well then call your friends back (from now on when u make new ones), and start talking to women that you do give a damn about.
I guess I can see what you mean, about how you are pissy regardless of how your situation is. I kinda have a dysphoria that goes on inside me regularly (a mild depression) I kinda just deal with it, I'm on medz but that only does so much.
i guess for you its anger.
well I hope u can find ways to work past it, and make yourself productive socially.
Either that or just accept your alone state (which I dont think is healthy, but if u do choose to go this route, just try not to become crazy and choke people or anything.)
And I know this sounds silly, but pray too. We need all the help we can get with stuff like this. Even if the odds that the prayers will be answered are miniscule.
But personally, I think in almost everyone's lives, anything would be better than dying. (unless you are a completely paralyzed vegtable or something)