wow, that is incredible discipline and I applaud your results, it shows brotha. Interesting that you mention sleepng, because towards the end of my cyc and after 10-12 weeks of strict dieting my sleep pattens get all messed up too. I fight the urge not to raid the fridge , and even if I did there is nothing in there that will satisfy my craving. Not one thing that is worth getting out a bed for. So I just lay there and suck it up.
I understand its part of your job to be so disciplined because I think you mentioned your a fitness model (or aspiring to be one) and god knows your livelyhood depends on looking perfect. But even then, not being able to go out for a nice dinner every once in a while or seeing a movie with your girlfriend (or wife) or friends seems like it would take a toll on your mental state. For me the gym, diet, training, partaking in this forum are enjoyable to me, but if it stops me from enjoying the finer things in life, I wouldn't do any of it.
Plus it helps with getting chicks, which btw is my sole purpose on this blue earth ---chase tail. LOL!