heal, every tuff guy-juicer-meathead in this thread knows the pain you are going thru.
they will front, and tell tales of how many girls they fucked over etc, but deep down we all know that pain...the difference between you and us is that we experienced this at a much younger age and have grown accustomed to it.
i used to sweat girls big time, i'd let small things fuck with me.
then, after getting fucked over a few times, i learned quick how to play the game and protect myself from dumbass hooors. for instance, this gal is bitching at you for going limp? bro, it's her duty to make your lil' guy stiff...if he is soft, maing that's her fault.
i don't see how she can throw that on you.
what i don't want to see here is you using this dismal (though a great learning op) as an excuse to embrace more of your ideological christianity. wimmien are not evil, touching a females body is not a sin, that guilt you feel is not guilt about not living a godly existence, it's not even guilt at all.
it's called emotions.
don't confuse the two