanted to say THANK YOU for all your kind words and encouragement (They seem to always come when i NEED them most )

 

[treilin]

Thanks ladies. I'll just keep going.....

And SG, don't you DARE mention vodka soaked strawberries while this log is alcohol free!!!!!

Day 44 Wednesday 31 May 2006
Meal 1 - 1 cup whites, 1 yolk
Meal 2 - 1 banana, 1oz almonds
Meal 3 - 5oz chicken, 4oz sweet potato
Meal 4 - 5oz chicken, 3oz sweet potato
Meal 5 - 1 oatmeal blueberry pancake, 1 tbsp almond butter

PM Cardio – 60 mins treadmill 4.0kph @ 15% incline


No weights

Calories - 1631
Protein - 161g 41%
Carbs - 139g 33%
Fat - 49g 26%
Fibre - 24g

A better day, not because things went well but because I had an attitude adjustment. Slept for shit and turned off alarm for AM cardio so an hour in the PM was required (three hours after fourth meal). AF Store shipment arrived - more Sesapure and Glucorell - very happy. Hump day over with, downhill slope for the weekend. Where does the time go?

Hey girl!
Glad to hear you are feeling better. I was feeling pretty icky myself last night with no sleep. Gotta just keep at it

 

[iceprincess]

Just droppin in - lookin awesome girl!!

KEEP IT UP 15% incline = great work

 

[nelmsjer]

24 days have now passed since pics have been posted.

This has been a public service announcement by Nelmsjer.

 

[FlyBrownChick]

24 days have now passed since pics have been posted.

This has been a public service announcement by Nelmsjer.

 

[que_66]

24 days have now passed since pics have been posted.

This has been a public service announcement by Nelmsjer.

 

[Roonytunes]

Yay for an attitude adjustment! I'm working on one too!

 

[mermaid]

Yay for an attitude adjustment! I'm working on one too!

Well.

I'm not alcohol free anymore.



What was it? 40 something days. Yay

 

[nelmsjer]

Let's discuss.

 

[mermaid]

Let's discuss.

Ummmmmmm, what's to discuss?

 

[nelmsjer]

All I want to know is if you are doing ok, and if the next time you drink will be with IP and me.

 

[ck2006]

Get back on the wagon, day 5 for me, we will start over again! you made it 40 days, lets do it again together!

 

[sbt2082]

Get that head up sunshine ^^^ Read above, again please

 

[*Bunny*]

Well.

I'm not alcohol free anymore.



What was it? 40 something days. Yay

I hear that ... Day 3 for me today ... wanna go again?





(missed you too gf)

 

[que_66]

Well.

I'm not alcohol free anymore.



What was it? 40 something days. Yay

The good thing about having "been around the block a few times" is that we know where the potholes are.

 

[Roonytunes]

All I want to know is if you are doing ok, and if the next time you drink will be with IP and me.

And ME!!! Merm, be proud of your 40 days. That IS an accomplishment. I can't say I've gone that long myself.

Now put that glass down and start over....ASAP.

ya, girl!

 

[jenscats5]

Well.

I'm not alcohol free anymore.



What was it? 40 something days. Yay

40 days is GREAT!! Good job!!

Now just start over again.....

 

[FlyBrownChick]

40 days is GREAT!! Good job!!

Now just start over again.....

^^^^^ Yup.

Happy Friday!

 

[treilin]

40 days is GREAT!! Good job!!

Now just start over again.....

WOHHHOOO 40 days great job girlie!!! Start over again... This time will be easier!

 

[scorpiogirl]

Don't look at the end of the "alcohol free" 40 day mark as a failure. Think of it as a reward for the 40 days you DIDN'T have a drink. Start over today....start over next Monday......whatever you want to do. It's all you, babe!!!!

Great job!

 

[mermaid]

Bumpity bumpity bump bump bump..............

Damn, it's cold and dark and lonely down here off that wagon.

Now I fully understand why progress was tough when I drank every week. I woke up this morning, hurting bad, the apartment was a wreck and I was late for work. A bit depressed. I am willing for this day to be over.

Needless to say, junk is my friend today. And so is my sesapure and glucorell. Food fit alert.

And not one from the ladies. I know, I have to see that the glass is half full not half empty.

And today is the start of another dry spell and tomorrow is the start of another clean diet

 

[sbt2082]

Hey there hunny!!!! Just wanted you to know that you have mucho support here behind you!!! I think you should be dam proud of your 40 days and look at it that way! Keep your head up and keep on ....

 

[iceprincess]

Girl don't get down about it - look forward and not backward...you have done absolutely amazing...don't let one night of drinks spoil ALL of the progress that YOU HAVE made!! Keep your chin up girl and start fresh, tomorrow shall be day ONE!!

Know that we are behind you, and I am personally VERY proud of you!! You have done a fabulous job, now keep it up!!!

 

[que_66]

Bumpity bumpity bump bump bump..............

Damn, it's cold and dark and lonely down here off that wagon.

Now I fully understand why progress was tough when I drank every week. I woke up this morning, hurting bad, the apartment was a wreck and I was late for work. A bit depressed. I am willing for this day to be over.

Needless to say, junk is my friend today. And so is my sesapure and glucorell. Food fit alert.

And not one from the ladies. I know, I have to see that the glass is half full not half empty.

And today is the start of another dry spell and tomorrow is the start of another clean diet

'Scuseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee me
I believe if you look to you left you'll see me under that wagon too. Lately my diet hasn't been for shyt & neither have the workouts or my attitude. I keep trying to be positive but some days it's hard. So when you hear a loud "pop" you know I managed to pull my head outta my a$$.

Ok so I won't give you just ONE







You're doing a fabulous job and your pictures prove it. Now get your food fit outta the way and get your fins back to the gym. mooky mooky

 

[nelmsjer]

Did someone say pics?

