Maffiosa's new log~

[StRoNg_WoN]

Hey Maff, you don't know me and I don't mean to go all Dr. Phil on your ass but I think you should sit down and examine why you hate what you see in the mirror. Now if somebody puts on 60 lbs in a short amount of time, chances are they are going to be disappointed and feel the urge to tighten it back up again for both health and cosmetic purposes. But it sounds like you have pure disgust and hatred for what you see in the mirror that goes beyond cosmetic and health reasons.

I quoted your text above because I think it speaks volumes. It sounds to me like for as long as you can remember, you got 'fucked with' and it probably crushed your self-esteem and self-assurance. It rocked your perception of yourself and at the worst possible time; grade-school, when your paradigm and views are all being solidified and molded. So you came to the conclusion: "They are teasing me because I'm fat. Therefore being fat is bad. If I get big and cut they won't tease me anymore." Sure enough, you leaned up and the torture slowed down or ceased.

So you deduced from your experience: "Being fat = bad and I won't be accepted. Being in shape = good." Your answer to your problems was to do whatever it takes to stay in shape. If you looked into the mirror and you weren't in shape, you hated yourself because it was a reflection of all of the fucked up things people did (and might do) to you when you were out of shape in the past.

Whether you're overweight, or skinny, or rippped you should be able to look into the mirror and accept yourself. Maybe not love your appearance or be satisfied with the way you look, but able to ACCEPT yourself. Positive change is always good but there should never be hatred or disgust. You have a lot of great things going for you now; a wife and a beautiful child. You should be able to look at yourself and be proud of the great things you've accomplished along the way, instead of harping on the mistakes you've made, or the miserable experiences you've endured.

Get ripped and strong because you love the journey, not because you feel like you have to. You've got a lot more to live for now than a six pack.

Wow.. hats off... well said dude... I know we could all use a page from that book...

 

[Maffiosa]

first off congrats brutha on kicking the bad habits and embracing your new life...sounds like you have a lot to live for!!! if you were in that good a shape back then it will come back with some hard work and smart training!!! muscle memory is resilient!

diet looks good....what are the macros??
only thin i would suggest is after cardio cram in some protein...leave out the carbs as it impedes the fat burning process...esp if your doing HIIT. after training of course you need carbs...but im a believer in just protein after cardio....and then an hour later protein plus carbs

go to fitday.com and plug them in

Thanks for the tip bro, i'll get in some clean protien after the cardio. Ratio's is
55/25/20.

 

[Maffiosa]

Hey Maff, you don't know me and I don't mean to go all Dr. Phil on your ass but I think you should sit down and examine why you hate what you see in the mirror. Now if somebody puts on 60 lbs in a short amount of time, chances are they are going to be disappointed and feel the urge to tighten it back up again for both health and cosmetic purposes. But it sounds like you have pure disgust and hatred for what you see in the mirror that goes beyond cosmetic and health reasons.

I quoted your text above because I think it speaks volumes. It sounds to me like for as long as you can remember, you got 'fucked with' and it probably crushed your self-esteem and self-assurance. It rocked your perception of yourself and at the worst possible time; grade-school, when your paradigm and views are all being solidified and molded. So you came to the conclusion: "They are teasing me because I'm fat. Therefore being fat is bad. If I get big and cut they won't tease me anymore." Sure enough, you leaned up and the torture slowed down or ceased.

So you deduced from your experience: "Being fat = bad and I won't be accepted. Being in shape = good." Your answer to your problems was to do whatever it takes to stay in shape. If you looked into the mirror and you weren't in shape, you hated yourself because it was a reflection of all of the fucked up things people did (and might do) to you when you were out of shape in the past.

Whether you're overweight, or skinny, or rippped you should be able to look into the mirror and accept yourself. Maybe not love your appearance or be satisfied with the way you look, but able to ACCEPT yourself. Positive change is always good but there should never be hatred or disgust. You have a lot of great things going for you now; a wife and a beautiful child. You should be able to look at yourself and be proud of the great things you've accomplished along the way, instead of harping on the mistakes you've made, or the miserable experiences you've endured.

Get ripped and strong because you love the journey, not because you feel like you have to. You've got a lot more to live for now than a six pack.

Wow bro that was deep, it makes perfect sense tho. There is truth in what you say, no doubt. I am doing this for many reasons, but mostly because i love sports and feel better when i am healthy. The cardio and dieting isnt a chore, i enjoy it to be honest its like clock work. I love boxing, when you have a passion for somthing its work, but fun. Getting back into the lifting routine is what has been tuff, but all i can do is take it 1 day at a time.

 

[xblitz44x]

Best of luck to you!

 

[Maffiosa]

Today i'm feeling great, its friday im losing weight, and its my off day so cant complain.

No morning cardio this morning~

Food today:

8am: 1 cup of cheerios, 1/2 cup of fat free milk, 1 banana
10am 1 cup of cottage cheese, 1 cup of oats
12pm 5 egg white, 1 yolk, 4 oz of grnd turkey, 1 multi wheat wrap
2:30pm 1 can white tuna, 1 serving of reduced fat wheat thins (16)
4:30pm protien shake

Evening cardio (1.5 of boxing at the gym)

7pm 1 chicken brest, 1 cup of broc

I'll start posting ratios here soon, swamped at work~

 

[Ilk]

As JPT mentioned..

Good luck and stay on course!!

Post up everything you do..

 

[jpt]

try and get some protein in that first meal....you should have protein with every meal actually. throw in some eggwhites or even better mix a shake...banana, whey, eggs, oats, milk etc. juts get the protein in there!

 

[Maffiosa]

try and get some protein in that first meal....you should have protein with every meal actually. throw in some eggwhites or even better mix a shake...banana, whey, eggs, oats, milk etc. juts get the protein in there!

will do bro! on the norm i stat my morning with a egg white and grnd turkey brkfast burito, today i woke up craving cheerios lol~

 

[crossy]

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First off well done thus far. You seem to have alot of motivation and the right mindset to get back on track again you seem to have done some homework on your diet and set realastic goals. I can relate alot to how you feel when looking in the mirror and putting photos up of yourself. When i first posted on here properly about 17 weeks ago i hated they way i felt about myself i thought about it everyday i took the piss out of my weight before others could on a night out etc it was a torment. But with so much help and motivation from so many people on here i reached my goals and then set some more. Im still learning and gaining knowledge but my life is so much better now im alot happier with myself and life in general and less stressed. Please keep us updated on everything you do so we can help you as much as possible. Good luck bro and keep up the good work.

Crossy

 

[Maffiosa]

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First off well done thus far. You seem to have alot of motivation and the right mindset to get back on track again you seem to have done some homework on your diet and set realastic goals. I can relate alot to how you feel when looking in the mirror and putting photos up of yourself. When i first posted on here properly about 17 weeks ago i hated they way i felt about myself i thought about it everyday i took the piss out of my weight before others could on a night out etc it was a torment. But with so much help and motivation from so many people on here i reached my goals and then set some more. Im still learning and gaining knowledge but my life is so much better now im alot happier with myself and life in general and less stressed. Please keep us updated on everything you do so we can help you as much as possible. Good luck bro and keep up the good work.

Crossy

Thanks bro, at least you have the ballz to post your before pics lol! I get an upset stomache just by looking at mine, let alone posting them.