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My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!
- Thread starter JKurz1
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JKurz1
Banned
Didn't get to my goal THIS TIME....so I am in session 3 of counciling.......don't know how much more I'll need regularly, as the effects have slapped me in the face......time to get a little soft if I want to get strong and healthy...JKurz1 said:I say this......Jan 1 you weigh 175 or you seek counseling....
JKurz1
Banned
couldn't let this doochbag get the last post in.......im coming back dogbreath you fing sit tight......
I got some good ass drugs aleviates anxiety bigtime zoloft and klopin? kloptrin? plus counciling......and I just got back from the hospital 2.3 % bf......i laughed .....said get the hell out I'd be dead.....she didn't even smile...ummmmm BURGERS ANYONE??? IM LUCKKY TO HAVE ABS OF ANY NATURE.....FUCK!
I got some good ass drugs aleviates anxiety bigtime zoloft and klopin? kloptrin? plus counciling......and I just got back from the hospital 2.3 % bf......i laughed .....said get the hell out I'd be dead.....she didn't even smile...ummmmm BURGERS ANYONE??? IM LUCKKY TO HAVE ABS OF ANY NATURE.....FUCK!
zk7
New member
Dude, your the guy with Massive BDD issues? lol, it's so easy to regain ur mass back, you simply need to eat more and lift .
I think that your Career thingy is shit, sitting on a desk doing CPA. Wtf is CPA. I would never work for anyone, go run your own business.
Thats the future.
Also, Your test is only 150mg? what will that do? You need at least 500mg Test Cyp / Week and same with EQ.
Good luck dude but remember this very important thing.
Ask not How to get out of the hole you dug yourself into ,
But ASK Why you got into the hole to begin with.
What are the Roots of your problem, perhaps deep rooted issues, Job, self esteem, self confidence, career, etc.. Cuz you could easily relapse once your all buff.
Remember you need to solve what bothers you, not only the consequences of what it did.
I think that your Career thingy is shit, sitting on a desk doing CPA. Wtf is CPA. I would never work for anyone, go run your own business.
Thats the future.
Also, Your test is only 150mg? what will that do? You need at least 500mg Test Cyp / Week and same with EQ.
Good luck dude but remember this very important thing.
Ask not How to get out of the hole you dug yourself into ,
But ASK Why you got into the hole to begin with.
What are the Roots of your problem, perhaps deep rooted issues, Job, self esteem, self confidence, career, etc.. Cuz you could easily relapse once your all buff.
Remember you need to solve what bothers you, not only the consequences of what it did.
JKurz1
Banned
I am stlil alive and kicking foral my supporters....you know my granmada doied and to watch m dad cry was one of the hardest things ththave ever happened to me. His last rmemberence of her was wthe last few years when she looked like a totaly different person. SO, long story short. I dont wanna die looing like I do now....i cut a cord and I am done playing ths ****inggame. I've said it befroe but this is the real deal. I am sayng on 250mg of cyp a week and eaitng whatever the **** I feel like it every two hours/ I weight measily 6'2 and 155. SO its a loooongnever ending cycle......so, whatever I feel like having I will have... I will measure proten...nothing else....my mirrors are covered and I am going to town whever I am hungery. No shakes except pw....StufI haventhad in YEARS! Lat night I had sandwhches, lazana, rice, you name it....today ive had 3 sandwhiches already on to of my oats and flank and rice.....Im going to the movies soon......prob. popcorn, jujus, whatevr the **** i feel like...call me idiort, all me stupid call me fat, fine....sorry boys if you disown me you rhink I;m dumb,,,,its from the old school lee priest style I guess.......this game is over...153 is ridiculous and I realized this when I benched 135 for 6 reps.......Ill start a huge cycle at 180lbs and will hopefully be there in 1 month.........sure..half may be fat, but with some test, maybe I'll get 40% fat.....Its just ging to be my number#1 chore..I fel soooo miserable, you have no idea.....shaking, cold, its over... .......I havent looked in the mirror in 3 days and thats what stopped me before.....test will help me keep he fat at bay....took some time off work to just fouces on eaint and training...I will be on stage......those corn beef sandwhiches were so ****ing good lsdt night, I could eaten 20........240 here I come....stage BOUND! I PROMISE!!!
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silver_shadow
New member
jan 18th - you said you were 167, today feb 14th 155? what happened?
