The boyfriend my in fact 'deserve' a lot of things and maybe if the girl was in a bad/abusive relationship and you truly cared for her well-being, I could see you would temporarily end up in this type of situation. But that is not what is going on here.
I am sorry to hear that you do not have any relationships in your life important enough that if they were removed it would be hurtful to you. Maybe this is part of the problem? Without the presence of this type of relationship in your own life, I think it would be difficult to empathize with the cheated boyfriends. I won't pretend to have the insight to diagnose or evaluate that scenario, but I do know that it is not healthy to describe your life in a way where you have no relationships inthat you truly value beyond business relationships.
The only other thing I would ask you is how long do you think this will remain satisfying/fun? Not sure how old you are now, but do you think in ten years of this behavior that you will be happy looking back at a trail of deceit and hurt feelings with nothing to show for it? Who will the the real loser at that point? Likely the relationships you affected will be healed or long gone by that time and the participants will hopefully have found/developed loving and trusting relationships. What will you have?
I am sorry to hear that you do not have any relationships in your life important enough that if they were removed it would be hurtful to you. Maybe this is part of the problem? Without the presence of this type of relationship in your own life, I think it would be difficult to empathize with the cheated boyfriends. I won't pretend to have the insight to diagnose or evaluate that scenario, but I do know that it is not healthy to describe your life in a way where you have no relationships inthat you truly value beyond business relationships.
The only other thing I would ask you is how long do you think this will remain satisfying/fun? Not sure how old you are now, but do you think in ten years of this behavior that you will be happy looking back at a trail of deceit and hurt feelings with nothing to show for it? Who will the the real loser at that point? Likely the relationships you affected will be healed or long gone by that time and the participants will hopefully have found/developed loving and trusting relationships. What will you have?