 

[treilin]

Bumpity bumpity bump bump bump..............

Damn, it's cold and dark and lonely down here off that wagon.

Now I fully understand why progress was tough when I drank every week. I woke up this morning, hurting bad, the apartment was a wreck and I was late for work. A bit depressed. I am willing for this day to be over.

Needless to say, junk is my friend today. And so is my sesapure and glucorell. Food fit alert.

And not one from the ladies. I know, I have to see that the glass is half full not half empty.

And today is the start of another dry spell and tomorrow is the start of another clean diet

Yep remember this feeling write down every bit of it... so when the temptation occurs again you can read it!

 

[mermaid]

A quick snapshot of yesterday:

Saturday 3 June
Day 2 No alcohol (though junk food was a big part of day 1)

1 hour cardio - mixed machines - sweated it out

But all I ate was:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk
1 apple
4oz chicken
Mixed tomatoes/cucumber
1 cup whites, 1 yolk
2 slices rye bread, 1 tbsp almond butter
About a gallon and a half of water and half a tub of sesapure

A total of 900 cals 50:25:25

I am so bloated I loook like this:

I am never eating chinese food again, my skin almost feels tight from the stretching and now I'm paranoid that I'm going to put back on all the fat I've lost. It is SO not worth it.

Slept in this morning, bloat reduced somewhat but not back to normal.

Pics? Um, no, not yet. Need a week and then I'll see what I look like.

 

[*Bunny*]

Pics? Um, no, not yet. Need a week and then I'll see what I look like.

Take them for you as least to hold as reference

Day 2 *cheers my dear*

 

[que_66]

Safe to assume the food hit is over?

Still wuv ya so hang in there!

 

[sbt2082]

Hey hun! Hope you have a GREAT day!!

 

[mermaid]

Safe to assume the food hit is over?

Still wuv ya so hang in there!

Um, er, not quite.

Alcohol, no cravings there at all. But just had some chocolate

 

[sbt2082]

Psssssssssssssst.... sending some hugs your way

 

[mermaid]

Food fit.

For about 3 hours today. But I sprayed the rest of the chocolate with cleaner and smashed the Doritos to smithereens and put both in the rubbish. I feel like shit.

So, again, tomorrow, I try again.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

 

[Roonytunes]

So, again, tomorrow, I try again.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

You CAN do this. Day 4 will be good.

 

[Jamie Lynn]

Merm, I am really feeling your pain on this right now (minus the alcohol). We will get through this phase. I am blaming it on the absence of af. Keep your head up and I am there for you in spirit whenever you get the urge to eat crappy food. Persevere!!!

I bet you my food fits are WAY worse than yours... I actually eat so much I puke (gross I know). You can do this Merm, I have faith.

 

[ck2006]

YOU WILL DO IT AND YOU ARE DOING IT!

 

[jenscats5]

Food fit.

For about 3 hours today. But I sprayed the rest of the chocolate with cleaner and smashed the Doritos to smithereens and put both in the rubbish. I feel like shit.

So, again, tomorrow, I try again.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

Ohhhhh I know those food fits well!!

And I saw a commercial for a show where the wife made a pie for the husband then tossed it in the trash, but he pulled it out & started eating it so she walked in the room & sprayed it with cleaner.....so your post made me laugh a bit....

Hang in there girl!! I'm back on the wagon (or under it?) too - so at least you have company. We'll huddle together for warmth.


I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I bleed the demons that drag me down....

 

[que_66]

 

[*Bunny*]

Hang in there girl!! I'm back on the wagon (or under it?) too - so at least you have company. We'll huddle together for warmth.

I'm the heated blanket

 

[iceprincess]

 

[sbt2082]

Hey hun! Just dropping in to say hi I hope you had a great day today!!!

 

[mermaid]

Hey hun! Just dropping in to say hi I hope you had a great day today!!!

You motivated me today with posting your pics!! I didn't eat those cookies! Thank you

Hang in there girl!! I'm back on the wagon (or under it?) too - so at least you have company. We'll huddle together for warmth.

I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I bleed the demons that drag me down....

Thank you!! And with Bunny as our blanket, we'll do fine. I really love the quote

YOU WILL DO IT AND YOU ARE DOING IT!

YES I AM!!!

You can do this Merm, I have faith.

And I have faith in you too

You CAN do this. Day 4 will be good.

It was certainly better! Thanks for the vote of confidence.

And Que? You know the drill, friend

Day 4 Monday 5 June 2006
Meal 1 - 1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Meal 2 - 1 apple, 1oz almonds
Meal 3 - 4oz chicken, 1/3 cup lentils in tomato, 1 cup broccoli, ½ avocado
Meal 4 - 3oz chicken, 3oz sweet potato
Meal 5 - 2 whole eggs poached, 2 slices rye bread

AM cardio – 30 mins HIIT treadmill 4kph/7kph @ 15% incline
PM cardio – 15 mins bike, sprinting 100rpm
15 mins step mill, random profile, level 10
10 mins treadmill, walk it out


Calories - 1638 cals
Protein - 139g 35%
Carbs - 149g 33%
Fat - 60g 32%
Fibre - 40g


It was a better day. Did Am cardio - took some cardio breeze - wow, that stuff lives up to it's name and I wasn't jittery either. I was very hungry all day though. I upped the fibre content today due to issues in that "area" after the cheat fest.

Read the board on and off to keep me away from the kitchen and sbt's pics and great progress halted my 3pm sugar craving in its tracks. Had a call from my personal cheerleader (bless you ) and between him and the other angels who have posted in my log (yep, that's you) I got through the day.

Thank you is not enough

 

[nelmsjer]

(We didn't fly today. We'll try again tomorrow.)

