for no apparent reason at all?
I've been told time and time again

that the closer I get to liking someone, liking to spend time with them, the further I pull away. Mostly its because i begin to get a bad feeling about pursuing it. Sometimes its just because... I have no reason at all. I've had less than a handful (2) of relationships that have penetrated my outer core and I actually gave a shit about when it ended.
I'm sure some will say, I'll end up dying a loney ol hag.. but in a way, thats a OK, with me because I have to truely believe in someone to let them fully into my life. If there is one spark of hesitation along the ride than I'm usually out of there quick.