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My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!
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JKurz1
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As many know, I've had trouble eating NONclean forevr....but since seeing a shrink, since seeing the weights go from 225 for 12 to 135 for 10, since feeling like death and since following a strict ass diet, I've realized I'll never compete nor live how I want to by going in thi vicious cycle.
I am not sure how to do it as you know I havent cheated in YEARS.....but this week has been some drastic changing......instead of my normal diet, I eat whenever the fuck I'm hungry (min of 2 hours) and eat until I'm full....nothing crazy YET, but it's going to start...I can diet beter than anyone here (ok, or just as good) plus being on hrt helps BIG time....I come to you guys for SWERIOUS bulking ideas...how doy u bulk dirty or not and then compete? Cause that's my ultimate goal......Dont ay go t wendys and and get 4 tripples cheeses, cause that out....but shit, subway, qquiznos, buffets.....ehwatever...here' what I did yewterday..........remind you, the SOLE reason for this is that I am 160ls at 6'2......8-9%bf....and have always been scred to lose my abs....fuck it now, I'll get em back!
Gettting a TON of congrat PMs....not sure if it's good, but it's good in a sense that you guys care and know you support me to someday reach my goals and get where I want to be. I am truly convinced, with AAS or not, that if I gain 50lbs over the net 12 months (which is lcoming from a starvation state mind you) I can cut at least half off and be back to 10% in 6 mnths or less.........my diet isn't shit...cmon...you guys know me to well. I seriously bet 1/2 my meals are total bodybuilding foods that MOST should be eating and 1/2 are not........or just not in an abundance.
For examplle, my shcedule might look like this
1 cup of oats cup of blackberries, cup of egg whites and a scoop of casein at 7am
at 930 or so I might have some chicken breast, some almonds, maybe a couple of sandwhiches from exekiel bread, almonds.....
at noon or so I'll prob have some flank steak, some ground beef and a minimum of of a cup of rice.........
pretraininging I might have anoth cup of oats, some chicken....etc
then I slam 50g of whey, 50 g of arbs from fig newtowns, 50 g of dextrose
then prebed, it's usually whatever the hell I can force myself to eat.....last night I had my mom's casserole (thank god my parents are sweet and organic and eat very healthy)...it was this spinach dish, with grilled chicken, a little butter, some brown rice, baked...soooo fuicking good I must hae eaten half of the pan.
Today I'l probably hae a few subs from quicznoss, etc...........so is it stupid crazy no? DO I prob. need more, we'll see.....but I'll be 200lbs and staying the hell out of the mirror...........test hjelps big time too!
I am not sure how to do it as you know I havent cheated in YEARS.....but this week has been some drastic changing......instead of my normal diet, I eat whenever the fuck I'm hungry (min of 2 hours) and eat until I'm full....nothing crazy YET, but it's going to start...I can diet beter than anyone here (ok, or just as good) plus being on hrt helps BIG time....I come to you guys for SWERIOUS bulking ideas...how doy u bulk dirty or not and then compete? Cause that's my ultimate goal......Dont ay go t wendys and and get 4 tripples cheeses, cause that out....but shit, subway, qquiznos, buffets.....ehwatever...here' what I did yewterday..........remind you, the SOLE reason for this is that I am 160ls at 6'2......8-9%bf....and have always been scred to lose my abs....fuck it now, I'll get em back!
Gettting a TON of congrat PMs....not sure if it's good, but it's good in a sense that you guys care and know you support me to someday reach my goals and get where I want to be. I am truly convinced, with AAS or not, that if I gain 50lbs over the net 12 months (which is lcoming from a starvation state mind you) I can cut at least half off and be back to 10% in 6 mnths or less.........my diet isn't shit...cmon...you guys know me to well. I seriously bet 1/2 my meals are total bodybuilding foods that MOST should be eating and 1/2 are not........or just not in an abundance.
For examplle, my shcedule might look like this
1 cup of oats cup of blackberries, cup of egg whites and a scoop of casein at 7am
at 930 or so I might have some chicken breast, some almonds, maybe a couple of sandwhiches from exekiel bread, almonds.....
at noon or so I'll prob have some flank steak, some ground beef and a minimum of of a cup of rice.........
pretraininging I might have anoth cup of oats, some chicken....etc
then I slam 50g of whey, 50 g of arbs from fig newtowns, 50 g of dextrose
then prebed, it's usually whatever the hell I can force myself to eat.....last night I had my mom's casserole (thank god my parents are sweet and organic and eat very healthy)...it was this spinach dish, with grilled chicken, a little butter, some brown rice, baked...soooo fuicking good I must hae eaten half of the pan.