 

[que_66]

^^That's a tuna muffin not a donut

Get them fins movin mooky mooky!



Oh look Jens & Bunny are under the wagon too - PARTY TIME!

 

[Roonytunes]

And we're back on track!! Very nice cardio workout today and diet looks good too. YAY!!!

ps - How did you cook your lentils in tomatoes?

 

[mermaid]

ps - How did you cook your lentils in tomatoes?

I don't measure too well:

1 can lentils
1 can tomatoes
tomato puree
olive oil
garlic
large slug red wine
bay leaf
chicken stock cube
pepper

Mix together, pour over chicken breasts and bake for an hour. Quite rich but tasty.

 

[mermaid]

Woke at 3.30am with sinus issues. Stayed awake, did AM cardio and went to work. My work day was not good. Got angry, then upset, then clinically professional (usual routine). Some people really really suck. But learned a valuable lesson.

Food fitting was a close run thing because of emotional pattern described above. Damn, I hate it how my diet is governed by my emotional state. Actually missed meals instead.

What I ate today:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Organic spelt pita w/ chicken, avocado and raw veggies
Orange and almond meal slice (like a cake but different, duh, that makes sense)
2 eggs, 2 slices rye bread

2 cardio breeze followed by AM cardio:30 mins bike, hill profile level 6, sneezing all the way.

Alcohol cravings tonight but resisted. Positive element of the day

 

[sbt2082]

hi hun!!! Sorry to hear about your day but way to stay away from the alcohol

 

[Gymgurl]

Morning Merm Wakey Wakey!!

 

[jenscats5]

Woke at 3.30am with sinus issues. Stayed awake, did AM cardio and went to work. My work day was not good. Got angry, then upset, then clinically professional (usual routine). Some people really really suck. But learned a valuable lesson.

Food fitting was a close run thing because of emotional pattern described above. Damn, I hate it how my diet is governed by my emotional state. Actually missed meals instead.

What I ate today:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Organic spelt pita w/ chicken, avocado and raw veggies
Orange and almond meal slice (like a cake but different, duh, that makes sense)
2 eggs, 2 slices rye bread

2 cardio breeze followed by AM cardio:30 mins bike, hill profile level 6, sneezing all the way.

Alcohol cravings tonight but resisted. Positive element of the day

Good morning!! Well here it is - 8:45am.........is is Wednesday there now?? LOL Are you ahead or behind in time??

Good job on turning a negative (waking up so early) into a positive (getting the CV in) and I'm very proud of you for resisting da booze!!!

 

[ck2006]

Woke at 3.30am with sinus issues. Stayed awake, did AM cardio and went to work. My work day was not good. Got angry, then upset, then clinically professional (usual routine). Some people really really suck. But learned a valuable lesson.

Food fitting was a close run thing because of emotional pattern described above. Damn, I hate it how my diet is governed by my emotional state. Actually missed meals instead.

What I ate today:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Organic spelt pita w/ chicken, avocado and raw veggies
Orange and almond meal slice (like a cake but different, duh, that makes sense)
2 eggs, 2 slices rye bread

2 cardio breeze followed by AM cardio:30 mins bike, hill profile level 6, sneezing all the way.

Alcohol cravings tonight but resisted. Positive element of the day

Your a stronger gal than I, WAY TO GO ON THE MORNING CARDIO!

 

[que_66]

Woke at 3.30am with sinus issues. Stayed awake, did AM cardio and went to work. My work day was not good. Got angry, then upset, then clinically professional (usual routine). Some people really really suck. But learned a valuable lesson.

Food fitting was a close run thing because of emotional pattern described above. Damn, I hate it how my diet is governed by my emotional state. Actually missed meals instead.

What I ate today:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Organic spelt pita w/ chicken, avocado and raw veggies
Orange and almond meal slice (like a cake but different, duh, that makes sense)
2 eggs, 2 slices rye bread

2 cardio breeze followed by AM cardio:30 mins bike, hill profile level 6, sneezing all the way.

Alcohol cravings tonight but resisted. Positive element of the day

Great job crankin out the cardio!

Yeah !!!!!! Cravings are tough - glad you stuck to it and resisted.


wuv ya Merms!

 

[Roonytunes]

Thanks for the lentils recipe. I'll have to get some to try soon. I'm slowly working beans into my diet.

Great showin' of willpower on saying no to the alcohol and going through with the cardio despite the sneezin'!!

 

[treilin]

Woke at 3.30am with sinus issues. Stayed awake, did AM cardio and went to work. My work day was not good. Got angry, then upset, then clinically professional (usual routine). Some people really really suck. But learned a valuable lesson.

Food fitting was a close run thing because of emotional pattern described above. Damn, I hate it how my diet is governed by my emotional state. Actually missed meals instead.

What I ate today:

1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Organic spelt pita w/ chicken, avocado and raw veggies
Orange and almond meal slice (like a cake but different, duh, that makes sense)
2 eggs, 2 slices rye bread

2 cardio breeze followed by AM cardio:30 mins bike, hill profile level 6, sneezing all the way.

Alcohol cravings tonight but resisted. Positive element of the day

Great job on recognizing the emotional eating connection, and AVOIDING it

 

[badgergrl]

Hey Merme! Nice job on the cardio!

 

[*Bunny*]

Great job crankin out the cardio!

Yeah !!!!!! Cravings are tough - glad you stuck to it and resisted.


wuv ya Merms!

^^ I second that

Great showin' of willpower on saying no to the alcohol and going through with the cardio despite the sneezin'!!

^^ that

Great job on recognizing the emotional eating connection, and AVOIDING it

^^ AND that ..

how original i know ... great job ... brain function minimal right now

Keep it up ...

 

[mermaid]

I love you girls. I wake up in the morning, check my log and feel very grateful for the positive reinforcement especially when I feel like poop.



