"working out makes me feel good...the times i have taken off, i have felt like shit the whole day"
Give it some time. At some point it will be, "working out makes me feel like shit and a day off makes me feel good." In fact, a week off will feel wonderful.
It's a hard concept to understand early on. But a year of non-stop training and you'll change your mind.
Perhaps try working two jobs, or maybe three. Make money with your time. Gives you something else to focus on. Perhaps a labor job (UPS, Fed-X) where you are physically active.
W6