Need advice and quick

[nangiggles]

Cindy I can't stop it, it's what I do. My mind is fucked up, and my wife probably actually loves me for more than the fact that I'm muscular and take 2 hours to bust a nut, but I can't stop this downward spiral anymore. I wanna be alone when I die, it's my punishment for myself. I know none of you ngrs could ever understand me, but I will never stop till I completely destroy myself, it's my destiny, I'm ready to die, I can't explain it I just am. I have never known anyone like me.

If you know how you are and you know you wont change then you might as well keep this wife, you know the blonde will just turn into another wife that turns into another ex-wife and so on, put the cycle to rest here with this one you have kids and a family with, that damn "spark" and eternal happiness myth will make us do stupid things, yes I do strongly believe it's a myth, people change, prople grow, people fall in and out of love with people all the time, marriage is something you work on, you're not happy 100% of the times, hell you're not even supposed to be happy 10% of the time, because it's not just about you, it's about your significant other, and your kids and sometimes you need to ride in the back seat so it's their turn to be happy, then you go back in front while one them is in the back seat STOP trying to hog the seat bro, think about others

 

[blueta2]

As much as I appreciate what Blue said about me (and I sincerely do) I cringed when I read it because I knew the homo and tranny comments would be coming next.

Truth is, I understand much more than you give me credit for. How many people you think I've met who are like me?

I've been married to the wrong woman (thank God no kids). I've been unfaithful and in love with another woman, and felt the guilt and the need to punish myself. I told a beautiful, good woman that I didn't love her any more (over a bowl of Lucky Charms) and watched her fall apart.

I punished myself hard, drank too much, survived a horible drunken car accident that should have killed me (thank God I hit a tree and no one else.) Somehow, I've always been lucky.

Ultimately, I was with the wrong woman; but I also didn't appreciate what I had and completey misjudged how hard it would be to untangle myself from someone I had built my entire life around.

Took more than a year before i felt any joy in my life again. Not long after that, I got a second chance at love and did a much better job this time. I don't feel the need to punish myself any more.

My best advice; throw youself into your current marraige. You have talents, use them to the benefit of the woman who you know loves you. You may find that the life you always wanted is right there under your nose.

If you can't make it work, then you have to go down the painful road.

You're awesome!
Baggage builds character

 

[miplank]

If you know how you are and you know you wont change then you might as well keep this wife, you know the blonde will just turn into another wife that turns into another ex-wife and so on, put the cycle to rest here with this one you have kids and a family with, that damn "spark" and eternal happiness myth will make us do stupid things, yes I do strongly believe it's a myth, people change, prople grow, people fall in and out of love with people all the time, marriage is something you work on, you're not happy 100% of the times, hell you're not even supposed to be happy 10% of the time, because it's not just about you, it's about your significant other, and your kids and sometimes you need to ride in the back seat so it's their turn to be happy, then you go back in front while one them is in the back seat STOP trying to hog the seat bro, think about others

Holy fuckin big block of shit. You do know there is more to punctuation than just a comma, right?

Fuck I hate you.

 

[WoodyO]

I have no idea how anybody could fag up a perfectly good SB thread, but somehow, someone did it.

 

[nangiggles]

Holy fuckin big block of shit. You do know there is more to punctuation than just a comma, right?

Fuck I hate you.

LOL, I do know, I just dont fucking care enough when typing up a long post

 

[sterolizer]

LOL, I do know, I just dont fucking care enough when typing up a long post

You know if you want the fucking blind bat to read your shit, at least make it easy for him... Holy fuck

 

[nangiggles]

If I can read it anyone can

 

[Strongbow]

I don't speak fucking gay mushy homo faggot, will somebody translate all this bullshit for me?

 

[Strongbow]

Ima God damn Gangsta this is just what mutha fucking gangstas do my hommie told me that I'ma triple OG and he looks up to me cause my pimp hand is strong.

 

[sterolizer]

I don't speak fucking gay mushy homo faggot, will somebody translate all this bullshit for me?

Cliff notes: you leave your wife, you'll be unhappy.

Personally I think you should stick it out for your kids especially. They don't deserve to be unhappy. I know you love your son.

So keep them happy.