Jens, I am ahead of you, by approx 17 hours! Crazy isn't it. I'm going to bed on Wednesday night, when you're getting up.

I've been very busy at work and have been having trouble catching up on logs like I like to. Lately, the weekends have been time for that

Day 6 Wednesday 7 June 2006
Meal 1 - 1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 1 banana
Meal 2 - 1 slice orange poppy seed cake
Meal 3 - 1 cup tuna, ¼ avocado, 2 slices rye bread
Meal 4 - Missed meal
Meal 5 - 1 cup prawns, ½ avocado, 2 slices rye bread

AM Cardio – 30 mins step mill level 10 random profile
PM cardio – 35 mins treadmill, varying levels (competition with P, LOL)

DB shoulder press 5x7 (7,8,9,10,12 ½ )
OB upright rows 3x12
EZ Bar bicep curl 3x12
Skull crushers superset w/narrow grip press 3x10 EZ bar only

Calories - 1302
Protein - 112g 36%
Carbs - 116g 31%
Fat - 49g 33%
Fibre - 22g

I'm a big believer in "what goes around, comes around", both good and bad. Someone at work has got it coming to him; maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but it will come. No one can live like that and ultimately get away with it. As a result, diet was shaky again. Too much bread, cake (! - caved in to emotions) and another missed meal. Felt quite sick at the gym tonight for not eating so had a few gulps of gatorade to get me through. I got the gym time in though and that was important for me today. It got me over the anger.

It's so good to know that, though an internet board, I can communicate with some of the best people I have ever had the pleasure of "meeting". I am truly blessed to have found the EF ladies. I wish we lived near each other because I would have loved to have met up today for a cup of tea and a good old chat about life

 

[SgtSlaughter]

Keep up the positivie thinking Mer.!

 

[que_66]

I love you girls. I wake up in the morning, check my log and feel very grateful for the positive reinforcement especially when I feel like poop.

Jens, I am ahead of you, by approx 17 hours! Crazy isn't it. I'm going to bed on Wednesday night, when you're getting up.

I've been very busy at work and have been having trouble catching up on logs like I like to. Lately, the weekends have been time for that

I'm a big believer in "what goes around, comes around", both good and bad. Someone at work has got it coming to him; maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but it will come. No one can live like that and ultimately get away with it. As a result, diet was shaky again. Too much bread, cake (! - caved in to emotions) and another missed meal. Felt quite sick at the gym tonight for not eating so had a few gulps of gatorade to get me through. I got the gym time in though and that was important for me today. It got me over the anger.

It's so good to know that, though an internet board, I can communicate with some of the best people I have ever had the pleasure of "meeting". I am truly blessed to have found the EF ladies. I wish we lived near each other because I would have loved to have met up today for a cup of tea and a good old chat about life

I WANT PANCAKES!!

Then we can chat

 

[jenscats5]

I love you girls. I wake up in the morning, check my log and feel very grateful for the positive reinforcement especially when I feel like poop.



Jens, I am ahead of you, by approx 17 hours! Crazy isn't it. I'm going to bed on Wednesday night, when you're getting up.

I've been very busy at work and have been having trouble catching up on logs like I like to. Lately, the weekends have been time for that


I'm a big believer in "what goes around, comes around", both good and bad. Someone at work has got it coming to him; maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but it will come. No one can live like that and ultimately get away with it. As a result, diet was shaky again. Too much bread, cake (! - caved in to emotions) and another missed meal. Felt quite sick at the gym tonight for not eating so had a few gulps of gatorade to get me through. I got the gym time in though and that was important for me today. It got me over the anger.

It's so good to know that, though an internet board, I can communicate with some of the best people I have ever had the pleasure of "meeting". I am truly blessed to have found the EF ladies. I wish we lived near each other because I would have loved to have met up today for a cup of tea and a good old chat about life

Well, as I'm posting this, it's currenty 8:00am here.....so, wow you won't see this for a WHILE!! Sorry you had a bad day - it WILL get better!! What's important is that you recognized the issues - that's the first step.

As for the "work thing" - yes, what goes around comes around & yes, I've seen it myself. You may not see it yourself, but you may hear about it, etc.....hang in there and don't let them displace their negativity onto you....

 

[mermaid]

Wooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be in Chicago 5 weeks today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sorry, just had to let that out, I'm so excited

 

[Aries13]

I live in chicago so it depends on whether the boyfriend and i will have extra cash for the show. I HOPE but money is kind of tight. I will see....

The recipe is:
1/2-3/4c raw oats
6-8 egg whites
1/2c ff cottage cheese
2tsp baking powder
splenda and cinnamon
*sometimes I add protein powder
1/2c blueberries... could use like 1/4c as well.

Its not like a SET recipe. I always just wing it. I should make these soon. I cut out the cottage cheese so Ive been having crepes...**JUST AS GOOD and even better b/c I dont end up having to STUFF like 8 huge pancakes. Instead, its like 4 thin crepes

**Let me know how it works!!!!

 

[sbt2082]

Gooood morning Sunshine Oh, and for you...

 

[que_66]

mooky mooky fishy fishy

 

[Roonytunes]

Good morning!

The 5 week countdown begins!!

ps - I can't tell you how many times I wish we all lived closer to have that good ol' chat about life

 

[*Bunny*]

Wooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be in Chicago 5 weeks today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sorry, just had to let that out, I'm so excited

 

[jenscats5]

Morning Merms!!! Erm, evening!! Well more like middle of the night for you...

 

[que_66]

Wooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be in Chicago 5 weeks today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sorry, just had to let that out, I'm so excited

Jumping up and down could count as cardio.

 

[scorpiogirl]

Hey, girl!!!

