Hey B, I don't really know how bad you feel things are, or how bad things are getting. One thing I know; when I get worn down (too goddamn often these days), I read the writing I'm going to paste here. It gets me going. Inspiring as hell . . . Taken from another board, respectively P&B:
BULLSHIT!
A man is found manly not in his accomplishments, but in HOW they are accomplished. I'm not talking about that "how he plays the game" shit either. I'm talking about training. I'm talking about going from where you are right now to find yourself where you never thought you could be. This requires a part of you that may have been forgotten. It often is. But if you're out there, training like an animal, GODAMNIT...training how YOU SHOULD...and BY GOD better had be, it'll be there.
You're not some sniveling hardgainer that sits at home waiting for his spleen to feel right so that he can "hit the gym". You're a bona fide competitive lifter! This is not the time to be thinking about the heat, or how hard it's going to be, or how hard it is today.
This is it. This is what you train for, it's part of your life! Do it now, and talk about how hard it WAS! Get that "weakness" shit out of your head. Go ahead and vomit. Go ahead and pass out. Shit. I' don't even care if you're missing shit left and right, but don't you go inside. Don't say, "Aw, man, that was tough. I need a break." NO WAY, BITCH! Pick your ass up. Wipe the sweat from your eyes and GO!!! As soon as you stop, you've been defeated because guess what?! There's someone else that didn't. They kept moving. They found the desire to keep training. They wanted it more, and that sir is A COMPETITOR, THAT IS A CHAMPION!
Are you going to let that happen? Are you going to take a break, or stop for the day because of a little vomiting? Are you going to get beaten in your own yard? That's right. I said "YOUR OWN YARD"! 'Cause that's where it happens. EVERY-FUCKING-DAY! You cart your sorry ass out there and compete whether you like it or not. Goddamnit I hope not because I've got my money on you. CLINT DARDEN is nobody's bitch. You're no loser. You're a fucking competitor...a CHAMPION.
Take it all in. Use it all to make you better than you ever been before. Come meet day, you go out there and do your best, but RIGHT NOW YOU MAKE DAMN SURE THAT YOUR BEST IS GOOD ENOUGH!!!
Now, get out there and train. Remember that this is “how” your accomplishments will be made.