Considering everything, trying to get MY shit sorted out but also trying to work things out while I'm figuring out wtf I am gonna do.
Lotta messy details.
Basically, hoping for tha best but preparing for tha worst. That kinda thing.
I'm not gonna go into crisis mode until my son stops getting excited to see his dad every day. As long as they are enjoying each other and we aren't fighting in front of him, I figure I got time to make sure I am thinking things through and making tha right plans.
But I TOTALLY think ur question is justified. And no, I'm not planning on being in one of THOSE marriages 4ever. Just got many things to consider and want to make sure I am not just reacting to my emotions. My son still seems happy and prolly likes Nate more than he likes me, right now. It kinda makes me sad bc Ethan starts looking for his daddy before he finishes breakfast. He goes from room to room until he finds him. I'm not gonna be selfish and take that away from him as long as the fighting has stopped. Although, I DO realize I need to plan for a long term solution for my lonely, pathetic marriage.