I find that when making those pancakes....add the blueberries while their frozen....it seems to help a lot.

....and speaking of caving and KARMA, I have a little story for you. And it involves my cookie craving! lol Yesterday I was having a very stressful day at work. Every time I sat down to eat, someone would walk in the door GRRRRRRRRRR, which is pretty normal, but when you're on edge ANYWAY it just PISSES you off.

Well, one of my "neediest" customers came in and I remember rolling my eyes because I just didn't want to deal with anyone......you know what she said to me......and I felt like a TOTAL ASS She said Hi, T! I was just down at Walgreen's and I bought this for you. Handed me a freakin' HUGE chocolate chunk cookie! So, I'm like.....ohhhhh why did you do that, you shouldn't have done that! She says no, no, I bought one for myself and thought, I'm gonna' buy one for T too!

I spend a lot of time answering questions for this woman and she's told me about how she's been abused (ahem....she's a biker) and mistreated. I try to treat everyone as a "person" who has "feelings". So while I appreciate the good vibes coming back to me - I'M STARING AT THIS HUGE F'ING COOKIE AND I CAN'T EAT IT UNTIL SUNDAY!!!!!!! I think this is a double edged sword! lol

Well, remove head from posterior, woman! Remember what I told you before.....lots of luv to ya', babe!

 

[mermaid]

Thanks for that Aries!

SBT

Que and Roony

Jens - it's 8.30 Friday am now, should be at work but going in a bit later today.

Love the pic, Bunns. There are some great mermaid pics out there.

So, yesterday, my food consumption was OK but macros were probably slightly off. Had lunch and dinner meetings and stuck to mostly vegetarian foods so protein was low but I feel better for it today (things are "moving" well).

AM cardio, 30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6. No evening gym due to meeting with boss

And I did have 1 glass of red wine with dinner but funnily enough I don't feel bad about it. It tasted great and I only wanted 1.

I have just read Tre's post on emotional eating and I'm in a state of shock really, I felt like I was reading about myself in most parts and my understanding of my food issues have only become more acute. This is a good thing but uncomfortable nevertheless.

I have to come clean about something that I didn't post on Wednesday. I bought some gifts for a friend, one of which was a tin of luxury chocolate coated honey candied pecans. Lovely packaging, more expensive than you would pay normally for chocolate. I even had them wrapped, ready to ship. Well after another emotional moment at work in the afternoon and without any conscious thinking, I opened them up and ate the whole lot in about 10 minutes. I didn't even think about what I was doing until they were all gone. I then spent the rest of the day in a state of guilt and lied about it (well omitted it) in my journal that night. That's why I "missed" meal 4.

I have been on antidepressants on and off for some time in my adult life. I'm on them again now (started again September 05 when I started journalling). While, I must admit, my rollercoaster emotions are steadied, losing weight is more difficult because the drugs do tend to slow the metabolism down. Hence, I eat clean, train, see minimal progress, fall off the wagon, eat, don't lose weight etc. And I'm at the bottom of that cycle right now.

I've decided, today, to go and see my doctor and discuss coming off the pills. I have to learn to do this on my own. I am strong enough.

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

 

[scorpiogirl]

Mermaid......have you tried Wellbutrin?!?!?! It's a great appetite supressant along with a great emotional booster. When I was getting my business up and running, I was really overwhelmed. I started taking it and the fat FELL off me AND, my mental stability came back, AND I quit smoking!!!!! It's just a thought.......

Big hugs, Sweetie! (((((((((((((((((HUGGGGGGG)))))))))))))))))))))

Try to have a good day at work.

 

[jenscats5]

I have just read Tre's post on emotional eating and I'm in a state of shock really, I felt like I was reading about myself in most parts and my understanding of my food issues have only become more acute. This is a good thing but uncomfortable nevertheless.

I have to come clean about something that I didn't post on Wednesday. I bought some gifts for a friend, one of which was a tin of luxury chocolate coated honey candied pecans. Lovely packaging, more expensive than you would pay normally for chocolate. I even had them wrapped, ready to ship. Well after another emotional moment at work in the afternoon and without any conscious thinking, I opened them up and ate the whole lot in about 10 minutes. I didn't even think about what I was doing until they were all gone. I then spent the rest of the day in a state of guilt and lied about it (well omitted it) in my journal that night. That's why I "missed" meal 4.

I have been on antidepressants on and off for some time in my adult life. I'm on them again now (started again September 05 when I started journalling). While, I must admit, my rollercoaster emotions are steadied, losing weight is more difficult because the drugs do tend to slow the metabolism down. Hence, I eat clean, train, see minimal progress, fall off the wagon, eat, don't lose weight etc. And I'm at the bottom of that cycle right now.

I've decided, today, to go and see my doctor and discuss coming off the pills. I have to learn to do this on my own. I am strong enough.

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

Good morning! (to you) Just got done dinner here & you just got done breakfast!! LOL

You've accomplished the 1st step!! You recognize the issue with the emotional cycle & WHY you do what you do. That is very important!! Whatever you decide to do, you have our support!!

 

[ck2006]

Thanks for that Aries!

SBT

Que and Roony

Jens - it's 8.30 Friday am now, should be at work but going in a bit later today.

Love the pic, Bunns. There are some great mermaid pics out there.

So, yesterday, my food consumption was OK but macros were probably slightly off. Had lunch and dinner meetings and stuck to mostly vegetarian foods so protein was low but I feel better for it today (things are "moving" well).

AM cardio, 30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6. No evening gym due to meeting with boss

And I did have 1 glass of red wine with dinner but funnily enough I don't feel bad about it. It tasted great and I only wanted 1.

I have just read Tre's post on emotional eating and I'm in a state of shock really, I felt like I was reading about myself in most parts and my understanding of my food issues have only become more acute. This is a good thing but uncomfortable nevertheless.

