MGF's 2006 Log

[mermaid]

I'm a very blunt person and was told that this is a big no no and made me basically not a good person.

To use a favourite English word:

Bollocks!

MGF, I you , lady. Stay true to yourself. I hope you know how special you are

 

[momsgettinfit]

Thanks ya'll for all the wonderful friendship that I have found here. Things have gone from bad to worse here. I don't know what is going to happen next but I didn't get to go to the fucken gym this evening that really pissed me off. My stomach is in knots and I feel sick.

THanks for letting me vent!

 

[momsgettinfit]

Tuesday,3/14

Well the weather did a drop in temps. We got heavy downpours but no severe storms.

I'm not feel well today,no energy no appetite, just down in the dumps. Hubby and I fought all evening until I finally fell asleep. It's draining on my energy big time. Now he's gone from being angry at me for truely nothing and I don't get it but I'm not going to go there. To being afraid of losing me and telling me how much he loves me and asking me if I am going to leave and how he can't picture his life without me. I haven't backed down and told him I love him but I am not gonna continue to live like this and if nothing changes I would rather be alone than live like this for the rest of my life.

So far this morning no food no anything. I have my vitamins and supps set out and ready to take but haven't even gotten that far yet.

I have to go to the grocery store but truely would rather just hybernate all day but with a 3 1/3 yr old little girl in the house I can't afford to do that so put on a happy face for her and carry on.

 

[getnfit06]

Still hoping for things to get better 4 U!!
Cheer Up!!! And those muscles you're working so hard for

 

[*Bunny*]

Aww moms Im sorry. hang in there. Now I have to ask, does this have anything to do with you
working out
looking good
feeling great
confident
him thinking you're going to leave him for someone 'better' ...
met some new friends online whom you like (& aren't chatting with men all day long)
Take pride is what God gave you so WTF show them off ... he needs to deal

along those lines?

Why is he so insecure?

 

[Roonytunes]

I'm so sorry to hear about your problems, MGF! I am sending you good vibes, sweetie, and really hope things get better for you. And just know that you're a wonderful mom for putting on your game face for your lil' girl!!

 

[Aries13]

Awwwwww I feel terrible that you arent happy right now! Usually you are so full of life and you better get well soon. Time is too important and very short to spend is in the 'dumps'.

Hang in there,......were here for you

 

[momsgettinfit]

Aww moms Im sorry. hang in there. Now I have to ask, does this have anything to do with you
working out
looking good
feeling great
confident
him thinking you're going to leave him for someone 'better' ...
met some new friends online whom you like (& aren't chatting with men all day long)
Take pride is what God gave you so WTF show them off ... he needs to deal

along those lines?

Why is he so insecure?

That's just the beginning of it Bunny. He is upset with me for helping this guy that needs help and asked me for it. He is stuck and can't lose anymore weight. So he and I started going over all that he is doing right now diet,excercise and I told him to start with some weight training b/c he was just doing cardio and tons and tons of it. Soooo he was like ok thanks so much. Then I see him in the gym in the weight room doing some stuff with light db's. I told John he was going to hurt himself b/c he was doing some weird thing and it was dangerous. HE's like SO. I'm like what how can you say that. THis guy asked me for help and I"m going to help him. So I told him about EF and told him he should really check it out b/c there's tons of information on here. I also gave him fitday's addy and the address for the website that shows you how to do the lifts properly for each body part and different workouts. This is not cool with hubby. So he thinks I'm going to leave him or something now b/c I told him bottom line somethings gotta give b/c I would rather be alone than like this. He took that further than I did and now thinks I'm leaving. I said I was not gonna say I would never leave if things don't change but I love him and my kids are my world and if things can be worked out I know it would be the best for all of us. I have no idea why he's so insecure. His dad did this same stuff to his mom and lost her forever. I told him that he's acting just like his dad. He says I know. I said you know what he did to your mom and what happened. I told him it's not fair to do this to me and I'm not gonna take it.

 

[momsgettinfit]

Ok finally I'm trying to eat something.

Grilled chicken salad w/ light balsamic vin., water

 

[Afgrl]

I hope that you feel better MGF. I know what that's like I was there about 4 years ago.....just try to keep your "chin up" for your daughter's sake. Keep believeing in yourself, you're strong and you can get through this. Hope things get better soon for you.