Sad bro, very sad.
Is your self esteem really this low? You need to post stuff like this again and again so that people on a chat board go, cool! Way to go! Right on!
I would say less then 5% of your posts are of any benefit to anyone, the rest are "hey look at me" dressed up in different ways.
You keep saying you want to change but you get more and more pathetic.
Dude anyone can get laid, it isn't that hard,impress me with a post one day about actually having a women stick around you in a relationship for more then a few weeks.