I have to come clean about something that I didn't post on Wednesday. I bought some gifts for a friend, one of which was a tin of luxury chocolate coated honey candied pecans. Lovely packaging, more expensive than you would pay normally for chocolate. I even had them wrapped, ready to ship. Well after another emotional moment at work in the afternoon and without any conscious thinking, I opened them up and ate the whole lot in about 10 minutes. I didn't even think about what I was doing until they were all gone. I then spent the rest of the day in a state of guilt and lied about it (well omitted it) in my journal that night. That's why I "missed" meal 4.

I have been on antidepressants on and off for some time in my adult life. I'm on them again now (started again September 05 when I started journalling). While, I must admit, my rollercoaster emotions are steadied, losing weight is more difficult because the drugs do tend to slow the metabolism down. Hence, I eat clean, train, see minimal progress, fall off the wagon, eat, don't lose weight etc. And I'm at the bottom of that cycle right now.

I've decided, today, to go and see my doctor and discuss coming off the pills. I have to learn to do this on my own. I am strong enough.

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

Hang in there girl, you are doing great, but I agree that you should talk to your doctor before deciding anything. Depending on the anti-depressant, some can actually cause weight gain as well. Talking to the doctor is a good thing because there are a lot of other brands that might be just as beneficial. My thoughts are with you!

 

[que_66]

Thanks for that Aries!

SBT

Que and Roony

Jens - it's 8.30 Friday am now, should be at work but going in a bit later today.

Love the pic, Bunns. There are some great mermaid pics out there.

So, yesterday, my food consumption was OK but macros were probably slightly off. Had lunch and dinner meetings and stuck to mostly vegetarian foods so protein was low but I feel better for it today (things are "moving" well).

AM cardio, 30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6. No evening gym due to meeting with boss

And I did have 1 glass of red wine with dinner but funnily enough I don't feel bad about it. It tasted great and I only wanted 1.

I have just read Tre's post on emotional eating and I'm in a state of shock really, I felt like I was reading about myself in most parts and my understanding of my food issues have only become more acute. This is a good thing but uncomfortable nevertheless.

I have to come clean about something that I didn't post on Wednesday. I bought some gifts for a friend, one of which was a tin of luxury chocolate coated honey candied pecans. Lovely packaging, more expensive than you would pay normally for chocolate. I even had them wrapped, ready to ship. Well after another emotional moment at work in the afternoon and without any conscious thinking, I opened them up and ate the whole lot in about 10 minutes. I didn't even think about what I was doing until they were all gone. I then spent the rest of the day in a state of guilt and lied about it (well omitted it) in my journal that night. That's why I "missed" meal 4.

Repeat after me: Wafers are for Punkin!
I ate a whole pkt of wafers I bought for the Punkin.

I have been on antidepressants on and off for some time in my adult life. I'm on them again now (started again September 05 when I started journalling). While, I must admit, my rollercoaster emotions are steadied, losing weight is more difficult because the drugs do tend to slow the metabolism down. Hence, I eat clean, train, see minimal progress, fall off the wagon, eat, don't lose weight etc. And I'm at the bottom of that cycle right now.

werd!

I've decided, today, to go and see my doctor and discuss coming off the pills. I have to learn to do this on my own. I am strong enough.

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

Mermaid......have you tried Wellbutrin?!?!?! It's a great appetite supressant along with a great emotional booster. When I was getting my business up and running, I was really overwhelmed. I started taking it and the fat FELL off me AND, my mental stability came back, AND I quit smoking!!!!! It's just a thought.......

Big hugs, Sweetie! (((((((((((((((((HUGGGGGGG)))))))))))))))))))))

Try to have a good day at work.

Isn't wellbutrin for asthma or something like that?
My doc won't change my meds at this point, I asked her last Friday.

Good morning! (to you) Just got done dinner here & you just got done breakfast!! LOL

You've accomplished the 1st step!! You recognize the issue with the emotional cycle & WHY you do what you do. That is very important!! Whatever you decide to do, you have our support!!

^^Ditto

Hang in there girl, you are doing great, but I agree that you should talk to your doctor before deciding anything. Depending on the anti-depressant, some can actually cause weight gain as well. Talking to the doctor is a good thing because there are a lot of other brands that might be just as beneficial. My thoughts are with you!

^^Ditto






Ya know I luff ya Mermie

 

[Roonytunes]

Sending you lots of I KNOW you can do this. And you are stronger than you know

 

[scorpiogirl]

No, Wellbutrin is for depression. BUT there is a med under a different name, I believe it's Zyban.....that is the SAME med, and THAT one is for quitting smoking. Nice how they try to trick you!

 

[jenscats5]

+++++++++ Vibes & {{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}} for ya Merms!!

Good evening to you & I hope you had a good day today!!

 

[Lady Viking]

I´m also sending you lots of

 

[treilin]

Thanks for that Aries!

SBT

Que and Roony

Jens - it's 8.30 Friday am now, should be at work but going in a bit later today.

Love the pic, Bunns. There are some great mermaid pics out there.

So, yesterday, my food consumption was OK but macros were probably slightly off. Had lunch and dinner meetings and stuck to mostly vegetarian foods so protein was low but I feel better for it today (things are "moving" well).

AM cardio, 30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6. No evening gym due to meeting with boss

And I did have 1 glass of red wine with dinner but funnily enough I don't feel bad about it. It tasted great and I only wanted 1.

I have just read Tre's post on emotional eating and I'm in a state of shock really, I felt like I was reading about myself in most parts and my understanding of my food issues have only become more acute. This is a good thing but uncomfortable nevertheless.