Today I'l probably hae a few subs from quicznoss, etc...........so is it stupid crazy no? DO I prob. need more, we'll see.....but I'll be 200lbs and staying the hell out of the mirror...........test hjelps big time too!
BiggT
New member
I'm on board, Jeff....any diet that lets you gradually gain pounds is a good diet for you right now.....Quizno's isn't crap or anything either, I mean it isn't 'precontest' food, but it isn't exactly complete garbage either....plus it tastes good....get a foot long sub and don't think twice about it. Anybody telling you to eat 6 Whoppers is full of it, lol....I could eat a lot, and at NO time ever could I ever physically eat 6 whoppers and 4 quarter pounders and plain old ridiculous stuff like that.......get a foot long of your choice and either a bowl of soup or some baked lays.
SgtSlaughter
New member
Don't forget to get teh double meat though... they're skimpy on the meat if you don't IMO.
I've forgotten to say it before and was pissed... it was like eating all bread.
I've forgotten to say it before and was pissed... it was like eating all bread.
JKurz1
Banned
No need for it..you are absolutely right...but subway and quiznoos are perfects sane and good...trust me.......eating out used to be NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Now it will be 4x a week max....trust me, Im knowledgeable enough not to do this completely stupid, just stop counting........macros
for example, went to a deli sat, to pick up a tray for my gma.....I was an hour early (THANKS A LOT DAD FOR TELLING ME GO NOW!)
and I had eaten my am oats and eggs 1hr earlier.....sat down had some coffee...glancing at the menu I saw some ff tuna.....hmmm.....but with what I thought? I dont eat bread,...........Gimme a ff tuna on pumpernickle, a diet coke, and a coffeee.......I must have eaten that and cole slaw in about 2 mins.....then the power goes out.....tray will be another 45 minutes.........long story short, I had 3 HUGE HUGE deli subs, ff tuna, then roast beef, then turkey breast and have had close to a loaf of bread everyday since.............havent been this smoth in a long time, nor as weak for that matter *(225x8 for deads yesterday) and I still feel like shit...but this all started monday....today is thurs....Im sure it'll take 2 weeks minimum to feel normal.........oats chicken and almonds now......then train...then I have no clue...all I know is I am bringing back my pw shake that my trainer first told me about 50g whey, 50g carbs from dex 50g from fig newtons, then 1 hour later....hmmmm.......maybe a sub, havent had my bread for oday and havent had quiznoooss?........I just dont have he energy to cook, when I start to get it back, maybe I'll start making some pasta, it is my heritage afterall.,just been monthns and months...............damn I gotta get my gma some choc for yesterday too...I FORGOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!She's my last gparent left.......how the fuck did I forget? I guess when you have an anxiety disorder and can take care of yourself cause you feel like dying every waking second, it's easy to forget, buit I cant do it anymore!!!
for example, went to a deli sat, to pick up a tray for my gma.....I was an hour early (THANKS A LOT DAD FOR TELLING ME GO NOW!)
and I had eaten my am oats and eggs 1hr earlier.....sat down had some coffee...glancing at the menu I saw some ff tuna.....hmmm.....but with what I thought? I dont eat bread,...........Gimme a ff tuna on pumpernickle, a diet coke, and a coffeee.......I must have eaten that and cole slaw in about 2 mins.....then the power goes out.....tray will be another 45 minutes.........long story short, I had 3 HUGE HUGE deli subs, ff tuna, then roast beef, then turkey breast and have had close to a loaf of bread everyday since.............havent been this smoth in a long time, nor as weak for that matter *(225x8 for deads yesterday) and I still feel like shit...but this all started monday....today is thurs....Im sure it'll take 2 weeks minimum to feel normal.........oats chicken and almonds now......then train...then I have no clue...all I know is I am bringing back my pw shake that my trainer first told me about 50g whey, 50g carbs from dex 50g from fig newtons, then 1 hour later....hmmmm.......maybe a sub, havent had my bread for oday and havent had quiznoooss?........I just dont have he energy to cook, when I start to get it back, maybe I'll start making some pasta, it is my heritage afterall.,just been monthns and months...............damn I gotta get my gma some choc for yesterday too...I FORGOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!She's my last gparent left.......how the fuck did I forget? I guess when you have an anxiety disorder and can take care of yourself cause you feel like dying every waking second, it's easy to forget, buit I cant do it anymore!!!
JKurz1
Banned
This is so weird but I really think it all is about the drugs (zoloft) I think I might do quiznos after for dinner after my shake and shower and then tomorrow I cant wait for a friggn bagel with cream chease and eggs dripping from them along with my oats and whey............damn.................my gma better have some cookies at her house tonight too...she's gonna cry!
