read my thread about HMG. i think that may help you bigtime.
your body will recover.. it just will take TIME. I will tell you upfront probably a year to recover from 9 months of test is a good estimate for your HPTA to be close to fully restored.
you can run some hcg/HMG, natty supps, nolva (i personally dont like Clomid but some guys swear by it), and even an extreme low dose dostinex to help lower prolactin during this time.
natty supps were your answer all along, not testosterone!! they dont suppress you. chalk it up as a lesson learned. 9 months on is recoverable.
I dont really feel bad anymore and T levels are probably back to normal but will have it checked again. Thanks for all the info man