I have to come clean about something that I didn't post on Wednesday. I bought some gifts for a friend, one of which was a tin of luxury chocolate coated honey candied pecans. Lovely packaging, more expensive than you would pay normally for chocolate. I even had them wrapped, ready to ship. Well after another emotional moment at work in the afternoon and without any conscious thinking, I opened them up and ate the whole lot in about 10 minutes. I didn't even think about what I was doing until they were all gone. I then spent the rest of the day in a state of guilt and lied about it (well omitted it) in my journal that night. That's why I "missed" meal 4.

I have been on antidepressants on and off for some time in my adult life. I'm on them again now (started again September 05 when I started journalling). While, I must admit, my rollercoaster emotions are steadied, losing weight is more difficult because the drugs do tend to slow the metabolism down. Hence, I eat clean, train, see minimal progress, fall off the wagon, eat, don't lose weight etc. And I'm at the bottom of that cycle right now.

I've decided, today, to go and see my doctor and discuss coming off the pills. I have to learn to do this on my own. I am strong enough.

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

Well the thing is, is that you have recognized the behavior.... Now you are actively going to seek out some help (EF, doctor,friend's) Noone ever said changing a life-time of habits is going to be quickly and easily changed. You are not the only one who has been in such an emotinal dump and ate a box of chocolates. If it makes you feel better I purchased pretty Godiva chocolate gifts for Christmas, and then Valentine's.... Ummmm Yeah One for them, two for me, one for them two for me..... We all go through different phases in life and this is one phase that you will get through and surpass and even though right now it seems like everything is out of control and you feel helpless, you will look back and it will seem like nothing.
It helps to have supportive people around who you can talk with. The one thing I did was I stopped and made a promise... If I'm going to eat that then I have to first go run 2 miles, etc.... Try throwing something like that into the mix. It's kinda mind screwing yourself...making you think I am going to eat that, but I have to go run 2 miles, and believe me most of the time you won't want it.. Sometimes you will. But it's forcing yourself to do something else. I had a few food fits even since I started dieting.... I was in tears because I wanted to eat ice cream so bad and because of my life-style and cutting I couldn't.... I was in a pissy mood for two days because of it. It's not easy but now look. I look back and think those two hell days that I got through and didn't submit to the ice cream God's I have lost all this body fat and feel really good.
It's trying to disassociate food with incidences that occur in life. Try and associate maybe taking a hot bath as a way to wash away the feelings and reenergize yourself. Invest maybe in some aromotherapy proucts that will enhance your mood a bit and bring you out of the dumps!!! Or grab a yoga dvd and do 30 minutes, or even 10 minutes of yoga to calm your mind.... Drink some hot tea flavored with something special like honey... You have to make the substitues before the time arrises or you're going to be clinging to food again. Have them ready and pull your computer up (plenty of people on here) and throw a log out there to talk with us instead of turning to food. Maybe we can help you talk it out even.. or take away that feeling of so desperately needing "X" or you will die....
Again take it easy on yourself... you don't have to lie to us... be yourself, we will respect you much more with your honesty and your courage to post up what you are going through. Who knows maybe someday down the road someone else will be going through your same issues and will be able to read your daily log of the struggles you went through and be able to look to you as a source to help them.

 

[Gymgurl]

Morning Merm

 

[Roonytunes]

Where you at, Mermie? Post up when you get a chance. I hope everything went well at your doctor's appointment.

 

[*Bunny*]

Who knows maybe someday down the road someone else will be going through your same issues and will be able to read your daily log of the struggles you went through and be able to look to you as a source to help them.

Merm, we have way more in common than you think

Need Update .. we are here FOR you NOT to judge you or into submission for a box of chocolate, a bag of cancdy, a pizza, 3 bottles of wine etc ... whatever it may be ... We you girl .. your post & admittance to yourself is more than most would do and have the GUTS to do on here ...

I admire that in you.

 

[musclemom]

I feel sad now. I'd better go to work

Smile honey, you have so many people who love and cheer for you, seriously.

I myself have just realized that admitting to something and being honest about what it's doing to your life is a major part of the battle ... amazing how we can kid ourselves about stuff.

Know that you're not alone darlin' we all have our own demons that hound us and are chained to us like some metaphorical albatross ...

Learning how to break those chains is among the most difficult of life lessons.

 

[que_66]

+++++++++++++++++Sending Positive Q-Tip Vibes+++++++++++++++++


c'mon Mermalicious how can anyone resist Qtip vibes?

 

[sbt2082]

Good morning hun!!! Oh wait, I suppose its night to you huh Either way, I hope you had a WONDERFUL day!

 

[mermaid]

Thanks SBT Will check up with you tomorrow on flight details and plans.

Jens - I felt the vibes - thank you!

Scorp, thank you :Kiss:

LV,

+++++++++++++++++Sending Positive Q-Tip Vibes+++++++++++++++++

c'mon Mermalicious how can anyone resist Qtip vibes?

Always irresistable

Smile honey, you have so many people who love and cheer for you, seriously.

I myself have just realized that admitting to something and being honest about what it's doing to your life is a major part of the battle ... amazing how we can kid ourselves about stuff.

Know that you're not alone darlin' we all have our own demons that hound us and are chained to us like some metaphorical albatross ...

Learning how to break those chains is among the most difficult of life lessons.

Ah, there's my lady. Thank you, MM, you have my PM to follow (and not an empty promise this time)

Merm, we have way more in common than you think

Need Update .. we are here FOR you NOT to judge you or into submission for a box of chocolate, a bag of cancdy, a pizza, 3 bottles of wine etc ... whatever it may be ... We you girl .. your post & admittance to yourself is more than most would do and have the GUTS to do on here ...

I admire that in you

Really? Hard to accept......sometimes.......thank you, always meant, always heartfelt

Where you at, Mermie? Post up when you get a chance. I hope everything went well at your doctor's appointment.

Appt on Tuesday am. I'm ready. Just needed some off time - elaboration to follow. Thank you, honey

Well the thing is, is that you have recognized the behavior.... Now you are actively going to seek out some help (EF, doctor,friend's) Noone ever said changing a life-time of habits is going to be quickly and easily changed.

Thanks T. It's hard though, thought I would have it all worked out by now, isn't that what experience is for? Glad I posted it but ashamed at the same time, no one likes to admit their headspace is fu<ked on occasion(s). I promise though, no more cover ups.

 

[jenscats5]

Good morning (evening to you!) Merms!! We got your back - 101%!!

And you have NOTHING to be ashamed of.....NOT ONE THING!!

 

[que_66]

Good decisions come from experience.

Experience comes from bad decisions.

 

[thuggie]

Hi there
So you're form Blimey? Have u been here long? I've only been here just over a year, and I go back every three months, I get so homesick. But I grew up in Africa, but spent the last 9 years in London, was born in Scotland tho.

Good luck with the pills and things, I was also there, I managed to get off too, and I have just learn to recognise certain triggers that could spiral me down, and put the brakes on quickly.

Good luck and love and xxx

 

[mermaid]

Hi there
So you're form Blimey? Have u been here long? I've only been here just over a year, and I go back every three months, I get so homesick. But I grew up in Africa, but spent the last 9 years in London, was born in Scotland tho.

Good luck with the pills and things, I was also there, I managed to get off too, and I have just learn to recognise certain triggers that could spiral me down, and put the brakes on quickly.

Good luck and love and xxx

Yep, from the old country. I'm actually in Australia now but did live in the US for several years. I think there are things about your home that you will always miss. Even now I'm in Australia, they still don't have some of the comforts we're used to.

Thanks for the best wishes.

 

[sbt2082]

Hi there hun Good morning and hope you are having a wonderful day!!! OH and sending some hugs your way

 

[mermaid]

Funny how things happen. I work with two lovely women (they keep me sane); the crazy sweet potato lady and the Brazilian hottie. Well, the hottie had a couple of tickets for the show Stomp and asked if I would like to go. So I shouted dinner (grilled fish, veggies, a couple glasses white wine) and we went to see the show. I used to be a big fan of anything like that; dance, musicals, ballet and I had forgotten how happy it makes me feel.

Saturday morning, my friend called asking if the boys wanted to go to the pub while we went shopping. With nothing better to do on a rainy Saturday, I dropped P at the pub and we window shopped on designer row. Unfortunately, being the character she is (though I love her) she made me try on some dresses (how do you piss Mermaid off? take her shopping to try on dresses, LOL) and it was funny to see the young trendy shop assistants watch in horror as my friend pulls me out of the changing room into the main store to look in the "big" mirror at Mermaid who has squeezed herself into a size 8 (the biggest they do), boobs popping out all over the show, lily white limbs excentuated by the black fabric.

What was, as you can imagine, an absolutely horrifying moment for me in the middle of a serious mind fuck self esteem crisis actually turned out OK when my friend (the one who helped me buy bras and has seen me in all my glory) turned to me and said "wow, you have really lost weight and I can see some muscle there". The assistants just looked at eachother with a "OMG, she must have been big" look but I didn't care. Then smiling sweetly, one of them said that Paris Hilton bought a similar dress when she was last here (though I expect 4 sizes smaller) and then I just wanted to get the damn thing off as quickly as possible because who, in their right mind, wants to look like Paris Hilton anyway? I'd rather be fat than a tramp. Well I'm too old for a tramp, more like mutton.

So, back to the pub. The boys were drunk and I wanted to go home. But no, the party carried on at my friend's house (how do you piss Mermaid off? Put her in a room full of drunk people, while she's sober, playing Garth Brooks and Alan Jackson on full volume). One of the guys was so ill, he vomited (not P). I offered to clean up, (I know like some strange Japanese torture) because I needed to remember and realise how crappy drinking is. I had 2 vodka soda and stopped there.

Yesterday, I gave myself a day to eat whatever I wanted. I baked ready made apple cobbler and ate it straight from the foil carton with a big spoon (typical binge behaviour) and got some Mexican take out which actually made me feel very ill. I caught up on most of the logs on EF, which always makes me happy and went to bed early. And today, is a public holiday (Queen's birthday - The Aussies hate the monarchy but have a day off to celebrate her coronation - not even the Brits do that) so I've just popped 2 CB and I'm going to the gym.

I really have been overwhelmed by the support I have on this board and it is always welcome, always appreciated and I love you girls for it. Thank you so much

 

[ck2006]

Right back at you!

 

[mermaid]

Day 2 Monday 12 June 2006
Meal 1 - 1 ready made protein shake
Meal 2 - 2 slices rye bread, 4oz chicken, ½ avocado, 1 tbsp mayo
Meal 3 - 2 slices rye bread, ½ cup vegetarian beans, 2 poached eggs
Meal 4 - Canneloni (chicken mince, herbs, tomato sauce, 2 pasta sheets)

AM cardio – 30 mins HIIT treadmill 4kph/7kph @ 15% incline
30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6, 85rpm

Calories - 1638 cals
Protein - 139g 35%
Carbs - 149g 33%
Fat - 60g 32%
Fibre - 40g

I'm in love with Cardio Breeze. No jitters, just energy, it's great. Too many carbs today but easing back into it - day 2 of no alcohol.

It will be a good week

 

[sbt2082]

HI Hun I love to see those positive vibes (aboves post) its a GREAT thing to see! Hope you have a wonderful day sweetie!

 

[treilin]

Meal 4 - Canneloni (chicken mince, herbs, tomato sauce, 2 pasta sheets)

THAT SOUNDS SOOO YUMMYYYYYYY